he was the closest thing I ever had to true love irl, it lasted about 3 years on and off frequent sex and adventures and attempts at living together and all of that. lots of drama and lots of fun. he proposed but every time we got too close to being fully committed to each other we would break up
i just felt like reminiscing
its my fault. i do this. why cant i want normal and healthy relationships? why is it so boring to me and why is the opposite so much more enjoyable
Pseud wants me to meet up with him irl and me to be a housewife and all that but it will never happen. sux. my ex is the only one who got the type of relationship all other men in my life have wanted from me but never got. he(my ex john) was it, was the "one" but it was destined to break apart
#Lesson learned: say yes when proposed to.
i know I should have
no, i don't want him back. actually, i had him back, and i broke up with him again lol
i'm different, something is so wrong. so different. why dont i want what everyone else wants? i used to be so much more functional and normal but my drive to not be that anymore destroyed the girl i used to be. im nothing like her anymore, im her dark side that has taken completely over
#Lesson learned: say yes when proposed to.
#Lesson learned: Don't say yes too quickly.
i know I should have
I know I shouldn't have, or rather the mistakes that followed were a learning experience.
he was the closest thing I ever had to true love irl, it lasted about 3 years on and off frequent sex and adventures and attempts at living together and all of that. lots of drama and lots of fun. he proposed but every time we got too close to being fully committed to each other we would break up
Why would it break apart?
he was the closest thing I ever had to true love irl, it lasted about 3 years on and off frequent sex and adventures and attempts at living together and all of that. lots of drama and lots of fun. he proposed but every time we got too close to being fully committed to each other we would break up
Why would it break apart?
I would push away
with online relationships and friendships, the ones i have now are partly based on the fact that im unavailable and its accepted but like, all the relationships i used to have with people irl that I am actually compatible with in an irl friendship or relationship are destroyed i pushed them all away and refuse to form irl friendships or relationships anymore
he wasnt my only ltr but he was my longest and most "serious"
