Turncoat said:That seems more like being amazed by a sense of unfathomable scale and function.
Spiritualism isn't really just one thing to everyone. What does it mean to you, especially within your framework of Atheism? Is it typical Noosphere jargon or is it something you've spent more time on?I've never heard of "Noosphere"
I figured that might be the case, so I linked a Harry Dean Stanton rant.
Turncoat said:Yes, very much so.Okay, my interests other than politics and philosophy are
history, military, military history,
These were a given.
science,
Which branches of science?
science fiction,
What stuff?
I like pizza. I like Chocolate,
So you like convenience foods.
Have you ever tried cooking? How much have you looked into stuff like vitamins and nutrients?
I don't know how any of this factors into this, but okay.
You need to be understood for more than just some books you've read, and this is clearly an under-exercised area for you.
You've literally discussed these subjects and discussions give you headaches. Unless you're being dramatic, that's kinda worrisome right?
I liked Dexter, I liked Punisher,
You were definitely trying to sell those vibes earlier on without directly saying it, yeah.
How often do you model off of media?
when I was younger, I was big into Doctor Who.
Which doctor was your favorite?
I like Star Wars,
What are your thoughts on "The Force"?
I enjoy other animes like Attack on Titan, My Hero Academia, Hellsing: Ultimate, JoJo's Bizzare Adventure.
Not a fan of the slower calmer stuff?
Movies I enjoy Terminator, Terminator 2. Alien, Aliens, Alien Covenanent, Predator, Predator 2, Robocop, Rambo: First Blood.
There is definitely a theme in your choice of movies.
What do you like about this cluster of films specifically, the Predator/Prey aspect?
I've talked about stuff in depth with other people before, I know what you're asking, I just can't process any of that here, it doesn't make sense to me. Me talking to a stranger over a site on a thread about me and what my interests are doesn't help me think of what interests me.
Why do you think that is? Does hearing a voice and seeing a face somehow force more out of you?
You seem... impressionable, but on some level you've designed a fixation as your resistance to it. If someone taps into that fixation I worry about what they might be able to do with you.
The majority of the music I listen to, the videos I watch, are communist, there are other channels that are gaming and such, but there's not much to that. In regards to Video Games, say Hearts of Iron IV, I go Communist, I spread Communism. With my friends online. I discuss politics and that leads to me talking about the system and such.
So most of your life is spent through a narrow lens of reinforcing behaviors?
Such a singular drive seems borderline obsessive, and further contributes to the "all eggs in one basket" problem I was discussing earlier on.
I know I could talk about other stuff I do it it a lot, but you've broken my ability to do that, I don't know how to function, I can't even think entirely, I took painkillers, I still got a headache. It's like there's a clog in the gears and they won't turn.
You sure that's not just from too much time staring at a computer screen?
I don't know how to explain anything now, because it's not working, I was perfectly fine and functioning and able to do everything your asking me to, until we started doing this.
Started doing which?
I've talked to other people about my condition before. yet right now, I can't. I don't know why, and it's annoying me. I can't see the depth your wanting me to go. It's just nothing. I am trying to think hard about what interests me, I can list off stuff, but I can't explain them, I just do.
"I just do" is dangerously simplistic and an easy way to have others steer your rendered easy-to-justify behaviors. Without depth through specificity everything will only be surface level.
I can explain them with my friends, I go deep conversations with my friends, over movies and shit, I have a friend I go deep into the lore of Warhammer 40k with. Yet none of that is working now.
What kinds of depth? Most people when they get into something have a focus, like people who like old horror movies for their makeup and lighting work.