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Spatial Mind said: 

 

 

I don't go in toilets. We say washroom, and I wasn't suffering either. 

I didn't think you were. Really zi thought the dream was positive. 

I really think meeting you was a cosmic sign. Whether I am meant to help you or vice versa, make of it what you will. But there was a reason I met you. 

Said the white guy, who only uses black people in his many avatars. 

Seems to me like you're the same.

I have several friends from Trinidad. Black spin but white in nature. Id count you the same.

Its the one thing I dont do. However if I did Id argue itd be petty of you to dox me over it.

If you thought you knew me then you'd be restrained. In that sense, Im very restrained. I even know who Edvard was.

Id say several characters could pretend to be you, me included. Do you not think that you're a character. Your essence is so apparent and ripe for capturing that it would be foolish to think you're a real person.

hell will just be you three arguing about your intelligence

The point I wanted to make is, that I am restrained even in here. If I really wanted to I can show up at your work in 12 hours and take you for breakfast. I don't intend to dox you. Especially to SC, though no one here would actually abuse you, except maybe Nathan. He certainly would put you on some kind of leash. As he did in the past Nate would attack you with a sock puppet since we know who he is. I'm not just saying this cause I dislike the guy either. In the bisexual pride thread, because I pointed out how no one envies bi people for being attracted to both genders, he's stuck responding to every line I wrote, twisting and gaslighting, trying to get women against me again. It's the type of person he is. 

I'm not in the business of tossing people to the dogs, I never did and never will be the one to dox someones unknown identity. I never liked it when it happened to me and found myself surrounded by ugly demonic characters, and they don't inspire me. 

The only thing that isn't real about me in SC, is when I flirt with Med. I don't have any real attraction or romantic feeling for her. It's satire cause her reaction is to reject me with extreme predajust, yet she expects Chapo to be more open to her after countless/endless attempts to hook up with him. It's also part of the reason why she can't have him, but I honestly can't even get into that, as it goes beyond the scope of awareness from the majority here. Med has a soul contract with Chapo, her soul needs something, and that very thing is letting go of whatever she doesn't want to. It's much needed for her soul to find peace. Her pain can go away and it would've been long gone if she did what she needed to do long ago. Still I'll toss her some love poetry and talk about our kids which don't exist, and she'll snap like a crocodile on disturbed waters. In this sense what I'm doing with Med isn't exactly fake either. When she less exaggerated she'll be better off. She's a young soul with less experience. Many people here would say I'm talking shit, but they know to the core, if Med only did what she's supposed to do, she would recover, and IF there is such a thing as a soul, it would be better off. To each their own. 

In person I'm also spiritual. I don't put up a front and do shit like meditate just to be seen doing it or anything, but I will talk about God, Christ, angels, and demons. I don't like religion, that's the stuff atheists want to talk about, entry level shit. I'll talk about Archons, the Bible. Politics. Cryptocurrencies, Ai, art. Music. Aliens are boring now, they are late to the point where they can show up and pay less attention than I would have to them. Unless they came for war. In person I can play my instrument like as I claimed I can, and my sense of humor is exactly as you see here. 

In here I'm not as loud as one would think, while my thread count is higher than I think, I almost never make them despite having something to say. I'm more likely to dig up an old thread and carry on in there. 

I built a $16,000 dollar supercomputer in front of you, mined, traded and everything I invested in and recommended blew up, and I'm still considered some pretend character in here. I don't get it. In the video game thread, I'm the only one posting footage of game play. Like I actually upload and post shit even if it's that, and I'm some pretend character. 3D rendering and arts, and music. Still I'm somehow pretending to be some character. 

I don't pretend to be someone or something I'm not. I have these avatars and each and every last one of them is known to be me, even by people who don't really come here. I'm consistent in what I say. Not fearful of talking about past discussions even if I don't recall the conversation, cause I'll just say what I know again. 

I really do dislike woke policies, and don't think it's a good idea for the world to celebrate homosexuality. its actually a sick thing to do that and bad for business. Stuff like that shouldn't be stuffed down the necks of straight people, and children. If I don't have sex with men, I shouldn't be expected to clap my hands and cheer it on, so some snowflake can feel special about themselves being degenerate. No one does that for me, never will and I'm fine with that. 

You see me as a white person. Whatever. I don't know what black people are supposed to be like. Maybe I'm being compared to some American negro who's all hippity hop, and uses street slang all the time. If you go to Trinidad, go somewhere safe. You and your wife will stick out like sore thumbs, and the odds of you getting jacked will be pretty high. Common crimes over there are kidnapping for ransom and the police will be very military like carrying machine guns even while doing something as simple as directing traffic. The thugs in Trinidad speak with a slang so hard not even I can understand them and I used to have a Trini accent. 

If your intention is to express that you do not see race, don't do it, and if you want to claim I'm brighter than black people don't do that either. 

I speak like a Canadian. I don't have the infamous "Toronto Accent" which is some mutantat street slang evolved with jamaican slang. That shit only happens when people want to be hip or trendy. My family in Trinidad would say I sound like the people on TV, since living in Canada means I have this accent, which is very similar to some American accent.

You might be amazed that black people speak the same way everyone else does. Some of them have British accents and don't lay on the street slang. And no offence to American blacks, but they are widely disliked by black people from other nations, especially Africans. So when you say I don't seem like a black person, I doubt you're comparing me to T'Challa from Wakanda. Not even CS comes across as some harcore American black street cultured persona. 

I think the only ones who'd say I'm a pretend character in here, are the ones who don't like what I have to say, and what I offer. I produce the best feedback from the looks of it, and don't really belong here if i had to be honest. The one who shines brightly in hell will be the most tormented. I opened the lid saw my name, then came in. I did enjoy my visit, but I'll be gone again soon. 

 Spatial Mind:

 

In reality if you saw me, you wouldn't approach me. You wouldn't approach anyone from here, cause if they met you and knew your real name, they would see you the way I do. It's an isolating energetic block you've created for yourself.  

Honestly I don't get that, jada seems like one of the most tolerant people. Most people have defense mechanics left over from almost all of evolution even modern and if anything you have one of the most complex/discriminatory mechanisms that you go into detail about a lot. I do think you'd probably be pretty nice in real life to a stranger, just not so much anyone reliant on you I'd think you'd crush that person intensely (from all the "victory" stories you have). I honestly notice myself talking more here when Jada does so and even more willing to talk to you because Jada gets you more soft and open. 

Thanks Dragoon. Its nice to have someone in my court.

The point I wanted to make is, that I am restrained even in here. If I really wanted to I can show up at your work in 12 hours and take you for breakfast. I don't intend to dox you.

Especially to SC, though no one here would actually abuse you, except maybe Nathan. He certainly would put you on some kind of leash. As he did in the past Nate would attack you with a sock puppet since we know who he is. I'm not just saying this cause I dislike the guy either. In the bisexual pride thread, because I pointed out how no one envies bi people for being attracted to both genders, he's stuck responding to every line I wrote, twisting and gaslighting, trying to get women against me again. It's the type of person he is.

Im not really interested in this topic, youve had your say about TC. Just let it be.

I'm not in the business of tossing people to the dogs, I never did and never will be the one to dox someones unknown identity. I never liked it when it happened to me and found myself surrounded by ugly demonic characters, and they don't inspire me.

Good. Means youre not a terrible person.

In person I'm also spiritual. I don't put up a front and do shit like meditate just to be seen doing it or anything, but I will talk about God, Christ, angels, and demons. I don't like religion, that's the stuff atheists want to talk about, entry level shit. I'll talk about Archons, the Bible. Politics. Cryptocurrencies, Ai, art. Music. Aliens are boring now, they are late to the point where they can show up and pay less attention than I would have to them. Unless they came for war. In person I can play my instrument like as I claimed I can, and my sense of humor is exactly as you see here.

Yes these are exactly the things Id list about the character spatial. In fact, those are not only a part of you but your character's core identity.

If you asked me about my core identity I probably would get it wrong, though Im sure you or someone else get some of it right, but most not. So that's why I suspect you are a pretend character. You are too self conscious about your act. Youre a character who is those things you just described, that's the character you play, not who you are.

I really do dislike woke policies, and don't think it's a good idea for the world to celebrate homosexuality. its actually a sick thing to do that and bad for business. Stuff like that shouldn't be stuffed down the necks of straight people, and children. If I don't have sex with men, I shouldn't be expected to clap my hands and cheer it on, so some snowflake can feel special about themselves being degenerate. No one does that for me, never will and I'm fine with that.

Those are also part of your mask. You even list them as part of your character.

Its like if I listed that I'm smart, a professor, a highly successful person, moral, spiritually confused, lonely, and obsessive.

You see me as a white person. Whatever. I don't know what black people are supposed to be like. Maybe I'm being compared to some American negro who's all hippity hop, and uses street slang all the time. If you go to Trinidad, go somewhere safe. You and your wife will stick out like sore thumbs, and the odds of you getting jacked will be pretty high. Common crimes over there are kidnapping for ransom and the police will be very military like carrying machine guns even while doing something as simple as directing traffic. The thugs in Trinidad speak with a slang so hard not even I can understand them and I used to have a Trini accent.

Black people have a certain way of communicating. Like youre more of a white person, Im more of a black person. I see how we communicate and it's partially set by biology. I dont see any black in you tbh. Maybe if I met you IRL Id see it. How tall are you?

You might be amazed that black people speak the same way everyone else does. Some of them have British accents and don't lay on the street slang. And no offence to American blacks, but they are widely disliked by black people from other nations, especially Africans. So when you say I don't seem like a black person, I doubt you're comparing me to T'Challa from Wakanda. Not even CS comes across as some harcore American black street cultured persona.

CS tried to stab Jimmy to death with a pencil and tried to kill whatshisname from Midwest. She's definitely black, bro.

I produce the best feedback from the looks of it, and don't really belong here if i had to be honest.

I agree. I dont dislike you at all. And you dont belong here. Id advise you to leave to be honest, seeing the impact of this place on your mental health.

I just think that the real you is smarter and more restrained. I may have seen the real you in my dream.

Dragoonback said: 

 Spatial Mind:

 

In reality if you saw me, you wouldn't approach me. You wouldn't approach anyone from here, cause if they met you and knew your real name, they would see you the way I do. It's an isolating energetic block you've created for yourself.  

Honestly I don't get that, jada seems like one of the most tolerant people. Most people have defense mechanics left over from almost all of evolution even modern and if anything you have one of the most complex/discriminatory mechanisms that you go into detail about a lot. I do think you'd probably be pretty nice in real life to a stranger, just not so much anyone reliant on you I'd think you'd crush that person intensely (from all the "victory" stories you have). I honestly notice myself talking more here when Jada does so and even more willing to talk to you because Jada gets you more soft and open. 

 Pretty sure I'd fuck off whenever you told me to and never directly attacked you. Gave praise when it was due and we got along in the video game thread. You had a knack for turning any conversation into a tirade about capitalism which in turn would make you quite wrathful toward me, often accusing me of being a capitalist, which I kinda am at heart. Still I'd put you down nice and easy and say I understand why you're fucked up. I also said you're not the sharpest tool in the shed, which is pretty obvious. 

Even now you're kinda hacking away at me, and you got it twisted. I look after my people, and even those of mine who never deserved it. Takes over a decade for me to let someone go, and I do so for the better. That's a sad victory, and how so ? Hanging onto toxic connections is a form of self harm, cutting them loose allows room for growth and other things or people to have our limited time. It's simply ending bad cycles. The sad part is I still love the bitch, but remarkably the numbing is now a thing.  

Jada said: 

Thanks Dragoon. Its nice to have someone in my court.

From my perspective he'd only interact with me while siding against me in some form. He's also being nice. It's a program he might one day snap out of if he feels safe enough, and this time It's adorable. 

The point I wanted to make is, that I am restrained even in here. If I really wanted to I can show up at your work in 12 hours and take you for breakfast. I don't intend to dox you.

I believe you.

How come are you calling me by my name here and in my dreams then?

Especially to SC, though no one here would actually abuse you, except maybe Nathan. He certainly would put you on some kind of leash. As he did in the past Nate would attack you with a sock puppet since we know who he is. I'm not just saying this cause I dislike the guy either. In the bisexual pride thread, because I pointed out how no one envies bi people for being attracted to both genders, he's stuck responding to every line I wrote, twisting and gaslighting, trying to get women against me again. It's the type of person he is.

Im not really interested in this topic, youve had your say about TC. Just let it be.

Legga, this is SC. It's something I'll always be on top of cause I see how he often had many of you nodding along, while he likes to preach skewed imagery about me. He's managed to insert himself in you in this regard typically while we're in the middle of clashing and it does make things worse. Not going to talk more about this, but I will mention, the difference between you and Dragoon, is with you Nate's effect isn't permanent while to others I'm some kind of fiend to be wary of. 

While we're on the subject of what's real, I'll take the time to solidify the truth about myself while evidence is presented, as uninteresting as it is, it's important to note this stuff while dwelling in the cesspool.  

I'm not in the business of tossing people to the dogs, I never did and never will be the one to dox someones unknown identity. I never liked it when it happened to me and found myself surrounded by ugly demonic characters, and they don't inspire me.

Good. Means youre not a terrible person.

In person I'm also spiritual. I don't put up a front and do shit like meditate just to be seen doing it or anything, but I will talk about God, Christ, angels, and demons. I don't like religion, that's the stuff atheists want to talk about, entry level shit. I'll talk about Archons, the Bible. Politics. Cryptocurrencies, Ai, art. Music. Aliens are boring now, they are late to the point where they can show up and pay less attention than I would have to them. Unless they came for war. In person I can play my instrument like as I claimed I can, and my sense of humor is exactly as you see here.

Yes these are exactly the things Id list about the character spatial. In fact, those are not only a part of you but your character's core identity.

If you asked me about my core identity I probably would get it wrong, though Im sure you or someone else get some of it right, but most not. So that's why I suspect you are a pretend character. You are too self conscious about your act. Youre a character who is those things you just described, that's the character you play, not who you are.

Here's the thing. I do not have to be self conscious about juggling some act. I have a policy to stick to the truth. I'm not afraid of being asked the same question over extended periods of time, my responses will remain consistent. 

Have you forgotten I'm called Tony in here ?

In reality almost no one calls me Tony, but it's the correct short form for my real name and I do respond to it. I'm called Tony here cause I was doxxed over a decade ago. I'd go as far as to boast that I am the original first known person on these pages before Luna's SC.  With this I'll tell you, I have 0 motivation to conceal myself. Some members here are actually like this at various levels. You seem to not know what I look like but I assure you, somewhere in this very abyss there are pictures of me.

I really do dislike woke policies, and don't think it's a good idea for the world to celebrate homosexuality. its actually a sick thing to do that and bad for business. Stuff like that shouldn't be stuffed down the necks of straight people, and children. If I don't have sex with men, I shouldn't be expected to clap my hands and cheer it on, so some snowflake can feel special about themselves being degenerate. No one does that for me, never will and I'm fine with that.

Those are also part of your mask. You even list them as part of your character.

Its like if I listed that I'm smart, a professor, a highly successful person, moral, spiritually confused, lonely, and obsessive.

There's a difference between how our attributes are displayed.... I don't just say things about myself, I display them. 

- Disliking those things is one thing. Yeah okay, that's believable. Expressing one's opinion, fine. 

- 3D. I did not just say I'm a 3D artist, I showed it. I added Crave's calligraphy saying Spatial Mind and some math based on the golden ratio which is a paper Alice wrote. The images those 2 wrote by hand, scanned and sent to me as gifts. I rendered them together with some 3D Bitcoin which was a project I showcased modeling progress and completed it using the Mental Ray rendering engine. At one point I might have modeled something to explain something, also when I was doxxed one of my demo reels was put on the table. This is before Generative Ai. ( Which 3D artists are actually loving in terms of workflow btw )

- Cryptocurrency. I built that supercomputer and documented it on SC. One image I held the GPU in front of SC on the screen. I sent members cryptocurrencies, traded in Alice's trade group and posted images of before and after of buys and sells I was talking about starting at 20k per trade the whole bull market. Once Kestrel and I were on discord, and we were making moves on Chainlink and I sold 90k right in front of him. I drew charts, said what's about to happen, then it happens and I played on it. I used to do that in SC until I never wanted to share anything with Jim. Some laughed when I said get some Tron at half a penny. Now it has an all time high of $0.43 and now sitting pretty at 32 cents in a bear market as I'm writing this. This is the best thing I ever did in this community.  

A note on my beloved mining rigs. (192GB of VRAM) It has been dismantled and rebuilt into less powerful more efficient units for local Ai. Doing it at home is cost effective. Sure I never posted any proof, but I sure as hell have the spare parts to build such a hot rod don't I. I'm not sharing what I have my agents doing in the world, but it's more insane than, well anything I ever done. ( With Ai we're only directors and the machine is our employee ) In a year or two I think everyone will have Ai agents. Sooner the better though. 

- Guitar. When I was doxxed a video of me playing something really basic was on the table. I never really show off what I can do, then one time Blanc said post something and I made the recording and posted it. I can play the song again, except I can't seem to replicate how the song ended in that recording, I was pretty drained when I recorded and uploaded it. I don't normally do this and the best of what I can do was never posted online. I don't usually show off when it comes to this. My psychology behind this is to only perform something if prompted to. Just how it is. 

- Spirituality. I can only talk about it, and I've been doing it before Lunas. this is self evident. 

- I have a claim of being soft spoken. Anyone who heard my voice, would agree. This too was a part of my dox and remained so on discord chat when we used to do that in CancerCommunity. 

 So yes Legga, when you say you're this and that, to an observer it's just talk and really doesn't compare to what I've, ( are you ready for this) "showcased" here. This isn't a matter of me trying to wave my cock around, but what I did here isn't the kind of output that comes from a masked character pretending to be like this.  

You see me as a white person. Whatever. I don't know what black people are supposed to be like. Maybe I'm being compared to some American negro who's all hippity hop, and uses street slang all the time. If you go to Trinidad, go somewhere safe. You and your wife will stick out like sore thumbs, and the odds of you getting jacked will be pretty high. Common crimes over there are kidnapping for ransom and the police will be very military like carrying machine guns even while doing something as simple as directing traffic. The thugs in Trinidad speak with a slang so hard not even I can understand them and I used to have a Trini accent.

Black people have a certain way of communicating. Like youre more of a white person, Im more of a black person. I see how we communicate and it's partially set by biology. I dont see any black in you tbh. Maybe if I met you IRL Id see it. How tall are you?

I'm 6'1.

And I get it. Biologically speaking you adopt the science that white people are smarter than black people, and I don't seem to be on the level of a negroid as they emit a different frequency of intellect. In fact, by your measure I'm on the same level as a white person. 

The consensus behind that science is how IQ is based on environment, while others hold onto the idea that whites are just smarter. 

I'm also multirace. I'm not quite black, nor white, but I have them both coded in my DNA. If I never knew my family I'd have no clue what I actually am. At the moment I'm quite pale from the winter, now it's spring, this summer I plan on getting more sun.

Whatever it is, thanks I guess. 

You might be amazed that black people speak the same way everyone else does. Some of them have British accents and don't lay on the street slang. And no offence to American blacks, but they are widely disliked by black people from other nations, especially Africans. So when you say I don't seem like a black person, I doubt you're comparing me to T'Challa from Wakanda. Not even CS comes across as some harcore American black street cultured persona.

CS tried to stab Jimmy to death with a pencil and tried to kill whatshisname from Midwest. She's definitely black, bro.

Well Jim did scam Quin out of 15 grand, and I think he beat her ass. As for Trypt, I tried to warn him not to go there, she was having a psychotic episode before he went and was disrespecting him. Women do this thing with their suitors to see if they'll break under pressure, it's true if they crack her tang will dry up and she'll ditch. Trypt technically passed her shit tests. CS is mentally fucked and will do things like that to an extreme, but it's not uncommon for white people to have the same episodes. When she's more stable she's very white washed. Her psychology is pretty scary, like when she switches, the facial expression is pretty deadly, I saw it at the end of one of her live streams. Verbally she sounds like a white woman, though she does this thing with her breathing like she has a vibrator plugged in her tang, its quite distracting and subject to arousal, which is probably how she manages to reel in Chapo and Trypt. All that aside she's obviously black, but to me she's pretty white washed. She even says she doesn't date black guys. 

I produce the best feedback from the looks of it, and don't really belong here if i had to be honest.

I agree. I dont dislike you at all. And you dont belong here. Id advise you to leave to be honest, seeing the impact of this place on your mental health.

I just think that the real you is smarter and more restrained. I may have seen the real you in my dream.

 Well, "the real me" hasn't been here in.. damn. I don't remember. Maybe 10 months. Probably not as long as the previous time which was over a year. 

You suspected I'm restrained in person, but I wanted you to see I've always been restrained in here too, even when it's time to clash. You used to know this.

In the dream. My guess is the answer to that is somewhere in your psyche. Buried data or a reminder. I'd reckon you should know I know you, but you're somehow surprised I know who you are, what you look like, where you are, where you work. The fact you even asked is fun. It's cool that you asked the right question, so the dream is more profound to you than I thought.

If you had a role on a show you'd be some detective in a suit. Certainly you look like someone on TV. What you actually do for a living is nothing to scoff at.

Just so you're not looking over your shoulder on a daily basis, I don't plan on making any surprise visits, if I ever did plan on show up it would only be under agreement.

Good, because Id leave the forum the instant I thought that could happen and nobody here would ever see me again, as a matter of establishing plausible deniability.

There's a difference between how our attributes are displayed.... I don't just say things about myself, I display them. 

- 3D. I did not just say I'm a 3D artist, I showed it. I added Crave's calligraphy saying Spatial Mind and some math based on the golden ratio which is a paper Alice wrote. The images those 2 wrote by hand, scanned and sent to me as gifts. I rendered them together with some 3D Bitcoin which was a project I showcased modeling progress and completed it using the Mental Ray rendering engine. At one point I might have modeled something to explain something, also when I was doxxed one of my demo reels was put on the table. This is before Generative Ai. ( Which 3D artists are actually loving in terms of workflow btw )

- Cryptocurrency. I built that supercomputer and documented it on SC. One image I held the GPU in front of SC on the screen. I sent members cryptocurrencies, traded in Alice's trade group and posted images of before and after of buys and sells I was talking about starting at 20k per trade the whole bull market. Once Kestrel and I were on discord, and we were making moves on Chainlink and I sold 90k right in front of him. I drew charts, said what's about to happen, then it happens and I played on it. I used to do that in SC until I never wanted to share anything with Jim. Some laughed when I said get some Tron at half a penny. Now it has an all time high of $0.43 and now sitting pretty at 32 cents in a bear market as I'm writing this. This is the best thing I ever did in this community.

A note on my beloved mining rigs. (192GB of VRAM) It has been dismantled and rebuilt into less powerful more efficient units for local Ai. Doing it at home is cost effective. Sure I never posted any proof, but I sure as hell have the spare parts to build such a hot rod don't I. I'm not sharing what I have my agents doing in the world, but it's more insane than, well anything I ever done. ( With Ai we're only directors and the machine is our employee ) In a year or two I think everyone will have Ai agents. Sooner the better though.

- Guitar. When I was doxxed a video of me playing something really basic was on the table. I never really show off what I can do, then one time Blanc said post something and I made the recording and posted it. I can play the song again, except I can't seem to replicate how the song ended in that recording, I was pretty drained when I recorded and uploaded it. I don't normally do this and the best of what I can do was never posted online. I don't usually show off when it comes to this. My psychology behind this is to only perform something if prompted to. Just how it is.

- Spirituality. I can only talk about it, and I've been doing it before Lunas. this is self evident.

- I have a claim of being soft spoken. Anyone who heard my voice, would agree. This too was a part of my dox and remained so on discord chat when we used to do that in CancerCommunity.

So yes Legga, when you say you're this and that, to an observer it's just talk and really doesn't compare to what I've, ( are you ready for this) "showcased" here. This isn't a matter of me trying to wave my cock around, but what I did here isn't the kind of output that comes from a masked character pretending to be like this.

I believe that you can do the things your character does. It doesnt make your character real. I can be obsessive, but it doesnt make that trait any more real than, say, my loneliness. 

That's not to say I dislike the character, but you dont feel real to me. It feels like I'm talking to someone wearing a mask. I dont disbelieve any of your achievements. Those achievements are not the sum of who you are.

Well Jim did scam Quin out of 15 grand, and I think he beat her ass. As for Trypt, I tried to warn him not to go there, she was having a psychotic episode before he went and was disrespecting him. Women do this thing with their suitors to see if they'll break under pressure, it's true if they crack her tang will dry up and she'll ditch. Trypt technically passed her shit tests. CS is mentally fucked and will do things like that to an extreme, but it's not uncommon for white people to have the same episodes. 

That's very black. Those shit tests involving violence is more common among black women. Not to say its bad. Sometimes you want women to stab you in the eye with a pencil. To feel alive.

Well, "the real me" hasn't been here in.. damn. I don't remember. Maybe 10 months. Probably not as long as the previous time which was over a year.

Ive noticed. Maybe its better to bring that other character somewhere else. I dont think this forum will appreciate you.

Spatial Mind said: 

 Pretty sure I'd fuck off whenever you told me to and never directly attacked you. Gave praise when it was due and we got along in the video game thread. You had a knack for turning any conversation into a tirade about capitalism which in turn would make you quite wrathful toward me, often accusing me of being a capitalist, which I kinda am at heart. Still I'd put you down nice and easy and say I understand why you're fucked up. I also said you're not the sharpest tool in the shed, which is pretty obvious. 

Even now you're kinda hacking away at me, and you got it twisted. I look after my people, and even those of mine who never deserved it. Takes over a decade for me to let someone go, and I do so for the better. That's a sad victory, and how so ? Hanging onto toxic connections is a form of self harm, cutting them loose allows room for growth and other things or people to have our limited time. It's simply ending bad cycles. The sad part is I still love the bitch, but remarkably the numbing is now a thing.  

The fact that's there's not much context clues in text and the way you feel the need to make condescending remarks and are constantly measuring/comparing people just makes it hard to tell if you're just bragging or not (when mentioning stuff like someone hurting themselves out of frustration with you right in front of you) which is the easier thing to assume. I was more energetic about that stuff before, although now I'm more accepting of my own nihilism as I get older, and no I don't see nihilism as a sad thing.

It just seems you've adopted this idea of masculinity of using women and then also being anti-abortion while having an ideology that nobody has to share resources with the offspring, likely leaving it to suffer entirely. Basically the idea that object permanency applies to only certain people but newly born are just candle wick apparently. Somehow it's only a "program" for me, yet not a "program" for you. I just think you cannot comprehend empathy, and yet you like to become involved with ideas/policy born of empathy (mostly as a way to troll or "disprove") with the insistence that those that see life as samsara (a cycle of desire, pain, and ultimately death negating it all) are simply programmed instead of people who are taught to indulge in desire without hold. (I guess also partially out of some idea that life is meant to be exploited to extinction)

And I'm gonna be honest about the videogame stuff, I did pretty much correctly assume the direction of it as needing to become more focused on unbalanced gameplay so it can milk more revenue off p2w models or games that cost an upfront 70 and yet are still boring and it's not because of wokeness, but I'm not saying it's because of anything else either. Off of text it's easy to assume I'm in deep critic but in reality my tone is more apathetic.