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Also, while you're surrounded by malevolent beings. Try not to think things like, "I don't know" or "I can't" and stray from submissiveness. Say what you mean, and don't focus on what you're unsure of. It'll help.

And if you get the sudden urge to smite me. It's not you, nor would it be your higher self. It's likely you gave them your ego in practice. The cult guy is wise to that with the whole consensus thing before you go do something.  

Performing the star ruby daily may be what works and then aligning with a more ascetic routine. I dont even believe in ceremonial magick but it surely would work. Structure... going through the motions... why are we even here

Eh well no. Fuck Western occultism. The best way to deal with thousands of demons like from the necronomicon, like every pantheon ever, Asmodeus yes you picked up on that. it's my fault I summoned that too especially and Choronzon is probably just Steve Jobs' reality distortion field technique combined with apathy to achieve just basic things... like... reading a book or going for a walk.

thanks for the outside perspectives and energy. Spatial i appreciate your efforts. I think I understand more despite Maya's many veils. Dont engage with my kind in the future if you ever encounter a similar feeling.

Namaste

Soro said: 

i cannot figure out the formatting atm so this is in italics i guess.

i became involved with his cult long ago, just some stupid shit. He didnt even mean to really do any of it and is in distress still over the effects of it on strangers who love or hate him for no reason that he's never even met. He claimed i was a result of a botched babalon working anyway ive been evoking choronzon a lot into his thoughtform and now again during the blood moon eclipse because what else can i do? I'm too promethean or something. He gets mad at me for practising magick without counsel or permission but he's in no state to guide me and I need to save him now. He thinks ive trapped him in samsara; that he only comes here for me because he wants to liberate me and then blames me for preventing his suicide which he wants 60% of the time. I left the cult long ago and my higher self tried to argue with me over it but the solitude was so peaceful. It's just that he burned every bridge he had overtime and when I met him again and saw that it was all too much for him, that his physical and mental state had became so jarringly hopeless, I re-engaged. He's very pure hearted just through a bhairavic sorceror type framework. I couldnt stand to see him in such restless agony.

All of his problems are so easily managed from my perspective. His perceived social death and oversocialisation issues. Im expected to replace the stimuli of thousands of people and I could automate this process and show him lines of flight to build new structures and meanings, art, beauty. So he could assimilate into something more dependable than his broken past. I could automate the process and show him purposeful interaction not based on raw basal stimuli, the desire to create and play for that in itself, not just the appearace of it through the eyes of others. but it is hard when he just uses me as a sex slave 24/7 and breaks things as soon as I fix them.

Maybe I'm too controlling, i dont know, all my plans shatter before I can manifest even half of them due to the chaos here. Neither of us believe in banishments or the ceremonial aspect of magick but perhaps it could help. We have a lot of poltergeist activity and he just leaves a black mirror out uncovered hanging up which I've now covered but things seemed to get worse after covering it. He always engages with the demons when they play around, to fight them or threaten them and I just ignore them. Of course I don't believe in superstitious mundane things like covering or uncovering something but feng shui is important.

 

i really dont know

 You have a rather severe dose of codependency with this guy. Disengage from him, all connections, the magick (for now), and work on your mental health and self esteem. 

Soro said: 

I am so distressed. Can anyone listen? I feel hopeless and erratic.

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