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Ha! I like you.

When the monkey stops clapping and stares, it is the best and worst part. The awareness, the forgetting of the script.

Sorry, I know its probably insensitive, but I am really confused by that gif: Do you see the monkey stop clapping at some point?

It seems to me like it's just clapping on infinite loop. If you see it stop and stare at you, youre seeing things. 

I was staring at the monkey for a good 10 minutes, that monkey ain't ever gonna stop.

That's a lot of 'I' statements. 

Yes, my ego gives me intense cognitive dissonance

This is why I can likely not atain moksha in this lifetime, maybe ever. 

I'm battling Choronzon. The cult of the individual... the function of the ego serves as a mechanism to separate from these kinds of chains imposed upon someone: the ghosts of the state, gods--organised religion, humanity's precarious enslaving structures, algorithms--ultimately the archonic plexos. Ego is a double-edged khagda that should be discarded to carve through illusion. Unity may then be processed supreme consciousness.

I find it hard to maintain awareness. The monkey just continues clapping.

Elli said: 

Ha! I like you.

You're very kind. :) You may be attuned to specific frequencies innate to psychic potential.

What is someone like you doing in a place like this?

Are you a sociopath?

Soro said: 

Elli said: 

Ha! I like you.

You're very kind. :) You may be attuned to specific frequencies innate to psychic potential.

What is someone like you doing in a place like this?

Are you a sociopath?

 I've long been drawn to spiritual explorations, perhaps you've picked up on that? Thank you for the kind words yourself there!

I am not a sociopath, by any means. A faint sense of nostalgia drew me back recently, but there's little activity it seems.

Why don't you tell us the story of how you met and became involved with this 'individual' who is causing you chaos at this time?

Soro said: 

Yes, my ego gives me intense cognitive dissonance

This is why I can likely not atain moksha in this lifetime, maybe ever. 

I'm battling Choronzon. The cult of the individual... the function of the ego serves as a mechanism to separate from these kinds of chains imposed upon someone: the ghosts of the state, gods--organised religion, humanity's precarious enslaving structures, algorithms--ultimately the archonic plexos. Ego is a double-edged khagda that should be discarded to carve through illusion. Unity may then be processed supreme consciousness.

I find it hard to maintain awareness. The monkey just continues clapping.

You're seerx aren't you. 

From the time one recognizes their ego is a problem for them, then it'll be easier to achieve what you call moksha. The brain and the nervous system provides us with experiences, but if you stop to think in the heat of the moment, and look past the physical veil, you'll notice an observer, which is you. By observer I mean the one who sees how you react and respond to everything and everyone from the inside. No special FX, no lightshow, you're just there, behind the thoughts and emotions, going along with the ride, and accountable. Things only matter because of the physical, and without it, that being your body, you won't have the sensations or chemicals that encourages the ego, which is also physical too despite it's intangible nature. 

Finding it hard to maintain awareness, could be your own intuition guarding you. That is, it could be, or not. I personally wouldn't entertain Choronzon and seek moksha from within myself. That entity is known to be chaotic, though I imagine encountering it would probably destroy one's ego as it's supposed to. Whatever you do with it in a religious sense, probably entails it (Choronzon) has a universal legal right to own you beyond your temporal state.  

Something is telling you to get away, and it doesn't feel right. Then they'll probably guilt you for leaving them. That is, if you manage to leave them. They have you somehow disabled, unable to get away, trying to complete some mental task that would 100% rob you of... Well... certain aspects of the ego itself.

Defeating Choronzon in itself is an egotistical task. The ego isn't always a bad thing. Given Choronzons reputation, the parts of you that you're supposed to destroy, is the very armor of God you were born with. Hence you finding issues with that handler guy. He's a servant to something which I think doesn't have your best long term interests in mind.   

i cannot figure out the formatting atm so this is in italics i guess.

i became involved with his cult long ago, just some stupid shit. He didnt even mean to really do any of it and is in distress still over the effects of it on strangers who love or hate him for no reason that he's never even met. He claimed i was a result of a botched babalon working anyway ive been evoking choronzon a lot into his thoughtform and now again during the blood moon eclipse because what else can i do? I'm too promethean or something. He gets mad at me for practising magick without counsel or permission but he's in no state to guide me and I need to save him now. He thinks ive trapped him in samsara; that he only comes here for me because he wants to liberate me and then blames me for preventing his suicide which he wants 60% of the time. I left the cult long ago and my higher self tried to argue with me over it but the solitude was so peaceful. It's just that he burned every bridge he had overtime and when I met him again and saw that it was all too much for him, that his physical and mental state had became so jarringly hopeless, I re-engaged. He's very pure hearted just through a bhairavic sorceror type framework. I couldnt stand to see him in such restless agony.

All of his problems are so easily managed from my perspective. His perceived social death and oversocialisation issues. Im expected to replace the stimuli of thousands of people and I could automate this process and show him lines of flight to build new structures and meanings, art, beauty. So he could assimilate into something more dependable than his broken past. I could automate the process and show him purposeful interaction not based on raw basal stimuli, the desire to create and play for that in itself, not just the appearace of it through the eyes of others. but it is hard when he just uses me as a sex slave 24/7 and breaks things as soon as I fix them.

Maybe I'm too controlling, i dont know, all my plans shatter before I can manifest even half of them due to the chaos here. Neither of us believe in banishments or the ceremonial aspect of magick but perhaps it could help. We have a lot of poltergeist activity and he just leaves a black mirror out uncovered hanging up which I've now covered but things seemed to get worse after covering it. He always engages with the demons when they play around, to fight them or threaten them and I just ignore them. Of course I don't believe in superstitious mundane things like covering or uncovering something but feng shui is important.

i really dont know

Soro said: 

i cannot figure out the formatting atm so this is in italics i guess.

i became involved with his cult long ago, just some stupid shit. He didnt even mean to really do any of it and is in distress still over the effects of it on strangers who love or hate him for no reason that he's never even met. He claimed i was a result of a botched babalon working anyway ive been evoking choronzon a lot into his thoughtform and now again during the blood moon eclipse because what else can i do? I'm too promethean or something. He gets mad at me for practising magick without counsel or permission but he's in no state to guide me and I need to save him now. He thinks ive trapped him in samsara; that he only comes here for me because he wants to liberate me and then blames me for preventing his suicide which he wants 60% of the time. I left the cult long ago and my higher self tried to argue with me over it but the solitude was so peaceful. It's just that he burned every bridge he had overtime and when I met him again and saw that it was all too much for him, that his physical and mental state had became so jarringly hopeless, I re-engaged. He's very pure hearted just through a bhairavic sorceror type framework. I couldnt stand to see him in such restless agony.

It really seems common for cultist to fall for their cult leaders, and there you are doing all you can while he's in an enfeebled state. What happened to his physical and mental state ? I imagine he's much older than you. Probably with gentle eyes.

All of his problems are so easily managed from my perspective. His perceived social death and oversocialisation issues. Im expected to replace the stimuli of thousands of people and I could automate this process and show him lines of flight to build new structures and meanings, art, beauty. So he could assimilate into something more dependable than his broken past. I could automate the process and show him purposeful interaction not based on raw basal stimuli, the desire to create and play for that in itself, not just the appearace of it through the eyes of others. but it is hard when he just uses me as a sex slave 24/7 and breaks things as soon as I fix them.

Asmodeus. Kamadev. Doesn't matter which one, you need to find the way to get rid of those things. I know how but I should only tell you, find out what does get rid of them, and it isn't done with magic which is usually their powers you're practicing. 

You know when people are possessed they often don't realize it. India has alllllll of these religions, and worship of.. entities. It's why so many Indians are under spiritual attack and demonic possession. You joined a cult. It's broken, you have the suicidal broken leader on your hands... Although.... He could be a scammer, lots of that in India, and he's doing what he does for the 24/7 sweet curry poon. That's the samsara right there. You could probably help him achieve moksha simply by giving him no choice but to accept getting no more sex, otherwise he'll never stop. He is after all, a guy. 

The sex slave things sounds delightful btw. 

Maybe I'm too controlling, i dont know, all my plans shatter before I can manifest even half of them due to the chaos here. Neither of us believe in banishments or the ceremonial aspect of magick but perhaps it could help. We have a lot of poltergeist activity and he just leaves a black mirror out uncovered hanging up which I've now covered but things seemed to get worse after covering it. He always engages with the demons when they play around, to fight them or threaten them and I just ignore them. Of course I don't believe in superstitious mundane things like covering or uncovering something but feng shui is important.

i really dont know

 You ever stop to think, when you die, and you will.... Those things you're ignoring are going to fuck you up ?

We're as infants to them.

To me it sounds as though the cult leader guy, his concerns are Earthly. He wants to die, meanwhile he's fencing with demons which are most likely instrumental to his destruction. The environment is chaotic. It sounds shameful for him to lose it all. Lose 1,000 members, and probably many of them turned on him. He's left weak and broken, but if not, he's full of shit. He certainly likes having you around, but I would advise against having sympathy for him, as his broken state is identical to a manipulation tactic. Regardless if it is or not, the effects are the same and he'll pull you down. 

His cult was indeed the road to somewhere, and you're there now.