You know what this is my fault for getting in a phase of mania and not explaining the context of what I meant without considering if anyone would be concerned or even care. I didn't think anyone would so I let this place be my filter. But.you guys are people to, I'm sorry. Do you.forgive.me?
And yeah I'll admit even though br does consent and we have discussions first the places I go during *fun time* do scare me.
There was.consent because I started having an episode of violent mania during sex and he said "stab me you bitch" over and over and I had just been eating so I took the fork off the plate and stabbed him in the leg with it.
But even though he was into it I ended up being kind of panicked over what I did
Though I did end up stabbing myself in the fat part of my leg a bit