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Becoming older means having more focus from having less energy... but also less energy to get things done. 

Turncoat said: 

Becoming older means having more focus from having less energy... but also less energy to get things done. 

I honestly dont see the bright side of getting older. Your focus might increases in quantity but not in quality. Being senile makes you slow and hazy.

It's a scary thought. Like a death sentence, just a slow one.

Now it just hit me like a bullet. This is what my life amounted to. It wasn't even great, it was pretty shit. And it looks like a downward slope from here. Pretty grim.

That ain't true, if you eat and live healthy, exercise, you can live up to a very very healthy early 70's. Tbh, there are many 70's that are way healthier than a lot of 30's nowadays. 

If you add up that the average span life of an American nowadays is around 85 years, we are talking about something close to living healthy 90% of your whole life. If you die suddenly from a heart attack, you would have lived 99% healthy most of the time. 

The fun to me nowadays is to follow the social media of old people that are actually looking amazing for their age, it really shows that dedication pays off ahead and you can still have a great quality of life  '' near  '' the end, if we are talking about more 15, 20 years of life before you probably hit the slopes. 

That's Ellen Ector. She owns a gym. No she is not super rich neither a celebrity, maybe she is known now for her amazing physique as someone with 70 years old as of 2023. 

At 70 years she is way, way better not only in shape but physically and mostly mentally better than most girls here such a Blanc and Turquie. 

People like her are proving that we get old and destroyed if we are lazy. The next generations will live longer because taking care of yourself through out life will become mainstream AF, and soon the next generation to come will be living till 3 digits and that will be not impressive anymore.

Jada said: 

Turncoat said: 

Becoming older means having more focus from having less energy... but also less energy to get things done. 

I honestly dont see the bright side of getting older. Your focus might increases in quantity but not in quality. Being senile makes you slow and hazy.

It's a scary thought. Like a death sentence, just a slow one.

It's definitely more laid back anyway, and senility doesn't typically hit until towards the end of the road. 

I don't imagine you having that to deal with for quite some time, if ever. 

Now it just hit me like a bullet. This is what my life amounted to. It wasn't even great, it was pretty shit. And it looks like a downward slope from here. Pretty grim.

It's always been a downward slope, why is that suddenly more of a problem now? 

Think of how much time is still left, barring a sudden accident or something. 

Really though, what decline have you seen in yourself? 

For me it's mostly that I get headaches from my insomnia now, which didn't used to be a problem. 

I couldnt believe my eyes when I saw pics of that woman ellen ector. But how likely do you reckon we will be in similar shape at 70? She's one in a million oddity. You and I will be about ready to change our diapers at that age.

It wasnt always downward slope. I was great in my 20s, full of potential. Now I've wasted those golden years and they're not coming back. An old dog wont learn new tricks. Your greatest achievements come between 23 and 26. After that you're running on a deadline and can only hope you achieved what you wanted when you could.

What I want now is meaning and a new community. Meaning is out. Community is left. Maybe. I have neither.

I get the same headaches from insomnia. Wait for 5-10 years. It gets worse. I eat healthy and exercise. But I can see things slipping. What used to be easy is becoming harder. I also learn new things slower. I'm becoming complacent. You perhaps dont see it but it's there.

Jada said: 

It wasnt always downward slope. I was great in my 20s, full of potential. Now I've wasted those golden years and they're not coming back.

Did you really experience nothing during that time? 

An old dog wont learn new tricks. Your greatest achievements come between 23 and 26.

Depends on the job, some find their accomplishments in their 40s, especially if the job requires a doctorate. 

What I want now is meaning and a new community.

Come on now, you've wanted that for a while. 

I get the same headaches from insomnia. Wait for 5-10 years. It gets worse. I eat healthy and exercise.

I take asprin and ginger. 🤷

But I can see things slipping. What used to be easy is becoming harder. I also learn new things slower. I'm becoming complacent. You perhaps dont see it but it's there.

I've seen old people pride how the handicap makes it "worth it", why not live up to that model rather than lament losing access to what was once easy? 

Please tell me there's meaning in Buddhism.  Or meaning in meaninglessness.