Did you know that most people think they are smarter than they actually are?
Lately I've been thinking about this a bit more, and I started thinking... Am I actually really retarded? Could it be that I'm just not realizing that I lack the ability to introspect? I look at all these idiots around me, who are hopelessly unaware of their own stupidity. Am I actually like them?
All this was brought about recently when my wife started asking me if I'm actually a bit slow. I told her, quite confidently, that I am the smartest in the world and that I'm a genius.
But then I started thinking. I always look back at my failures and fuck ups and think to myself, they were just small roadblocks in the way of building my genius, and that I am somehow much smarter now than I once was. But now I'm not sure. Everyone seems to treat me like I'm an idiot. I constantly ask people for advice and they keep giving me stuff that I never thought about, like an idiot would. I used to think it's all for making me grow as a person, but I seem to be about the same as I was 20 years ago. So I'm starting to think and doubt myself. Maybe I'm not a genius after all? Maybe I'm actually really dumb.
I occasionally compare myself to Socrates. Plato used to always compliment him, like he was the father of all philosophy, as he questioned and embarrassed the old sages of Greece with his motto, "I know nothing." But if Socrates didn't know anything, and he was an idiot, isn't it a bit paradoxical that he was simultaneously considered smart? He was basically like Xadem, and I doubt anyone here would disagree that Xadem's a retard. I used to somehow think that because I imitated Socrates, I was like Socrates, but I have no great thoughts, and I lack critical thinking skills. So is it just that I am like Socrates in my own mind, but in reality I'm much more like that TV news channel kathy newman who embarrassed herself in front of her own news channel as she was trying to corner Jordan B Peterson....?
I'm not really sure. People seem to think I'm an idiot, but I think I know better. I wonder if I'm just wrong and I'm actually really, really dumb. But then I feel like I'm quite smart, so that seems paradoxical. I think I just appear to be really dumb to people, but I'm actually wise, like Socrates. Not sure. Even Inquirer thought I was an idiot when he was ridiculing me before losing that debate, people seem to think I'm a lot dumber than I actually am. It's like, evidence, so there must be some objective standard?
The only person here that I think is genuinely dumb is Lenalee. Xadem is also quite silly. Friedrich and Luna I would say were slightly below average. Thrill Kill was also an idiot. I think the reason people don't understand nor are able to communicate on the same wavelength as me is because I'm smart and introspective but now I think it may just be because I'm an idiot and lack the ability to introspect..?