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shamanqueen said: 

Turncoat said: 

shamanqueen said: 

I would think that instead I should attract a healthy partner and possibly not settle for less  I mean that seems healthy,  right ?

How would you describe a healthy partner, if you had it like a bullet list of traits? 

loyal and does not give me reason to doubt,  like I will not feel a sense of power losee and humiliation that is being used as an attempt to control me by a partner

So you want your partner to relieve a pre-existing fear? 

strong and brave,  like me  more interested in me than I am in them lol because I am very independent but I also desire to love and be loved  I just prefer to be obsessed over but not in a damaging way,  especially because I had given my power away to idealizing other people for many years

So you want your partner to be like yourself? 

You want to find a partner who is like yourself, but has their shit together? 

Turncoat said: 

shamanqueen said: 

Turncoat said: 

How would you describe a healthy partner, if you had it like a bullet list of traits? 

loyal and does not give me reason to doubt,  like I will not feel a sense of power losee and humiliation that is being used as an attempt to control me by a partner

So you want your partner to relieve a pre-existing fear? 

strong and brave,  like me  more interested in me than I am in them lol because I am very independent but I also desire to love and be loved  I just prefer to be obsessed over but not in a damaging way,  especially because I had given my power away to idealizing other people for many years

So you want your partner to be like yourself? 

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You want to find a partner who is like yourself, but has their shit together? 

 

No we will both have our shit together,  I already have most of mine together and the rest is coming soon I can feel it

yes I want my partner to be similar to me,  and the more obsessed with me than I am with them might be an unhealthy desire coming from unhealed stuff in me but the rest yes all of that stuff

once I heal this Inner child stuff my life is going to be soo open and take off  that is why I am slowing down a little to prepare for that because I can feel it coming and that type of change feels a little overwhelming to me right now

I know the two unhealed wounds-  humiliation and heartbreak  once those are healed there are going to be like no blockages left and I already manifested a full beautiful abundant life for myself and it is going to come rushing in,  and that is overwhelming because my life is going to be soo different from anything that I have ever known in this lifetime

shamanqueen said: 

Turncoat said: 

shamanqueen said: 

loyal and does not give me reason to doubt,  like I will not feel a sense of power losee and humiliation that is being used as an attempt to control me by a partner

So you want your partner to relieve a pre-existing fear? 

strong and brave,  like me  more interested in me than I am in them lol because I am very independent but I also desire to love and be loved  I just prefer to be obsessed over but not in a damaging way,  especially because I had given my power away to idealizing other people for many years

So you want your partner to be like yourself? 

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You want to find a partner who is like yourself, but has their shit together? 

No we will both have our shit together,  I already have most of mine together and the rest is coming soon I can feel it

So you don't think this is you crossing the wires of codependency with wanting someone strong enough to lean on and do things for you, like a protector? 

A lot of your past idealism has erred in that direction is why I'm asking. You liked to find a sort of power figure to use as a Totem focus for modeling off of their success, then you would get hung up on their flaws and insist you're better than that. 

Right now you're somewhere between wanting to date the light spectrum and questioning if any human is good enough, but a lot of that I suspect is built on you trying to find people stronger than you while simultaneously thinking they do not exist. 

How do you think things would go if you went for someone weaker than you? 

yes I want my partner to be similar to me,  and the more obsessed with me than I am with them might be an unhealthy desire coming from unhealed stuff in me but the rest yes all of that stuff

Why do you want obsession?

Would you date a male version of Med? 

Turncoat said: 

shamanqueen said: 

Turncoat said: 

So you want your partner to relieve a pre-existing fear? 

So you want your partner to be like yourself? 

---

You want to find a partner who is like yourself, but has their shit together? 

No we will both have our shit together,  I already have most of mine together and the rest is coming soon I can feel it

So you don't think this is you crossing the wires of codependency with wanting someone strong enough to lean on and do things for you, like a protector? 

A lot of your past idealism has erred in that direction is why I'm asking. You liked to find a sort of power figure to use as a Totem focus for modeling off of their success, then you would get hung up on their flaws and insist you're better than that. 

Right now you're somewhere between wanting to date the light spectrum and questioning if any human is good enough, but a lot of that I suspect is built on you trying to find people stronger than you while simultaneously thinking they do not exist. 

How do you think things would go if you went for someone weaker than you? 

yes I want my partner to be similar to me,  and the more obsessed with me than I am with them might be an unhealthy desire coming from unhealed stuff in me but the rest yes all of that stuff

Why do you want obsession?

Would you date a male version of Med? 

No I want equal  equal everything  I will start my own business and then maybe meet a partner after that

this pressure and tension to keep going when I do not want to deal with these unhealed wounds is like almost unbearable this is probably like a kundalini rising thing or something  (over my fear of snakes now because of the holy healing snake)  and one of my shamen saw me get dismembered and put back together during her journey today and soo that is verification that I am indeed a shaman even though I have never seen a vision of that of myself,  but then again I have not been journeying because of knowing that I still have unhealed wounds and not wanting to attract anything in the spirit realm because I am already going through enough as it is like holy hell

soo needless to say I have a lot going for me but I am also under a lot of pressure and it is soo exhausting sometimes  it feels similar to like climbing a mountain

Who's this Shaman guy? 

Turncoat said: 

Who's this Shaman guy? 

she is a female,  I have two shamen working on me presently

I am not willing to discuss names because I think that everyone should find their own healers through what resonates with their souls on the internet or wherever they seek healers

I found mine through the internet and so can anyone else-  they should choose someone that feels safe and has the qualities that they are looking to develop in themselves

shamanqueen said: 

Turncoat said: 

Who's this Shaman guy? 

she is a female,  I have two shamen working on me presently

I am not willing to discuss names because I think that everyone should find their own healers through what resonates with their souls on the internet or wherever they seek healers

Where'd you find these two people, a discord group or something? 

Edit: 

I found mine through the internet and so can anyone else- they should choose someone that feels safe and has the qualities that they are looking to develop in themselves

Youtube Shamen? 

They aren't charging you right?

Turncoat said: 

shamanqueen said: 

Turncoat said: 

Who's this Shaman guy? 

she is a female,  I have two shamen working on me presently

I am not willing to discuss names because I think that everyone should find their own healers through what resonates with their souls on the internet or wherever they seek healers

Where'd you find these two people, a discord group or something? 

Edit: 

I found mine through the internet and so can anyone else- they should choose someone that feels safe and has the qualities that they are looking to develop in themselves

Youtube Shamen? 

They aren't charging you right?

0.0 why would they not charge me,  spiritual healing work is some of the most difficult and important work that there is  I had chronic fatigue syndrome for years from working through all of the stuff that I had to and I still am exhausted often but healing from it

shamen are not Jesus,  we know that we are worthy of financial security and abundance  I believe in not charging high prices personally  $120-$300 per session is standard

and no,  not from youtube just from internet searching but there are well reputationed shamen on youtube as well

shamanqueen said: 

Turncoat said: 

shamanqueen said: 

she is a female,  I have two shamen working on me presently

I am not willing to discuss names because I think that everyone should find their own healers through what resonates with their souls on the internet or wherever they seek healers

Where'd you find these two people, a discord group or something? 

Edit: 

I found mine through the internet and so can anyone else- they should choose someone that feels safe and has the qualities that they are looking to develop in themselves

Youtube Shamen? 

They aren't charging you right?

0.0 why would they not charge me, 

So you're paying money, to internet shamen? 

Am I reading this right? 

shamen are not Jesus,  we know that we are worthy of financial security and abundance  I believe in not charging high prices personally  $120-$300 is per session is standard

Holy shit, even 7 Cups of Tea was all volunteer. 

Are you seriously dishing out hundreds of dollars right now, from anywhere between $240 and $600 over how you're seeing two different people? 

How many sessions have you had, and how often? 

and no, not from youtube just from internet searching but there are well reputationed shamen on youtube as well

Where are you getting the money to throw at people like this?