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healingqueen said: 

healingqueen said: 

my wounded Inner child is sick of not opening her heart and sick of blocking off connecting to people but she still does it anyway why we need to release this what is blocking her from connecting to people

 

my wounded Inner child did not realize that she was accidentally aware of people's subconscious stuff and the other world and that most people did not think like this and it confused her she also felt a lot of lower vibrational energies around her often and she blamed it on other people

 

this is the one  but we still do not know how to fix this  this is the problem one

I do not believe in shielding soo idk what to do but I obviously probably have to start shielding  either that or be a better negotiator between the spirits

What's wrong with shields? 

I saw what the post was before your edit, what goes through your mind that blocks off the idea of it for you? 

healingqueen:
Turncoat was right again
at least I didn't die lol
how did I not die lol
I swear on my life they make it impossible what the fuck there is no escape lol
I am shielding noow because annoyed by bad vibes but I am still concerned about if shielding off bad vibes will throw off balance of energy

Turncoat:
It's more like harm reduction, it can help lessen the severity of harder moments, even help with focus.
Again it's why some opt for candles and incense and stuff.
A lot of how we respond to stuff is associative, and if what is around us is comforting it can help with better associations. With those as a foundation, harsher things can be weathered through rather than taken raw.

It's kind of like how lifting weights work, you have to start small to lift big. 

Turncoat said: 

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healingqueen:
Turncoat was right again
at least I didn't die lol
how did I not die lol
I swear on my life they make it impossible what the fuck there is no escape lol
I am shielding noow because annoyed by bad vibes but I am still concerned about if shielding off bad vibes will throw off balance of energy

Turncoat:
It's more like harm reduction, it can help lessen the severity of harder moments, even help with focus.
Again it's why some opt for candles and incense and stuff.
A lot of how we respond to stuff is associative, and if what is around us is comforting it can help with better associations. With those as a foundation, harsher things can be weathered through rather than taken raw.

It's kind of like how lifting weights work, you have to start small to lift big. 

healingqueen:
it has to be done in moderation like only specific moments like you said
because the transmuting that I was doing was actually a formof shielding and I did it soo much that negative energy swung back at me and overtook my experience
I have been getting a lot of guidance saying "balancing" "balance"
and I have been getting sick of the up and down rollercoaster
at such extremes like that bipolar thing

Turncoat:
Transmuting is different in mindset.
Transmuting is moreso a form of change.

healingqueen:
no because I was using it for every single negative emotions lol

Turncoat:
Shielding and Harm Reduction are more like Fortification.
It's bolstering a defense to take on a challenge.

healingqueen:
the way I was using transmuting was like a shield though
I understand how it is different in theory but the way that I was using it was as a shield

Turncoat:
I feel like going through the active effort of changing the things around you has a very different feeling behind it though.
Turncoat: The mindset involved.

healingqueen:
true
but so that means I was not only throwing me out of balance but stuff around me too
that probably made stuff even worse

Turncoat:
Everything's always in flux, how you are now is now.
What's important imo is weathering through the bad, like resisting a sandstorm.

healingqueen:
I want to be more balanced
it sounds nice

Turncoat:
Balance does look nice. x_x
I've instead gone with trying to learn my patterns and having a gameplan for whatever symptoms show that day.
What works on a hyper day does not work on a downer day.

healingqueen:
yeah I want to explore more into balance

Turncoat:
Environment and Mindset play a lot of impact on things, through associations.
Understanding's where to start for balance, to see what needs balancing in the first place and what kinds of steps might help.
Binaural beats help some people.
Stuff like:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LFGsZ6ythQQ
Others go for ASMR, but I don't get much from it personally.
Smells can add up to a lot too, it's one that's easy to not think about until it's directly impacted.
Even the little noises behind certain kinds of electronics can amount to a mild grating, the spacing of your things, it all adds up to how you end up transferring over to the next moment, what is on your mind.
I have as I've gotten older tried to surround myself more with things that bring about better thoughts, to then be fortified for harder times.
Like a tether, or a bungee cord.
A way to ensure there's ways back.

healingqueen:
turncoat yes I am in the process of asking for wisdom on how to balance and where
instead of minimizing pain and suffering my new intention is learning actual healing so hopefully I will have some genuinely helpful healing insights soon

Turncoat:
Good luck either way, but defense is helpful.

healingqueen:
because for a loong time I was mostly just trying to not be feeling horrible inside and complaining and blaming
oh no I know I agree with you about shielding but the thing is that it has to be in moderation too
everything
even the best things moderation balance
temperance it sucks though I thought that I found a way to stay in positive vibes always lol
if there were not a backlash it would in theory work
and that is how I was segwayed into focusing on healing and balance instead of pain and suffering minimizing

Turncoat:
Harm Reduction does have it's benefits.

healingqueen:
segued* lol
yeah but I feel like it is all that I was focused on for my entire life
ook at my life
on sc
I will swing from one end to another
right ?
I am off balanced af

Turncoat:
I would agree balance is definitely off, but again mostly from an impatience.
From there a lot of other things respond like they're overstimulated, with associative coping mechanisms that fall into negative patterns.
Tethers are nice.
To avoid that I mean.
Little reminders that you know it could happen, and through that understanding try to change it as it begins again.
It's like people who snap rubber bands on their wrists during key moments.

healingqueen:
I think that patience can be useful but
when you are in distress you tend to want stuff to be resolved faster

Turncoat:
Yeah, when hyper is the hardest time to be patient.
Ask anyone who's done an upper, or a psychadelic, the comeup is tough.
To sit with just one thing unless hyperfocused.

healingqueen:
I feel like I wasted my life trying to feel good but feeling good kept escaping me
so often
what if I had just focused on healing from the beginning
I feel like life could have been so much better
if I just had the right intentions
*is in regret*
why just why
no honestly I couldn't think clearly

Just noting for future talks. 

healingqueen said: 

healingqueen said: 

my wounded Inner child is sick of not opening her heart and sick of blocking off connecting to people but she still does it anyway why we need to release this what is blocking her from connecting to people

 

my wounded Inner child did not realize that she was accidentally aware of people's subconscious stuff and the other world and that most people did not think like this and it confused her she also felt a lot of lower vibrational energies around her often and she blamed it on other people

 

this is the one  but we still do not know how to fix this  this is the problem one

 

 

 

I do not believe in shielding soo idk what to do but I obviously probably have to start shielding  either that or be a better negotiator between the spirits

 

 

update: I started shielding last night but I am not shielding anymore because instead I am being guided towards balancing my energies and being in harmony with all that is  it was not an easy decision to make as there is the fear of the potential of being overtaken by the absence of the lighter more positive energies like what happened the past couple days but what I was guided is that I did not get "possessed" but it is more that I was excessively trying to stay only in positive emotions and that it had a backlash of the absence of positive emotions due to my energy being thrown off balance

would I reccomend everyone playing or working in the spirit world unshielded?  No, I think that it should be personal preference and I would not want to be responsible for someone getting possessed or something like that  I happen to have been through a lot of suicidal ideation and have developed a willing to take risks mindset to being back in psychological wellness again and am being guided by spirit to not protect myself through the specific method of shielding unless possibly in rare instances where something just gets super overwhelming I might try it then but my spiritual guidance is stressing moderation, sparingly, only use it on rare occasions if at all

I appreciate Turncoat's advice and I know that she is coming from a place of caring and concern for my wellbeing by recommending shielding and I think that we both agree that balance and moderation and temperance are important and as we discussed last night I have become very aware that imbalance has been a major problem in my psychology and has probably been contributing a lot to the psychosis that I am in  (the up and down mood swings and me. VS them mentality and switching sides from "light" to "dark"  I am reminded of this scene in the dark Crystal where the "evil" skeksies merge with the "peace loving" mystics and become one and this is the mindset that I am being guided towards  (to try to lessen polarity and become more balanced)

by the way this is not a right vs. wrong post and I think that everyone should listen to their own intuition before trying anything that would leave them feeling vulnerable and perhaps taken advantage of like it would be super upsetting to have someone ever say to me "but you said this was safe" and then like something bad happen to them because I am not out of psychosis yet and until I am I am not completely confident about anything that I do being safe and healing

when all of the soul fragments are returned then we can ascend polarity consciousness essentially transcend duality  the question then becomes what would life be like without being in duality consciousness and seeing everything as one on a regular basis

my affirmation and intention for today is "all of my energies are balanced to health and wellness and wholeness" and "I balance all of my energies to health and wellness and wholeness"  this better work lol I am soo sick of this psychosis stuff and I desire everything to make sense or at least enough sense that I do not feel tossed about all over the place every day like a lone sailor in a tiny boat in the middle of the ocean

I need you to explain to me why Shielding is something you find struggles with. 

It's the more common magic, and typically easier to use. 

healingqueen said: 

my affirmation and intention for today is "all of my energies are balanced to health and wellness and wholeness" and "I balance all of my energies to health and wellness and wholeness"  this better work lol I am soo sick of this psychosis stuff and I desire everything to make sense or at least enough sense that I do not feel tossed about all over the place every day like a lone sailor in a tiny boat in the middle of the ocean

 

 

ooh integrate would be a good one too, and align, and transmute  I am going to try all of them and see which ones work best or maybe use some at different times  I like affirmations and intentions because they help keep me focused and help influence my goals actually happening

Turncoat said: 

I need you to explain to me why Shielding is something you find struggles with. 

It's the more common magic, and typically easier to use. 

because "shielding" implies "separating yourself from" which keeps you trapped in duality and polarity instead of feeling more neutral and calm and peaceful and accepting and flowing with life

like it gets complicated though when you accept that fire is a part of you and you are a part of fire and you see that there is a forest fire,  you might want to make the choice to avoid the fire and then it is like if you choose to "not" do something or to "avoid" something is that separation consciousness?  like even if you start focusing what you want to experience vs what you don't want to experience is that separation consciousness?

healingqueen said: 

like it gets complicated though when you accept that fire is a part of you and you are a part of fire and you see that there is a forest fire,  you might want to make the choice to avoid the fire and then it is like if you choose to "not" do something or to "avoid" something is that separation consciousness?  like even if you start focusing what you want to experience vs what you don't want to experience is that separation consciousness?

 

 

this is why I think that when you actually transcend duality and are in full oneness consciousness that you transcend the human experience all together and move on into some different form of existence  this must be the path that the yogis are on or something and at the end of their lifetime they transcend out of ever having to reincarnate as human again maybe

from wikipedia: "Yogis make lifestyle choices that bring them towards a place of sattva, a state of equanimity and inner peace.Another important quality in a yogi's lifestyle is the attainment of balance and harmony"

healingqueen said: 

my affirmation and intention for today is "all of my energies are balanced to health and wellness and wholeness" and "I balance all of my energies to health and wellness and wholeness"  this better work lol I am soo sick of this psychosis stuff and I desire everything to make sense or at least enough sense that I do not feel tossed about all over the place every day like a lone sailor in a tiny boat in the middle of the ocean

Like being in a bad drug trip, all that can be done is weathering through it overtime. 

Not to be redundant or whatever, but fortification can help in non-escapist forms. Overstimulation blinds the senses too, often making for less learned once the experience is done, while being chill helps with noticing yourself and your environment.