You are insisting lessons come fast as an aspect of your impatience, then once you dive in head first you repeatedly Icarus.
Your ego already has you claiming you can be teaching people too, when there is always more to learn.
Rome fell, I am becoming healthy and pure and whole and filled with truth and wisdom- this is the difference :) and I absolutely never insisted that lessons come fast as it took me twenty-eight years to come out of my suffering and torment and I know just as well as anyone that it takes time to gain wisdom a loooooooooooong time