Turncoat said:I dunno, for me I see someone else in pain and it's really easy to feel like as if it were my own, like as if I slapped myself in response to it or something. It's not even about power, it's about sharing pain the same way it'd be for sharing pleasure.For myself I don't even care about the pain, its all about pleasure and its really hot when someone derives pleasure and gratification from something like inflicting pain or taking it.
It's a different kind of pleasure though, it's louder and sharper rather than subversive and gentle.
I definitely like the pain, it's like eating fat-free food without it.
Peach is a Sadist while I'm a sadomasochist, so naturally when we play this way I am always the one being tortured. That's why this future event is exciting for me, I will be able to actualize my more masochistic fantasies.
Like what?
My mindset for it's more sensory, with each different pain like a different flavor. Candle Wax and fingernails can both hurt, but very, very much not in the same way. My daydreaming about being hit isn't too different from my daydreaming about a delicious steak hoagie, it's about how it tastes more than simply tasting it.
Some pain is boring, like a chronic ache, while other pain is straight drugs.
We have played a lot with the elements, mostly fire and ice which both really make me squirm. Ice doesn't hurt as much but she has the ability to insert it which makes it a more flexible tool.
Only taste of fire I've had's from wax, never really had it go straight for the flesh.
I've only done ice gently, light stuff on the skin and sensitive areas rather than feeling it inside of anything. What's it feel like?
I personally like biting a lot, it can be a bit dangerous depending on the target - Peach damaged a nerve in my neck and I lost feeling from that spot to the bottom of my ear for nearly 2 years.
How often are the bites that brutal? I bet it felt great, but at the end of the day it's good to be functional even if the moment's so, tempting, to do otherwise.
Permanence is a scary thing to take away from this kind of fun. Marks and scars are one thing, but losing the feeling in your neck for years sounds legit scary.
Knife play is my favorite and we have pushed that to some extremes. I have a 7 inch scar that doctors question, here's a pic when it was fresh.
I haven't had the stones to play with knives, I don't even know what it feels like. It looks really nice but I can't relate to the sensation almost at all by looking at it. I also with my partner history did not trust them to do it any more than I'd trust myself to, originally from fearing that once I know the pain that I might want to do it again and again (the same idea I have about tattoos from meeting a masochist who became an addict for it) and now from seeing it's legitimately a mental block, rigid fear rather than wiggly fear.
The whole going into the flesh thing makes it spooky to me the same way needles and mosquitos fuck with my head, stomach goes in knots and the skin gets all cold. I do have a few cuts on my fingers from accidents with sharp things, like when a cup exploded and cut a deep scar into my middle finger, and those felt exhilarating with uncontrolled laughing while simultaneously housing a fear of 'losing the finger' from inexperience with that kind of injury. Other cuts I had would heal over quickly enough, but that one was different over how it was deep enough to persist instead of getting to the fun stingy mending stage that lesser wounds become.
