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and it was not just joking for the sake of joking either,  it was essentially an exasperated cry for help after soo many medications and therapies failing me and a way to externalize the Inner critic in me that would constantly tell me that  "you are not doing that good enough"  about pretty much every single thing and soo on

essentially I am a very complicated person,  and most of what has been written on this forum by myself should not be taken seriously because barely any of it represents my real thoughts and opinions about anything

Should I punish you next time you showcase what appears to be an identity crisis or, what ?

More like you're embarrassed by how you've spent your last few years. 

Sorry hun but you're no Andy Kaufman. 

Turncoat said: 

More like you're embarrassed by how you've spent your last few years. 

Sorry hun but you're no Andy Kaufman. 

cope harder,  you fucking fell for it lol and you're like the only person who did not think that I was joking around  you are the only schizo here "hun" and you cannot force something that was myself joking around to be anything other than what it was

You wish it was a joke, you just don't wanna feel judged by Mommy after your shenanigans on here got you sent to the hospital. 

Turncoat said: 

You wish it was a joke, you just don't wanna feel judged by Mommy after your shenanigans on here got you sent to the hospital. 

If that were true then I would have told psychiatrists and therapists about it which I never did  you know nothing about my real life lmao  dude,  all of it was a joke time for you to come to terms with it

you should learn to expect that people posting on an anonymous forum are not actually who you think that they are Irl

It's not the first time you tried to deny your true self as if "Trolling", you did the same after Sam Hyde, Tryp, Slay, you go there a lot while not quite getting that it's going to keep happening as long as you keep denying these shadows within you. 

You also won't even tell the truth to therapists, as you went on about before, as you think they'll think you're crazy and will do something about it. There's too much suffering for it to be fake, and lying looks bad on you when you aren't any good at it to the point of transparency. 

Own it, accept this about yourself and it will stop controlling you as much. Denial gives it power over splitting the concepts that much further. 

I will never go back on saying that it was a joke because it was a joke,  you have to accept that  you cannot make it anything other than a joke because I am the author of it

compassionatequeen said:

you should learn to expect that people posting on an anonymous forum are not actually who you think that they are Irl

I do, but this would be Kaufman tier if you kept it going for years, for hours out of almost every day, with no real audience willing to read all your material other than me.