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Buttered Toast said: 

This is great.  One comment you don't apparently like and you turn.  I guess that's no surprise from your behavior, history and other signs.  Also the fact you are more projecting than having actual facts-of-the-matter or know much more than what you are supposing in order to validate yourself in the face of honest discussion.

I suspect you will see this, but then incorporate this as some sort of self-revelation, blind to the fact this is what you do.

You forget plenty of times I've been actually talking to you and offering real advice and concern.  The way you want to turn around and throw away any real friendship here is very telling.  You are dead wrong here and you will spazz out now about it and blame anyone else but yourself.

I'm a real person that had real conversations (I thought) with you.  Whatever reason you keep doing this bullshit, you need to figure out and talk to me after that.  Re-examine what we've talked about and the reality of it, versus this rant you're on.

I do not owe you anything,  and as my beliefs (spiritual and otherwise)  change to incorporate new insights that I have as a result of doing intensive therapy and shadow work that should be completely expected,  in fact if my beliefs were not changing then the therapy and shadow work would not even be working  I changed my belief that everyone has a "good side" and a "bad side",  to that everyone is intrinsically perfectly good but can have "bad"  (damaging to relationships,  animals, and the environment and so on)  behaviors that require love and therapy and rehabilitation to correct and just because my spiritual beliefs have evolved and changed does not mean that it is a phase,  I have evolved and changed as a person and how dare you try to hold me back from that this is not your place like at all  you cannot force someone to go back to being someone that they used to be who was a version of themselves that they did not resonate with and was putting in a ton of effort to change her beliefs for the better and become a better person

stop behaving like a creepy predator,  obviously you know that you are triggering me and reminding me of the person who behaved like a creepy predator that I was forced to live around all of my upbringing

*sighh*,  you are obviously just not as spiritually evolved as I am,  but you should not feel the need to try to hold other people back spiritually that is pretty damaging behavior

I knew that other people believed that everyone was intrinsically perfectly good and that only some behaviors were bad,  but I was not able to fully commit to it until I became spiritually awake enough to see and understand that it was true  my heart chakra opened or something shifted in my spiritual awareness but I can understand and see it in myself and everyone else now

and it is really not your place to try to tell other people what to believe spiritually,  that is a freewill thing and it is pretty personal and it is essentially rude behavior to try to tell someone what their spiritual beliefs "should " be,  like what the hell are you muslim ?

Just going to play peacekeeper for a bit.

BT. It's probably not a good time to order any type of frustration into the mix at this point in time. The nature of these episodes pretty much makes the subject into a different person. For now the idea is to get her off the guilt and the shame and whatever cringe she feels, while bringing it on won't work cause her emotions are intense and adding load will have her cut you off.

If you want to be appreciated, you have to consider the following.

- Don't expect your feelings to be reciprocated. 

- Love unconditionally. That is without expecting reciprocation.

- Forgiveness

All spiritual stuff associated with eternal sustainability, literally.

She'll be back, and she will appreciate your patience.

Emily is genuinely HSP, and as you might be able to tell from her writing style, the last episode is over. She's so much more stable right now. Give her positive energy.

Her emotions are insanely intense, but furthermore she's sensitive to other people's energies right now.

This type of mentality requires her caregiver to be a tank. The way to do this, is to understand none of it is personal.

While she's better, she's dealing with feelings of emptiness, and it's pretty intense, more than you and I can imagine cause we don't have such episodes to the point we're an entirely different person. She came off a manic episode so now she's prone to depression. It can be fatal. She's not as happy as she was during the mania so it's a total downer.

In a nutshell, she'll appreciate you better trying to understand what it is you're dealing with. 

Yes the illness makes her do things, and those close to her will be shaken to the point they too need to maintain composure. 

On a spiritual note, being a caregiver for these types of people makes the lord smile, and it makes you just as worthy of forgiveness in the lord's eyes.

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Just to boast, I'm the self proclaimed BPD specialist. It is comorbid with Bipolar, and it was I who diagnosed Emily's spiritual crisis when it surfaced. I spent a solid 3 years learning about this and I still pick up reading material and continue to experience stable interactions with my BPD. So I'm just saying. 

compassionatequeen said: 

*sighh*,  you are obviously just not as spiritually evolved as I am,  but you should not feel the need to try to hold other people back spiritually that is pretty damaging behavior

I knew that other people believed that everyone was intrinsically perfectly good and that only some behaviors were bad,  but I was not able to fully commit to it until I became spiritually awake enough to see and understand that it was true  my heart chakra opened or something shifted in my spiritual awareness but I can understand and see it in myself and everyone else now

 

and it is really not your place to try to tell other people what to believe spiritually,  that is a freewill thing and it is pretty personal and it is essentially rude behavior to try to tell someone what their spiritual beliefs "should " be,  like what the hell are you muslim ?

 

 

https://sociopathcommunity.com/Forum/Topic/25838/1/everyone-is-intrinsically-perfectly-good-and-lovable#post174057  <--  a dedicated thread about my present spiritual beliefs

additionally I believe in forgiving yourself after you have stopped doing bad behaviors,  because there is no use holding onto shame and guilt about those past bad behaviors if you have actually learned the "karmic" or otherwise lessons on why not to do those bad behaviors  and be forgiving of other people too the best that you can

compassionatequeen said: 

*sighh*,  you are obviously just not as spiritually evolved as I am

Hahahaha I'm sorry, but the above is very not spiritual, but rather egoist. 

Turncoat said: 

compassionatequeen said: 

*sighh*,  you are obviously just not as spiritually evolved as I am

Hahahaha I'm sorry, but the above is very not spiritual, but rather egoist. 

having an ego is a part of being human,  learn to accept it  trying to transcend your ego is stupid do you know how fucking retarded it looks for people to sit cross legged for entire days and ignoring all of life around them and calling that "enlightened"  🤭😂  omgggggggggg soo pathetic what the actual hell lmao  that is not any more spiritual than having and accepting your ego as a part of you I guarantee you that lmao

compassionatequeen said: 

Turncoat said: 

compassionatequeen said: 

*sighh*,  you are obviously just not as spiritually evolved as I am

Hahahaha I'm sorry, but the above is very not spiritual, but rather egoist. 

having an ego is a part of being human,  learn to accept it  trying to transcend your ego is stupid do you know how fucking retarded it looks for people to sit cross legged for entire days and ignoring all of life around them and calling that "enlightened"  🤭😂  omgggggggggg soo pathetic what the actual hell lmao  that is not any more spiritual than having and accepting your ego as a part of you I guarantee you that lmao

If you see feeding the ego as spirituality, you truly are a Satanist. 

Turncoat said: 

compassionatequeen said: 

Turncoat said: 

compassionatequeen said: 

*sighh*,  you are obviously just not as spiritually evolved as I am

Hahahaha I'm sorry, but the above is very not spiritual, but rather egoist. 

having an ego is a part of being human,  learn to accept it  trying to transcend your ego is stupid do you know how fucking retarded it looks for people to sit cross legged for entire days and ignoring all of life around them and calling that "enlightened"  🤭😂  omgggggggggg soo pathetic what the actual hell lmao  that is not any more spiritual than having and accepting your ego as a part of you I guarantee you that lmao

If you see feeding the ego as spirituality, you truly are a Satanist. 

nah I believe in an unconditionally loving and unconditionally forgiving God that is benevolent to all of humanity  (not the judaic or christian god)  and that is who I pray to

What you're doing here doesn't look like love.