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soo I realized that I am overdramaticizing feeling pissed off when people purposefully say degrading comments about me especially if they have to do with stuff that I think is good and beautiful in every human being  idk just normal human stuff  I am continuing to do that borderline pd traited thing where I try to think of myself as a bad person but I am actually not what the fuck lol why do I keep doing this to myself it is really sad and I hope that I am able to stop in the future  :/

I think that every human being has divinity within them,  but I am not any more "god" than anyone else is,  period  hopefully this calms Turncoat down finally because he has seemed to be pissed that I had what he considered to be a "god complex" for a long time

compassionatequeen said: 

I am not any more "god" than anyone else is,  period 

If this sticks, this is a big thing of you to say, considering your former views over being the goddess Emily and the wife of God. 

hopefully this calms Turncoat down finally because he has seemed to be pissed that I had what he considered to be a "god complex" for a long time

Despite the name, someone can be atheistic and still have a god complex, but the brief step away from solipsism you're trying to commit to is probably good for you. 

 I am not any better or worse than anyone else like I have soo many judgemental thoughts about good and bad and better and worse,  and they do not really align with my views of valuing equality and compassion and unconditionally loving people-  like how do I integrate the part of me that feels angry and hateful towards people when they behave degradingly towards me and towards other people like for example ignoring me or accusing me of stuff that I did not do,  with the other part of me that is like super well intentioned and wants everyone to unconditionally love each other and be compassionate towards each other and get along and for everything to be peaceful ?  I have like these two parts in me that are in direct opposition to each other  how do you integrate them together is that even possible

a lot of therapy encourages "integration",  but how do you integrate two parts of you that are both very strong and overwhelming but are in direct opposition to each other

I think that there is a section in one of my books on Internal Family Systems therapy about this  (polarized parts or something like that)-  I can read it and report back what I find and actually I could research this online too

Turncoat said: 

compassionatequeen said: 

I am not any more "god" than anyone else is,  period 

If this sticks, this is a big thing of you to say, considering your former views over being the goddess Emily and the wife of God. 

hopefully this calms Turncoat down finally because he has seemed to be pissed that I had what he considered to be a "god complex" for a long time

Despite the name, someone can be atheistic and still have a god complex, but the brief step away from solipsism you're trying to commit to is probably good for you. 

thank you

soo after some reflection,  I realized that this "god complex" stuff has not been my truth ever since I stopped being a christian soo like for months now,  but I had repressed it and I think that it came to the surface yesterday so that I could understand that it came from trying to overcompensate for a feeling powerlessness over my life and over all of the world

If you want praise, becomes a men's rights activist/porn star. Or just be a men's rights activist. Don't have to do much, just recognize and acknowledge men's issues and you'll have an ocean of men praising you.

Personally, i think the problem stems from not being satisfied with what little attention you get. When you treasure a little attention you'll be better off.

Golden_Eagle said: 

If you want praise, becomes a men's rights activist/porn star. Or just be a men's rights activist. Don't have to do much, just recognize and acknowledge men's issues and you'll have an ocean of men praising you.

Personally, i think the problem stems from not being satisfied with what little attention you get. When you treasure a little attention you'll be better off.

will never happen in a billion years,  I am an everyone's rights activist and into equality and fairness among all of humanity and doing porn is stupid and no men actually respect that and women who participate in porn do not genuinely respect themselves either