what ? you are asking questions that seem like you interpreted what I wrote in like the opposite way of what what communicated, no I am not a Christian anymore and yes I have people to talk to about this stuff with besides on here I believe in God and an afterlife, but not the Judaic or christian versions of God
Oh I see. I thought you meant you are still Christian when you said you still believe in God.
What version of God do you believe in now? Do you talk to God?
also I said that not wanting to corrupt good people thing out of a borderline pd moment (people who struggle with borderline pd tend to blame themselves for a lot of stuff that goes wrong in life that is not actually their fault), I think that I am much more of a "good person" than most people these days
Good to hear. I think you are, although you did some weird stuff in the past. I'm definitely not a good person.
I am curious abiut your Lutheran upbringing influencing you to not take the bible literally, can you explain some if that ? like if it is all figurative to you, then why even believe in the God of Christianity at all I am confused
Because I was told that God of Christianity is true. I basically pick and choose what to believe from the bible literally and figuratively. I believe God influences me on a deeply personal level and my conscience allows me to make up my own mind. It's like the God's code was written on my heart. I think the Bible was inspired by God, but not written by God.
...But I'm not so sure if I believe in a God anymore. I don't know. Sometimes I look around the world and feel like God's not really around. I'd like to think He's guided me throughout my life and I occasionally experience miracles in my life so I think He exists.
The core of Lutheran teaching is that the Bible was inspired by God.
Just saying, good people tend to think they need to do more, while those who feel the need to defend that they are 'good enough' are defensively making excuses to not be a better person, typically.
This is not really my experience. I think it's the opposite. Usually people who believe they are bad people actually are bad people.
I don't think I'm a good person. Would you say that I actually am a good person?