I want to love people I want this heart to become soft and to love being in relationships with and making other people feel cared about and safe
I think you just want everyone to think highly of you. You don't particularly like people.
you should stop thinking and judging other people until you can learn to think and judge accurately, If I wanted people to think highly of me then I would care about being respected and make sure to never say anything or reveal any truths and "secrets" about myself that would cause me to be disrespected
Yeah I'd say this is more about having enough power to rebuke people, a path people tend to take after feeling denied by them long enough. I mean you seem to think all people are attracted to you, so you must think pretty highly of yourself.
You otherwise still do want everyone to think highly of you, as long as that is done through some means of respect for your power, and you don't particularly seem to like people over how difficult they make that need out for you to accomplish.I am very honest except for when I cannot stop doing the things that I want to stop doing, but that is because of a problem with different parts of me wanting different things that I need to sort out but all of me does not care about being thought highly of or about being respected or about the praise of tiny little human beings who do not really mean much of anything other than they are supposed to be serving God my husband who means everything to me, and all of me does not like people but wants to feel love towards people
See, rebuking.
You aim to diminish the perception of those you perceive as your haters so that you do not have to internalize the things they are saying.listen to what people say and stop projecting, and you will actually learn the truth about other people without your perception of them being clouded by your own projections
You might want to listen to people, you didn't really deny his point.
^ This is so beyond inaccurate really sad how little you understand about me when I have replied to a lot of your questions maybe I do not like stupid people and most people from my intellectual standpoint are darn near close to retarded if not actually retarded so I am spending more and more time communicating with myself and God as of late :)