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Good on you for exploring shit and having the balls the start fresh.

But tbh it doesn't sound like you're necessarily gay. All the gay dudes I know discovered they were gay by experiencing sexual attraction to other men. That's what being gay means. 

Wanting to have deeper relationships with men isn't inherently gay.

So would you take it or give it

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Edit: Nevermind, I'm done giving updates.

Outro said: 

Good on you for exploring shit and having the balls the start fresh.

But tbh it doesn't sound like you're necessarily gay. All the gay dudes I know discovered they were gay by experiencing sexual attraction to other men. That's what being gay means. 

Wanting to have deeper relationships with men isn't inherently gay.

Thanks.

I don't think we can really box things in so easily. I think there's more to relationships than sex or sexual attraction. I think you can date men and be gay but just not enjoy sex/the physical aspects.

They psychology behind that is interesting. What were you when you were getting married ?

I might have mentioned to you recently that I find you programmable, and here you mentioned how Disney had you shooting for marriage and stuff. With that in mind, it sounds like Steve managed to charm you, feeding you raw salmon on rice with chopsticks, he knew he had you. If you go with Steve be sure to know a little bit of what you'll be in for. You're not exactly the open relation type, while he has married men in straight marriages eating out of his hand. Might be hot if your gay. The sweet forbidden temporary stuff that's so good, it's worth it's hefty price even as a distant memory on a soul level.

Long ago in elementary school I've been attracted to a dude, It wasn't sexual, I was just fond his character. Just wanted to be good friend. That was probably the closest to gay I've ever been. Last time I saw him was maybe 2 decades ago, he looked very sleek in a black suit carrying a briefcase, and had a mole removed next to his nose. I approached him and we started chatting for awhile, At that point in time he was doing better than I was and when we parted he wished me luck with my gig. 

Now that I mention it, I just tried finding him online ( for the first time ), and it seems impossible. He's also Asian so there are a million of him. I really don't know how Chinese people manage to find one another on social media.

Beware of swinging from one relationship to the next. Charming guy like Steve might not want to be held down, and might leave you bewildered after destroying your marriage. He is single after all, and might have another companion on the side more endearing to him than you are. An open discussion is in order. After that it'll be a shot in the dark for you but take it anyway after setting boundaries. 

Homosexuality. In your golden years you could end up in a diaper. On the bright side if you regularly keep getting smeared in your own fecal matter, the fear of death wouldn't be so bad when your time is near.

I never experienced anal intercourse myself, they say it feels good, but I imagine it doesn't. It's one of the nastiest things we can do kinkwise. Doing this regularly can also lead to other accidents depending on the state of the bowel. If by any chance your boyfriend drops a deuce after pulling out, move very quickly and clean it up, keep repeating "it's okay it's okay" while you're hustling to wrap it up and dispose of it. If you gag and flee the scene you'll further humiliate him. Of course this isn't advice, it just seems like the right thing to do while solidifying such a relationship.

Sodomy is only an aspect. Though that's their business and not my cup of tea, I don't see anything wrong with 2 men loving one another.

I still don't get how people realize later on in life they are gay, especially after getting married. But it's for such reasons the US military doesn't want gay and trans troops, it comes across as a lack of critical thinking skills, on a battlefield split decisions are crucial. 

So far you've yet to enjoy this venture it seems. If your wife doesn't do it for you anymore, than maybe it's time for both of you to split. That would make you happy, and maybe she would be happier with a manly man instead of an emasculated one. ( I always found you to be emasculated too.) The reason is your pro feminism, while most men ( who are good) give women their last meatball all the time, want them to succeed ( makes life easier when she has money too ) and good guys don't give a shit about 3rd wave feminism cause woman already have equality of opportunity, as long as they are fit for the job.)

Why hasn't your wife ended it first ?  What is she Hard feminist type ? Non submissive ? Primary colours in her hair, cow nose ring ? Goth ? I don't know, women are usually pretty good at reading men, though I imagine those eccentric types sees their silky-man as right for their cause.

Good luck with that Legga. Probably best to take it slow, break free all that stuff.

If you ever want to be buck-broken by a white massa and got a bubble negro butt hit me up x

Blue_Jay said: 

They psychology behind that is interesting. What were you when you were getting married ?

I might have mentioned to you recently that I find you programmable, and here you mentioned how Disney had you shooting for marriage and stuff. With that in mind, it sounds like Steve managed to charm you, feeding you raw salmon on rice with chopsticks, he knew he had you. If you go with Steve be sure to know a little bit of what you'll be in for. You're not exactly the open relation type, while he has married men in straight marriages eating out of his hand. Might be hot if your gay. The sweet forbidden temporary stuff that's so good, it's worth it's hefty price even as a distant memory on a soul level.

Long ago in elementary school I've been attracted to a dude, It wasn't sexual, I was just fond his character. Just wanted to be good friend. That was probably the closest to gay I've ever been. Last time I saw him was maybe 2 decades ago, he looked very sleek in a black suit carrying a briefcase, and had a mole removed next to his nose. I approached him and we started chatting for awhile, At that point in time he was doing better than I was and when we parted he wished me luck with my gig. 

Now that I mention it, I just tried finding him online ( for the first time ), and it seems impossible. He's also Asian so there are a million of him. I really don't know how Chinese people manage to find one another on social media.

Beware of swinging from one relationship to the next. Charming guy like Steve might not want to be held down, and might leave you bewildered after destroying your marriage. He is single after all, and might have another companion on the side more endearing to him than you are. An open discussion is in order. After that it'll be a shot in the dark for you but take it anyway after setting boundaries. 

Homosexuality. In your golden years you could end up in a diaper. On the bright side if you regularly keep getting smeared in your own fecal matter, the fear of death wouldn't be so bad when your time is near.

I never experienced anal intercourse myself, they say it feels good, but I imagine it doesn't. It's one of the nastiest things we can do kinkwise. Doing this regularly can also lead to other accidents depending on the state of the bowel. If by any chance your boyfriend drops a deuce after pulling out, move very quickly and clean it up, keep repeating "it's okay it's okay" while you're hustling to wrap it up and dispose of it. If you gag and flee the scene you'll further humiliate him. Of course this isn't advice, it just seems like the right thing to do while solidifying such a relationship.

Sodomy is only an aspect. Though that's their business and not my cup of tea, I don't see anything wrong with 2 men loving one another.

I still don't get how people realize later on in life they are gay, especially after getting married. But it's for such reasons the US military doesn't want gay and trans troops, it comes across as a lack of critical thinking skills, on a battlefield split decisions are crucial. 

So far you've yet to enjoy this venture it seems. If your wife doesn't do it for you anymore, than maybe it's time for both of you to split. That would make you happy, and maybe she would be happier with a manly man instead of an emasculated one. ( I always found you to be emasculated too.) The reason is your pro feminism, while most men ( who are good) give women their last meatball all the time, want them to succeed ( makes life easier when she has money too ) and good guys don't give a shit about 3rd wave feminism cause woman already have equality of opportunity, as long as they are fit for the job.)

Why hasn't your wife ended it first ?  What is she Hard feminist type ? Non submissive ? Primary colours in her hair, cow nose ring ? Goth ? I don't know, women are usually pretty good at reading men, though I imagine those eccentric types sees their silky-man as right for their cause.

Good luck with that Legga. Probably best to take it slow, break free all that stuff.

Thanks, I appreciate it. I'll take it pretty slow. I just had a chat with my wife, and we may still get children together, since we had discussed about that for a long time, but we'll definitely get a divorce. It's a bit of a shitshow, to be honest, and something tells me it might be a really bad idea, and I'm not going to be making any big decisions right now. What was I when we were getting married? I thought I was straight. I never considered I might be gay. I was aware of it on some level, but it never consciously entered my mind. It felt sort of like a light bulb moment when it hit me.

That was interesting post to read, by the way, particularly your school story. Would you still consider dating him now?

I still find the thought of having sex with a man pretty repulsive and your story almost made me gag. I don't think dating Steve is a good idea. I feel it'd be sort of like cheating on my wife, so I won't do it, out of principle. It's sort of like following up on something that was formed in bad faith. I think I'll look for someone who doesn't want to have sex, so I can have a relationship with no sex.

Why didn't my wife figure it out, and is she a hard feminist? To answer your question, my wife's quite conservative, and so is her family. I'm much more of a feminist than she is. She's also very submissinve. However, not many women suspect their husband might be gay. I guess that's it.

On this note, I hope she does find someone nice for her. However, I don't think I'm particularly emasculated. I think this is something that you associate with the left and with the support of feminism, as you see feminism as a betrayal of men, or as being against the traditional view of men dominating women. However, I don't think masculine traits are mutually exclusive with support of feminism. Despite supporting feminism, I have pretty right-leaning views for the most part, I'm very competetive when it comes to career and sports, and I'm against the current welfare system in Nordic countries, because I believe it rewards laziness. I'm somewhere in the center, and a little bit towards the right. I know of the strawman arguments against feminism, but those don't really apply to me for the most part. I do support women's rights, but I think they're primarily beneficial to me, so I justify that logically and selfishly. There's nothing altruistic about my views, nor do they come from a place of submissiveness. At any rate, I see how I might come across in a certain way, given my value system.

At any rate, I appreciate the thoughtful post. I think it's always interesting to chat with you.