By all accounts of your retelling it sounds like Witchcraft masquerading as Christianity, done under the guise of Satan as an Angel of Light if not one of his fallen brethren of the same ideals.
Again, there's warnings in The Bible about these kinds of tricks, and with the way you describe your Lilith spell it sounds like you used witchcraft to become possessed by Lilith, who is herself the wife of Satan in the first place. Doesn't it make sense that an agent of Satan might tell you these very things that go against The Bible in order to mislead you?
The fact that you see it as pure, righteous, and holy means nothing when Satan and his disciples' very powers are meant to resemble that as well, from their past experiences as angels of the light.
Again, The Bible is a source for cross-referencing, anything you're receiving in a vision should rightfully be reflected in the passages. If it's something from another religion, like lets say... Divine Mother symbolism present in Wicca and other faiths, then The Bible explicitly refers to that as Satanic. Everything you're explaining yourself to be going through would be rationalized within the religion, if they were to take you seriously, as possession from your time with the occult guiding your hand to the wrong places in spite of your righteous intent otherwise.YOU JUST ADMITTED LILITH IS THE WIFE OF SATAN
HA
SO HOW CAN I BE BOTH ADAM'S FIRST WIFE, AND THE WIFE OF AN ENTITY AS BIG AS SATAN
It's only by God's will that you cannot remarry, so her marrying up with Satan is like shitting on His doctrine. Having turned their backs on Him they're free to do more things, even if God may not recognize it within His rules.
Technically there's more support in the passages for her having been Adam's wife than Satan's though, but when she ran from the garden she did seek out demonic forces to co-exist with.
SO YOU ADMIT NOW THAT LILITH IS THE GODDESS
There is no Divine Mother or Goddess figure in Christianity though, Lilith was a Demon of the Night that killed babies and stole the spilled seed of man to create demonic Lilum.
how do you have such a difficult time comprehending this when to me it is so simple and easy to understand?
sorry for spazzing at you, just, I guess it's true that you could not possibly comprehend what it is like to firsthand be me, or to firsthand be Jesus
Do you know how many others could claim their truths that go against The Bible just as you are through the exact same logic?
There's nothing here that'd indicate it's not Satan tricking you (in fact it indicates the opposite almost to the word), and by how The Bible itself would treat this it'd be seen as possession from your occult days. Seriously, Old Testament types would probably suggest an Exorcism. You even claim to have 'fused' with Lilith, this suggests possession.
What conveniently makes yours not Satan, while it is Satan for them?
sorry for spazzing at you, just, I guess it's true that you could not possibly comprehend what it is like to firsthand be me, or to firsthand be Jesus
^ I think this is the point, you can't so there is really no good reason for me to continue to try to convince you of anything at all lol, you already said you basically would like to throw yourself into eternal hell so that shows where your heart and mind are at, and they are both definitely not interested in knowing and understanding the truth
You're the one denying scripture that, by design, is meant to help people sort through the confusion of Satan's tricks. I'm just referencing why Christians would say you're wrong.
Ironically, my recognition of Satan through The Bible meanwhile has come from an interest in 'the truth' as you'd put it, and from it the choice made more sense to not follow God should those texts turn out to be reality.
