TC will you shut the fuck up, she’s a very caring mother and her daughter is doing fine.
Why cover for her?
Because, you’re so critical of things that barely matter. Her daughter will not be a fuck up on your level...
Dude, do you even read half the shit she says on here? She's blacking things out and entirely recontextualizing situations after she slips up about bad shit. This isn't 'bad parenting', that shit's common, this is 'someone should take this kid away from her'.
This is just an ad hominem strike, what about the others who've been going at her over it of their own independent judgement? Even Tryp thinks she needs to seek a therapist at this point, after reporting her alcoholism to be worse than his own.
When I do anything bad, even walk across the street illegally, my brain thinks rules don’t matter, so the next time I have the option to do something illegal, wrong, or just not right, I will do it. That’s why I seem to have periods of time when I’m doing a lot of crazy stuff at once. I have impulse control issues on a level where it I do one bad thing, I can’t control the rest of the bad things I might do.
For example, when I don’t have sex when I have the urge, I start watching porn. First is lesbian stuff, gay stuff, doggy style, rape, young people, and now I found myself looking for videos of a guy cutting a girl. Sadly, the crying fantasy is just people cutting themselves. It’s dumb. I did watch stuff with dead people and a guy cutting his thing, which goodness that was actually pretty sexy, but yeah. I just keep getting worse and worse until I stop myself and recommit to being good.
That’s just what happens when I don’t get sex when I need it. When I actually do bad things, like physically walking across the street illegally, I start doing stuff like actually having sex with guys. Then it moves to either using them to fulfill my fantasies, or just using them for whatever I can get. Then, I usually ditch and be good again.
My current spiral is a lot worse than any of the rest. I’ve moved past anywhere I’ve ever been on the porn front, and on the guy front. Watching autopsies and freaking finding the perfect guy for evil plan, and one for my good path too? I’m just not sure what is next. I’m almost at the end of my spiral and I’m not sure where it is taking me.
I can’t be with the perfect evil plan guy because I’m trying to be good. I can’t be up front about my issues with the other one because I’m all weird and embarrassed whenever he talks to me, and I’m not trying to make people hate me either.
I can’t find any videos showing the type of cutting I’d like to see, and I’ve already watched someone choke someone to death. There’s really nothing left other than choosing to go with my evil plan. I don’t think I could ever do that, but it’s easier, so it’s tempting. That’s the scary part.
I could have everything I’ve ever desired. All of the reasons I hate society can be fixed if I just do the evil things I planned to do. I’d be married, have happy kids, have unhappy people in the torture room, and just swimming in pleasure, but I wouldn’t go to heaven and I’d hate myself even more than I do now.
This is why I need a good guy. I need someone who will say don’t ever do that, when I say I want to murder people or anything evil like that. I need a guy who won’t even consider kidnapping anyone. I need a man sized impulse control substitute/master.
You sound bipolar.
Also, she is obviously mentally ill and has been heavily abused. No wonder she is dissociating by using substances. Of course the child is fucked, but blame is probably misplaced here. There is also good in CS, even in this thread. She seems to really have an internal strive for goodness and that is something that not many people have. Of course she is not good in pursuing it, even perverts it at times and is using bad strategies like whoring around etc to achieve it, but at the base is a meritorious intention. If she is being hated as the whore of Babylon, she should be worshipped as the virgin mother Maria at the same time.
This is why I need a good guy. I need someone who will say don’t ever do that, when I say I want to murder people or anything evil like that. I need a guy who won’t even consider kidnapping anyone. I need a man sized impulse control substitute/master.
I could be your human male. I have all those qualities.
TC will you shut the fuck up, she’s a very caring mother and her daughter is doing fine.
You’re kind.
Tell that to your chat history.
Dude, do you even read half the shit she says on here? She's blacking things out and entirely recontextualizing situations after she slips up about bad shit. This isn't 'bad parenting', that shit's common, this is 'someone should take this kid away from her'.
This is just an ad hominem strike, what about the others who've been going at her over it of their own independent judgement? Even Tryp thinks she needs to seek a therapist at this point, after reporting her alcoholism to be worse than his own.
I do not black things out or recontextualize situations. I do talk to a therapist. My child is fine and I’m getting better, not worse. Why don’t you focus on your gender confusion issues. That ought to keep you busy.
