So in other words you don’t actually subscribe
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Losing is how to grow. Someone who insists that they are always winning won't ever see that someone is better than them and worth surpassing, won't ever be corrected out of poorly cobbled together ideas, won't be able to handle a loss when it happens to the point of being a sore loser in shock (usually to the point of denial over the loss)...
...I typically see narcissists say they're always winning, and if not they insist that they are the biggest loser so that they are still first place in something without needing to measure by how much. It supports one of the laziest life-climbs, directly inhibiting one's mean of learning what's outside of ourselves.
Winning can be comfortable, confirming the time you put in to earn it in ways that mean more if you have a history of losses, while losing shows you what the others did to beat you, offering a learning curve. This is why having a legit Rival can push for growth through conflict to an insane degree if both are otherwise motivated enough to snowball off each other."I might be a loser at life, but at least I can point out your flaws on a sociopath forum by writing long paragraphs. Fixating on other peoples flaws means now I can forget about my mimimum wage job and my suicide attempts and that I'm a total failure!"
Yes precisely, except I'm a leech off of the government and consider a willingness to fail to be less failure than failing to even get to the point of failure at all.
No you don't. You hate yourself and wish you were successful.
I've since sat here and adjusted my priorities, what constitutes success when it comes to the perception of my quality of life. I'd always wanted to work simply so I could sustain myself and afford things I'd enjoy to help pass the time until death, even as a kid, but now I've found myself with the time to do things on my own schedule with the government paying for it like some sort of sponsor (of disorder).
Can you afford everything that you enjoy?
Strangely enough, this failing of mine was what got me closer to the life I'd wanted, but without all that "You need to be a success through jobs" Capricornian nonsense I was otherwise being fed non-stop."failing" finally you admit something. It's about time you snapped out of your narc ego.
These days I'd rather just be happy within the constraints I've been given, to grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. I'm not really complaining as much, and said complaints were mostly rooting from having been sold that to not work is to be homeless, which ramped up my symptoms to stupid degrees.
I was initially pushed with the idea of "If you don't get through college, you'll work for fast food, or Walmart!" as the threat... then I graduated college and worked at a grocery store, a few restaurants, and serving free samples at Walmart. I'm sure you can see how that conflict was fucking with my head when the punishment I was promised followed the things I was told to do. It was an entitlement issue, one I've progressively shaken off with time as I see that my current prison of constraints is cozier without it.You had a digital art degree. Get a real degree lol. The people that tell you that you could get a good job from graduating from a LIBERAL ARTS degree are lying. STEM is the way to go. The notion that all college degrees are equal is politically correct bullshit.
The life of a shut in has proven to be a comfortable one.Thus the suicide attempts and attempts to escape reality by bullying blanc and cs.You sure you aren't projecting why you bully people and don't let others get to know the real you?
I've offered to add you on discord. That's how you can know me better. Meanwhile you're being a little shit.
Hate to break it to you bro, but you're trying to escape reality harder than the resident schizo.
So in other words you don’t actually subscribe
Do I look like a card carrying Christian to you, or someone who prays?
If anything I have a lengthy rhetoric about the evils of god within his alien nature, and the goodness of Lucifer through how he's more human than any of us.
My avatar right now is even Lilith, the first woman before Eve who did it way better.
Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔
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So in other words you don’t actually subscribe
Do I look like a card carrying Christian to you, or someone who prays?
If anything I have a lengthy rhetoric about the evils of god within his alien nature, and the goodness of Lucifer through how he's more human than any of us.
My avatar right now is even Lilith, the first woman before Eve who did it way better.
She said it's not that kind of prayer. She means like a mantra, a life philosophy.
So in other words you don’t actually subscribe
Do I look like a card carrying Christian to you, or someone who prays?
If anything I have a lengthy rhetoric about the evils of god within his alien nature, and the goodness of Lucifer through how he's more human than any of us.
My avatar right now is even Lilith, the first woman before Eve who did it way better.She said it's not that kind of prayer. She means like a mantra, a life philosophy.
I don't subscribe to mantras either.
Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔
So in other words you don’t actually subscribe
Do I look like a card carrying Christian to you, or someone who prays?
If anything I have a lengthy rhetoric about the evils of god within his alien nature, and the goodness of Lucifer through how he's more human than any of us.
My avatar right now is even Lilith, the first woman before Eve who did it way better.She said it's not that kind of prayer. She means like a mantra, a life philosophy.
I don't subscribe to mantras either.
Sorry I thought it was nondenominational tbh
So in other words you don’t actually subscribe
Do I look like a card carrying Christian to you, or someone who prays?
If anything I have a lengthy rhetoric about the evils of god within his alien nature, and the goodness of Lucifer through how he's more human than any of us.
My avatar right now is even Lilith, the first woman before Eve who did it way better.She said it's not that kind of prayer. She means like a mantra, a life philosophy.
I don't subscribe to mantras either.
Sorry I thought it was nondenominational tbh
It is. He's just allergic to feeling unoriginal. : P
Can you afford everything that you enjoy?
Can anyone?
"failing" finally you admit something. It's about time you snapped out of your narc ego.
I admit to a lot of flaws, but they're shrouded in 14000 posts.
If you really care to see my flaws, all you'd need to do is a little spelunking on the forum.
You had a digital art degree. Get a real degree lol.
I also have a Psych degree, but that could also be seen as "less real" over it being a "Speculative Science".
Digital Arts right now is otherwise all the rage, hence why it's now such an oversaturated field. Just because you can't keep up with the times to the point of missing the art renaissance we've entered through digital culture doesn't mean it doesn't exist.
The people that tell you that you could get a good job from graduating from a LIBERAL ARTS degree are lying. STEM is the way to go. The notion that all college degrees are equal is politically correct bullshit.
Technically they could get a job teaching political arts, and it'd look good on a resume as supplementary material if they were to work on a magazine or something.
It's like how a Pop Culture degree looks pointless, but there are people who find work within it.
I've offered to add you on discord. That's how you can know me better. Meanwhile you're being a little shit.
You could just talk about it here instead, what are you afraid of others seeing?
Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔
So in other words you don’t actually subscribe
Do I look like a card carrying Christian to you, or someone who prays?
If anything I have a lengthy rhetoric about the evils of god within his alien nature, and the goodness of Lucifer through how he's more human than any of us.
My avatar right now is even Lilith, the first woman before Eve who did it way better.She said it's not that kind of prayer. She means like a mantra, a life philosophy.
I don't subscribe to mantras either.
Sorry I thought it was nondenominational tbh
Then why did you try to emphasize how it's "not religious" when it clearly is?
Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔
So in other words you don’t actually subscribe
Do I look like a card carrying Christian to you, or someone who prays?
If anything I have a lengthy rhetoric about the evils of god within his alien nature, and the goodness of Lucifer through how he's more human than any of us.
My avatar right now is even Lilith, the first woman before Eve who did it way better.She said it's not that kind of prayer. She means like a mantra, a life philosophy.
I don't subscribe to mantras either.
Sorry I thought it was nondenominational tbh
It is. He's just allergic to feeling unoriginal. : P
He needs to feel edgy and unique all the time.