I have a few follow-ups:
1. Why do you want to be the center of (random) people's world?
It confirms that I am indeed the most important thing in the world and center of everything
2. Why do you think you have this excessive desire for control?
Part fear of what people will do to me if I am not the one doing the controlling and part it gives me a superiority kick
Let me give you a memory from high school. we had these 3 fat chicks in class we used to constantly make fun of and steal their shit till they cried. one day we decided to stop being assholes. they started throwing pen bags at us and beat up one of the more cowardly kids in our class for their own amusement.
3. Can you relate to people in different ways or is it really just a power/control thing all the time?
I have been vulnerable before.
4. Do you really think it is easier to make people happy than to make people sad? You brought some examples that are not really hitting I feel like. I wonder if this is your real reason for acting like this. Punch someone and they will be unhappy. To offer something positive is more demanding. You can experience it Already in yourself. Sadness comes easily, happiness takes effort. Why should it be different for other people? I think you are not honest here.
This feels like some sort of rationalization because you are still bleeding from my earlier attacks, like battered chicks saying that her boyfriend beats her because hes wounded and hurt or smth. Depressed people tend to be entertainers and cheer up people to give em the happiness they lack. Feeling happiness is indeed hard, but spreading it is easy. It just requires social intelligence and will.
Plenty of depressed people pleasers who cheer up a room and kill it in cackles. Not many that can get some forever wounded fags to call police on him and plot revenge for years.
5. You mentioned if you were acting like this in real life, you would miss out on a lot of things that make you happy. Why would it be different with relationships you have online?
People here are expendable. characters on a screen. Their highest function is entertainment or financial partnership if I am recruiting them in scams.
No shade at all, I really want to understand and since you are so honest and real about dark parts of yourself I trust that you look inside and will answer genuinely 🙏
I dont see any shade in this reply, maybe 'pitification' (assigning pitiful causes to behavior you dont like to cope like stockholmed chicks do), but thats about it.
