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Are you sure you don't want to see them user? They're very pink and perky, and nicely proportioned w.r.t. my waist. I still have two "good years" left and then this advantage is no longer mine. I might show them as I once did but only if you're nice to me.

You try to mask caring with nonchalance. There's nothing wrong with caring about people, although I see now that your caring was contingent on me bettering myself, which is understandable. I would do the same. I don't hold it against you, you're young. Once the humor fades, then what? Are you going to leave me alone again?

>self introduction

Well duh you idiot, who else are you gonna introduct  

Not really. I don't see the point of you showing me your tits if we're not sexually involved. It would be just weird.

Once the humour fades, the dynamic will change. But we can't know if I'll leave you alone.

Evil said: 

Those tenets look a bit different from the impression I get from Hollywood movies where the satanists sacrifice humans to the great lord and savior red goat.

I'm not surprised, after The Satanic Panic of the 80s: 

If those are the fundamental tenets then it seems like it's closer to secular beliefs rather than religious ones.

Pretty much yeah. Satan is basically treated as a symbol of free will, worshiped as an idea similarly to how The Buddha is followed without being treated as a Jesus figure from a Slave Religion. Some who follow are wicked cringy and want to summon Baphomet, but that's more of their choice within the faith as opposed to the faith itself. A Satanist could just as readily be trying to summon Aphrodite or some shit, but honestly all that summoning crap from my views breaks Tenet five despite how much Tenets four and six express that they should be handled gently. 

Demons are often symbols of reverence over how they contradict that this world we presently live in has no value, but many in the fold don't actually follow spiritual practices but rather, as you've said, secular ones. You can be whatever kind of Satanist you want to be, it's not like Catholicism for instance that'd socially beat your teeth in until Jesus is accepted. 

Why I believe there is more to it than life? The same reason I believe in anything, out of necessity.

What is it even accomplishing for you though? 

That there is an afterlife is better than there not being one, I adopt that belief for the same reason I adopt any other belief, due to its usefulness. Why do you believe what you believe? Nobody has any better reasons  than that.

You're oversimplifying things so that you don't have to address them. You should let yourself actually do these dives or else you'll just find yourself stuck in loops, which, considering your self-report of "what life is"... doesn't sound like something you actually want to do. 

I am prepared for both if there is or isn't an Afterlife after weighing the perceived value of my choices and decisions. 

Jesus Christ is the idealized figure that we can choose to strive towards.

You mean God playing puppet theater to try to understand the human condition, only to later on use cheat codes/ the dark arts like conjuring food and walking on water to manipulate the masses? 

Considering that God is timeless and omnipotent, he already knew all of Jesus' life before it was experienced, making every choice done through Jesus inauthentic. There was no risk, no sacrifice, just wool being put over our eyes so we may resemble sheep. 

Do you even know of Jesus' teen years, or his times with Mary Magdalene? I swear Christianity as a faith is only supported by those who don't read between the lines... as if they saw everything in there, accepted it, and stuck around they'd be a much darker individual than one who simply desires personal freedoms while chanting YOLO. 

But where once I was motivated by emotions, I am now motivated by a desire.  I know I cried when I made this topic, but I no longer feel that strongly about it. My feelings have highs and lows, as does my level of caring. Now I no longer care as much about being good, I don't know how else to explain that.

So your emotions are out of control from being stuck within a prison of your own design? 

If it's your own prison, you have the room to redecorate it. 

More talk? I was hoping you would share something personal with me now so I can make you feel better in return and we can bond or something.

I'm not really sure what to share beyond my own religious theology in a topic like this, but when you phrase it like that it makes your attempt at reciprocation sound more like trying to dig into the other person's mind. 

Still though, if you want to talk more one-on-one we could try Discord or something. I don't mind sharing things about myself and the talk might be fun. 

But then I probably would have found that disingenuous and ironically it would've had the opposite effect from that which I desired.

It'd be a distraction from focusing purely on you while you feel vulnerable, as is even apparent by you trying to convince your audience that you "don't care anymore". 

It takes more courage to admit that you care, and saying that caring is cringy is a cope for those who are too afraid to feel. 

Evil said: 

Are you sure you don't want to see them user? They're very pink and perky, and nicely proportioned w.r.t. my waist. I still have two "good years" left and then this advantage is no longer mine. I might show them as I once did but only if you're nice to me.

If you're that willing and eager to show them off I wouldn't mind you sending some my way. 

I'm not that eager to show them. I want people to feel vulnerable enough to show humility when asking me for something. Pride or nonchalance makes me reluctant to comply because they're oft used as masks to avoid revealing undesirable feelings. It is more difficult for me to anticipate people's reactions.

It sounds like satanism is a religious front for secular anti-theism with stoic and nihilistic elements then. It isn't nearly as appealing as Christianity, in which belief is grinded to the very core of your being. No mountains will be moved in the name of a dreary stoic, nihilistic non-belief. It does sound cute and refreshing, but it doesn't call to my soul or even attempt to fill the void in my heart.

What does my belief accomplish for me? It causes me pain, but aids as a source of intrinsic self-worth when I feel hopeless and lost. It is the source that motivates and justifies my every decision, making it more real than reality.

What did Jesus do with Mary Magdalena?

I would love to care. When I say I don't care, I do not think I am trying to shut you out Turncoat. My caring feels the same as most of my obligations feel like. The motivation that drives that caring is not genuine, while the part of me that feels real is self-loathing. I experience short periods of remorse during which I can genuinely feel, like when I posted the OP. Afterwards, nothing.

How intimidating are you to chat with on a scale from 1 to 10? Would you be offended if I said no to Discord?

How do I share my discord contact info?

Evil said: 

I'm not that eager to show them.

Why not? 

I want people to feel vulnerable enough to show humility when asking me for something.

Too bad, you have to earn that by offering something they truly think they need. If you haven't created stock in the desire for your tits, why is anyone going to work towards being nicer to you for a chance at them? 

Pride or nonchalance makes me reluctant to comply because they're oft used as masks to avoid revealing undesirable feelings. It is more difficult for me to anticipate people's reactions.

Why should he change his behavior if what you're trying to tempt him with is no more than a tease? 

It sounds like satanism is a religious front for secular anti-theism with stoic and nihilistic elements then. It isn't nearly as appealing as Christianity, in which belief is grinded to the very core of your being.

You'd rather be brainwashed (the belief grinding) than be free? 

You sound more like a candidate for modern cults. Want me to send you some Scientology or Unicult media? 

No mountains will be moved in the name of a dreary stoic, nihilistic non-belief.

You won't move mountains as a Christian, you'll just use it to self-flagellate. It's the darker of the two paths by my views, especially once you start erring towards paths like Catholicism. 

I also don't see Satanism as "dreary stoic nihilism", it's the freedom to pick your own path. God either doesn't exist or does not deserve human worship, he neither needs it nor does it truly benefit the individual. You... uh, only think it's the better path because, as per your own volition, you don't know any better. 

I'd rank it on par with 'Digital Self Harm' for what it's purpose otherwise serves you in particular. 

It does sound cute and refreshing, but it doesn't call to my soul or even attempt to fill the void in my heart.

You only know how to do as you've been conditioned to do, like a puppet of your hardened childhood rhetoric. 

You don't even know what you want, you just know your sense of status quo. You're afraid to change anything about yourself, justifying it with words like "laziness" when you really otherwise can't process being a different you. 

If you want to remain sad and ineffective, as you already feel, then keep to this path as it should yield consistent results for you. If you want a chance at finding happiness, you're going to have to be willing to try more. 

What does my belief accomplish for me? It causes me pain, but aids as a source of intrinsic self-worth when I feel hopeless and lost. It is the source that motivates and justifies my every decision, making it more real than reality. 

You're talking like a cultist. 

What did Jesus do with Mary Magdalena?

You don't even know your own faith's source material. How can you call yourself a Christian when even it's anti-theists can quote more scripture than you? 

I would love to care. When I say I don't care, I do not think I am trying to shut you out Turncoat. My caring feels the same as most of my obligations feel like. The motivation that drives that caring is not genuine, while the part of me that feels real is self-loathing. I experience short periods of remorse during which I can genuinely feel, like when I posted the OP. Afterwards, nothing.

You speak like a victim, but it's all self-inflicted. 

You indulge in this pain, this life, because it's all you understand. How awful we are, seeing ourselves as "The Worst" of anything, is no different when it comes to our perceived impacts on this world as saying we're otherwise "The Best". It's extremist ideas of yourself that are largely exaggerated into a dramatic binary, when it's really more like degrees on a scale. 

How intimidating are you to chat with on a scale from 1 to 10? Would you be offended if I said no to Discord?

How do I share my discord contact info?

Are you scared of me or something? 

If you feel like having a more one on one talk, send me your name and #tag or add 𝕋urncøat#4144 to your friend's list, then send me a PM on here or something to confirm it's you and not someone pretending to be you. 

Edit: Nevermind

How interested are you in talking with me from what you've seen, anyway? Why would I even be interesting to talk to?

Are you going to be disappointed if I don't meet your expectations or I'm shy?

Evil said: 

Edit: Nevermind

What's this, further confirmation that you think I'm scary or something? 

Evil said: 

How interested are you in talking with me from what you've seen, anyway? Why would I even be interesting to talk to?

You're different, like most people, but that's still reason enough sometimes to want to start a conversation. 

Are you going to be disappointed if I don't meet your expectations or I'm shy?

What expectations are you expecting I'd expect? I'm not walking into this with many if any. 

Also shy behavior's cute, when it's real anyway. It's all fluster-y.