I'm not "starting to see" it, I'm observing it from a different light.
To comment on it from a distance isn't to experience it, to be in the midst of it.
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You are the guy who want^ ed to change your own gender. Now answer me that:Do you consider that absurd?
Yes.
I consider a lot of my own behaviors expressions of the absurd, but doesn't considering them mean it's a detached view of it instead of nosediving into it, truly believing in it? The observation of it's own absurdity, while itself absurd, lends to less absurdity in the behavior itself. It becomes less natural, a demonstration of prior thinking and expectations... or does it?
Just because I behave in a certain way, and witness it out of others, does not mean it is understood, merely witnessed. I want to understand it. It's like how someone can eat a sandwich, or see others eat sandwiches, but not really get what a sandwich is, or how someone could fire a gun but not know how it otherwise works beyond it's function, beyond it's results.
I want to get absurdity instead of just mindlessly partaking in and witnessing it.
