Hate having to be human so much that want to punish self for allowing

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by prettiestofflowers

on 1/16/2020

Posts: 1662

it to happen.

instead of just killing self. used to tell self that self was scared of death but nah, truthfully want to punish self. Truth Wednesday. Believes (for many reasons, will not go into them all) that chose to incarnate into this specific life before incarnating rather than "it happened without my consciousness having any control over it". Am very mad at consciousness for thinking it was okay to do this to me

Very mad. will punish self in all ways til death

p.s. Knows the reasons why soul chose to do this. Has to do with having a very weird fresh view of incarnating. for science and amusement

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by prettiestofflowers

on 1/16/2020

Posts: 1662

Even though knows the reasons why soul chose this, still very very mad. want to be free but is so mad wont even death to end suffering

by prettiestofflowers

on 1/16/2020

Posts: 1662

Self must be punished

by prettiestofflowers

on 1/16/2020

Posts: 1662

Soul wants self to live out full lifetime and experience all suffering. when get back to spirit realm it will feel like only a brief second of being gone but will have access to the entirity of life memories and much more information that will be very valuable to soul

Soul is a cunt(just kidding) I understand why soul did this but like, kind of not at the same time because I don't have access to being my full soul yet (obviously). so I only understand part of the reason why

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by user22212

on 1/16/2020

Posts: 1110

Aye mate, it sucks, but bear with it aight?

A shadow not so dark.

by Sintetika

on 1/16/2020

Posts: 833

Are you from the 75th dimension here in human form to teach us about the holy god of the universe Carl Wheezer, and how during the great lamapolooza, he will devour the universe as one giant croissant and we shall all be vored by our magnificent god?

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by prettiestofflowers

on 1/16/2020

Posts: 1662

Sintetika said:
Are you from the 75th dimension here in human form to teach us about the holy god of the universe Carl Wheezer, and how during the great lamapolooza, he will devour the universe as one giant croissant and we shall all be vored by our magnificent god?

No one would try to teach someone as unintelligent as you anything, love