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I'm empty of surprises

Xena said: 

Turncoat said: 

Xena said: 

Turncoat said: 

Xena said: 

Someone I dated's mother was half-way towards being one of those... Jeez, it's nuts to imagine someone twice as far down the path. 

You say that like it's a bad thing...

I tend to see any fixation as troubling, but I like talking to these people as a guilty pleasure. She however was a little weird about clothing and crystals, which to me strikes me as missing the point. 

Lost or not, it tends to help me reflect on how lost I likely am as well. Through gathering other's perspectives I see variation, and if they spent obscene amounts of time on it then either their answers are stupidly rigid through repetitious reinforcement or they reflect that much time being spent on it. 

I assume you're the latter, and it's people deep into a path that's not mine that serve to have me question my own paths. I'm not going to pretend I know what's going on, but I can definitely look up others answers to those questions to refine my skepticism and views otherwise instead of just stone wall with something as baseline and insulting as "But Magic isn't real hur dur". 

Dedication to anything is worth it, purely for it's depth, nuance, and the room to open another's mind to other ideas. Through the efforts spent, answers that can cross into other paths appear. When I'm talking to someone, I like when what they say reflects the toil of thought they've spent on it instead of some bullshit streamlining, as that shows who that person is more than the faith itself. 

What had you go into it so forwardly? Most I've seen in relation to Wicca are either people dabbling as a wishful thinking tourist, strongly misunderstanding it as if it was something more Satanic in nature, or they start calling themselves Pagans down the line. 

I began life with a solid home, good support network, and a reliable, workable framework of rules and ethics. I even went to church  xD

Did your history with Church reinforce your idea of Wicca's legitimacy, or is it just where you started? 

Not asking as a pointed question, but this has come up from a lot of people who've gone that direction. It has me wonder what about Christianity could serve to push people towards Wicca in particular. 

So when I turned to a new crowd with a different morality, it was difficult to live my life without losing myself to the nihilistic lawlessness that led the people around me.

What sort of people are you meaning in particular for "nihilistic lawlessness"? 

It's not that I don't assume those people exist, it's more that it's a wide range of potential people. 

I'm a nice person... until somebody fucks with me lol. I've always preferred to be nice. But what is "nice" without a moral code to give said "niceness" meaning? 

What is your reason for being nice? 

Not asking why it's good for people to be nice, I could write papers on that shit, but your reason in particular. 

Wicca filled the void, gave me direction, and a better, more workable ecofeminism and code of ethics to apply to my parenting. The other Wiccans I met were nice, too.

So are you more Dianic, or under some other name? 

I misunderstood nothing. I had a proper teacher.

What is deemed proper credentials for these sorts of circles? Wicca like many other faiths have splintered, and give room for interpretation within it. 

Unfortunately, my skepticism / pessimism (which is probably my worst personality trait) won in the end.

Nothing spiritual ever survives it for long.

I've only ever been in the skepticism areas (which sucks), so I don't really get what you mean by having something spiritual "survive". 

Are you meaning that you lost your way from it, or that it stopped sounding like reality? 


Edit: Alright I swear I'm done fixing this post.

Anyway I'm going to be having a lot of fun doing spellwork. I did one I created myself just now and noticed it working immediately hahahaha:) fun stufff <3

aubrieta said: 

Anyway I'm going to be having a lot of fun doing spellwork. I did one I created myself just now and noticed it working immediately hahahaha:) fun stufff <3

Alright fine, what spell did you cast? 

Cain said: 

I'm empty of surprises

Much like how there's always room to dig, there's always room to be surprised. World's full of them, but we tend to limit our perceptions for it to help reaffirm an easier idea. 

To quote a children's cartoon: "When you base your expectations only on what you see, you blind yourself to the possibilities of a new reality."

lol TC it looks like what Aub and I were into are 2 entirely different things.

And if you hadn't noticed, I refer to my pagan days in the past tense.

I'd prefer you leave it in the past I don't talk about, instead of spinning it into another one of your ridiculous SC Flandersizations.

And one of these days, I'd like you to tell me my life story as you remember it.

Because a lot of your responses to my posts seem to be overreactions based on an absurdly incorrect assessment of me.

"Music Industry Magick"? WTF? lol

You're not talking about stuff like this, are you?

@TC: I studied within the Odyssean tradition.

Xena said: 

lol TC it looks like what Aub and I were into are 2 entirely different things.

She seems like an internet wiccan, yes. 

And if you hadn't noticed, I refer to my pagan days in the past tense.

I'd prefer you leave it in the past I don't talk about, instead of spinning it into another one of your ridiculous SC Flandersizations.

I'm genuinely curious about you though, you claim to be deeper into it than anyone of that path I've ever spoken to, and I likely won't find someone else of this perceived sense of scale. 

Yeah yeah I know, "I owe you no favors and don't wish to contribute towards your growth". 

And one of these days, I'd like you to tell me my life story as you remember it. 

I just have bits and pieces, like buying comic books out of order. 

You're like Pulp Fiction to me. 

"Music Industry Magick"? WTF? lol

So you haven't looked into the claims of "black magic" within certain music techniques? 

Some go back to the 1800s, even within some of Danny Elfman's works. There's an entire mindset around the "magic" behind soundcraft, and overtime I find myself gradually becoming more of a believer. 

Xena said: 

@TC: I studied within the Odyssean tradition.

I've never heard of it and I'm looking into it now. 

Tha' Wikipedias said:

The tradition differs from other initiatory Wiccan traditions in its emphasis on preparation of its members for public priesthood.

This is super different and now I'm all the more curious.