you can heal from ur bpd but u can't heal from being a broken selfish and vile person turq
I'm not selfish.....It's not my fault it's the norm on this Forum to put all members that post on defense mode. I am actually helping one of my exes that is Narcissistic/bpd traits work on his boundaries and self-esteem and he is changing for the better. I want to help people and I really hope I never lose that urge.
but I couldn't keep living my life with BPD the emotions were too much. once I realized the root cause was guilt, and that feeling guilt just because I exist is what was controlling me and my emotions, it was like this switch in my brain got triggered
Bpd and npd are quite alike in behavior i think, only difference would be the reason of acting in x way; for bpd it would be emotionaly driven and for npd it would be ego driven.. basicly you found what made you feel the shittiest and repressed that emotions. Not saying it's bad, you just dont jump from pd to pd, it's not how this shit works, especially when those two pds are oposite in their core.
Are you even wasting your time with that deadbeat ?
Edit: Bitch you are on your 20's, you dont turn psychopath like that, stfu. Not only you are retarded but you believe in that shit, which makes you dumb as fuck.
the thing is I am losing my memory of what emotions that I know I have experienced in the past.....I mean I was BPD, most of my life I felt a wider and deeper range of emotions than most Neurotypicals! but I am losing the memory of what emotions feel like. so I don't think this is repression, I don't know what it is, all I know is I feel completely in control of my life, I set goals for my self and am achieving them with very minimal effort, my life is easy lol. this started 2 weeks back and each day I am feeling more in control and less emotional. this isn't a phase, I know in my gut this is permanent. and it's not sociopathic (I am self-controlled/intelligent) or narcissism, I don't need attention. but I am noticing I feel happier when I am in public now than when I am alone in my apartment (I used to have social anxiety and did not like being in public). this is Psychopathic. I have the charisma/charm of a psychopath when I talk to people, and I am starting to crave dopamine.
my anxiety/fear is starting to become non-existent, but I do have this numb paranoia of not wanting people to know I am different because it will mess up my life. at first I was like.....this is cool I want to tell my family and other people what is happening to me. but now it's like I will lose control if I tell people so I want to keep it a secret. you people can think what you want but this is real, and possible. BPD can switch to full on psychopathy in the right circumstances. I am living proof. If I got a brain scan I know for a fact it would meet the diagnostic for psychopathy. if not right now, it will in a couple months. It is a transition, not an on/off switch
If u are trying to hurt my feelings by all means continue exhausting your efforts lol, but I promise that nothing in the world can ruin the self-confidence coursing through my veins at this moment in time (:
I don't have nudes to share lol I'm sorry for your loss? I can cognitively empathize and can still emotionally empathize but that is changing as I mentioned in my previous post.
psychopaths /= Narcissists, we can empathize very effectively. that is how we manipulate literally every single person we talk to lol how else do you think we are capable of this?