Awww Tony... this whole MGTOW thing makes me really sad 😕
As someone who (for slightly different reasons) has all but given up on dating and relationships, I totally get where you're coming from. But you're only in your 30s and in good health. I think when you're 60, or whenever it's reasonably too late to have the traditional happy ending with marriage and a family, you'll look back with real regret that you gave up so soon.
Thing is, your being lonely (which you obviously are, don't deny it) and unable to find anyone who meets your standards is a problem that's perfectly solvable, but you're choosing not to solve it.
My auntie died a couple years ago. She was a lovely lady, but always had so. many. problems... Finances, relationships, her health problems, her cat's health problems, stuff going wrong with her house.. "it's just everything all at once" was one of her favourite expressions. All fixable stuff, but if you dared to suggest a logical solution to any of it she'd get irrationally angry. She once put the phone down on me for suggesting the name of a carpet fitter after she'd been complaining she couldn't find anyone to fit a carpet! She didn't really want a solution to any of it, she just wanted somebody to say "oooh poor you, life has been so tough on you!"
This is how you're being with relationships. You want to be admired for your 'philosophy' and pitied for how tough modern life is for a guy like you. You don't even want to find someone at this point, because if you end up alone it proves you were right. You're cutting off your nose to spite your face.