Lush stated: source post
on top of all this, ed has managed to simultaneously use the weakest and most transparent defenses to rationalize the fact that everyone here seems to agree he was wrong. luna's smash 'h8rz gonna h8', tony's classic 'groupthink' and xena's batshit 'they are all working together to troll me'.
ladies and gentlemen we are seeing a broken man here.
Ed right now:
LolCow stated: source post
i feel for you blanc what they did was wrong but
why did you make this thread?
why are you still here?
Because this website distracts me the way I need it to.
I made this thread because I was angry.
haart stated: source post
blanc, I don't mean to be rude, but I can live with it...
I was being straight up interrogated in chat.
This has happened almost every time you've decided to share a part of your story. Why continue? Most children only touch the stove once, y'see my confusion? This is partly where the idea that you're trolling comes into play. It seems like you're a glutton for negative attention.
When I tried to talk about it matter of fact, I was told I was being too -- emotionless -- and not providing enough details.
"Emotionless" has literally never been said about you. The criticism was that, as Alena pointed out, you presented the story in click-bait-like chunks.
Another point, while we're here, I never did hear your comment about the Tumblr girl you stole your pictures from. If you could clear that up, I'd be much more inclined to view you as genuine.
I don't go out of my way to talk about it anymore, but every now and then people will ask me questions. The conversation started out as simple yes or no answers and I figured I could handle that. It just went downhill from there. I've backed away from the topic since this last conversation because I've realized I'm not yet able to handle it.
When I first came to this site I did originally enjoy the joking around that's done about me and others. That's just how I get along. Laughing at myself and letting others put me down is how I'm most comfortable.
I was talking about it in a "building up" format because whoever was asking me questions wanted to know every detail of what lead up to a certain moment. They wanted the question answered in that format and they wanted the full story.
I started out on this website as someone else because I didn't want anyone to know who I was.
Anal Thrusters stated: source post
We really were trying to help blanc. We were talking about therapy and asking her to share so that we can better understand. We've been talking to her. And that night there was a mutual feeling of being trolled when she told her story, she said she was having a panic attack "but anyways let me finish the story" and began to type it off like she was reading a play.
I don't know why you feel like it was reading like a play, perhaps you struggle with trust?
When someone was asking me specific questions about the abuse I experienced I began to dissociate. This triggered the beginning feelings of a panic attack. I figured if I could finish the story, that it would calm my panicked feeling but the conversation just worsened.
Lush stated: source post
i have also told her this, about her talking about her dead mom in pubs and how it feeds trolls..so if her intention really was to avoid being interrogated or mocked she wouldn't continue to do it.
Around July I was talking about it a lot because it's the month she died. I just couldn't put it out of my mind. Other people often bring it up in a crass way, as a way to get me stirred up which I will shut down immediately. Since I've seen people using it as joke material too frequently I've decided to stop talking about it all together. Also if it's not already on my mind, I don't want to open that box of worms so I will tell people to stop talking about it. I understand where you can see this contrast of me talking about it, and then shutting people down when they talk about it is confusing, but I hope what I have explained now clears all of that up.
However, in this chat I wasn't talking about my mom at all, I was talking about my first therapy session, which happened when my mom was still alive, by the way. So it's totally irrelevant. My mother wasn't brought up until the latter portion of the discussion when everyone was laughing at me.
I hadn't experienced much trouble with interrogation before, and had never seen a conversation blow up in my face quite like this. How would I be cautious about something I didn't even know was going to happen? I figured I was being asked questions that I would provide answers to, and everything would go fine. I had experiences of talking to sugar and dani about deep shit before and wasn't interrogated, so I thought it would go something like that.
i also took the time to give her advise (as well as alena) when we were talking about how childhood issues can affect you as an adult. i didn't however, feel the need to express this to the pig headed narc monster..but there is more to it than blanc telling a dodgy story and everyone just laughing at her. lol.They laughed in my face because they didn't believe anything that happened was real. The reason I may come off as self centered is because I struggle with relating to others properly and my method of doing so is by sharing my own experiences, thoughts, and perspectives on things, in hopes they will share theirs too. I didn't realize anyone really cared about being polite on this forum, but if I need to ask, "and you?" after I say things I will. It just seems like being polite and politically correct isn't really necessary here, and that's one of the things I liked about SC.
blanc: edvard hey guys what
blanc: guesswhat
Edvard: ?
blanc: guess
Edvard: you are partly trolling?
blanc: YOU'RE A GENIUS gives edvard a sticker
Edvard: I knew it
Edvard: :D
^This conversation is out of context. I decided to call everyone in chat a genius for fun, it's my joking way of telling everyone to stop taking themselves so seriously. Tryp and a few others were there and they can confirm it for you that I said to each person, "Lush you're a genius! Alena you're a genius! Tryp you're a genius!" And then I began to quote Oprah, "And you get a car! And you get a car! Everyone gets a free car!" because I was being completely facetious. When Edvard showed up in the conversation I decided to tell him he was a genius too, I wasn't saying he was a genius in reference to his trolling question.
blanc stated: source post
Anal Thrusters stated: source post
We really were trying to help blanc. We were talking about therapy and asking her to share so that we can better understand. We've been talking to her. And that night there was a mutual feeling of being trolled when she told her story, she said she was having a panic attack "but anyways let me finish the story" and began to type it off like she was reading a play.
I don't know why you feel like it was reading like a play, perhaps you struggle with trust?
When someone was asking me specific questions about the abuse I experienced I began to dissociate. This triggered the beginning feelings of a panic attack. I figured if I could finish the story, that it would calm my panicked feeling but the conversation just worsened.
Lush stated: source post
i have also told her this, about her talking about her dead mom in pubs and how it feeds trolls..so if her intention really was to avoid being interrogated or mocked she wouldn't continue to do it.
Around July I was talking about it a lot because it's the month she died. I just couldn't put it out of my mind. Other people often bring it up in a crass way, as a way to get me stirred up which I will shut down immediately. Since I've seen people using it as joke material too frequently I've decided to stop talking about it all together. Also if it's not already on my mind, I don't want to open that box of worms so I will tell people to stop talking about it. I understand where you can see this contrast of me talking about it, and then shutting people down when they talk about it is confusing, but I hope what I have explained now clears all of that up.
However, in this chat I wasn't talking about my mom at all, I was talking about my first therapy session, which happened when my mom was still alive, by the way. So it's totally irrelevant. My mother wasn't brought up until the latter portion of the discussion when everyone was laughing at me.
I hadn't experienced much trouble with interrogation before, and had never seen a conversation blow up in my face quite like this. How would I be cautious about something I didn't even know was going to happen? I figured I was being asked questions that I would provide answers to, and everything would go fine. I had experiences of talking to sugar and dani about deep shit before and wasn't interrogated, so I thought it would go something like that.
i also took the time to give her advise (as well as alena) when we were talking about how childhood issues can affect you as an adult. i didn't however, feel the need to express this to the pig headed narc monster..but there is more to it than blanc telling a dodgy story and everyone just laughing at her. lol.They laughed in my face because they didn't believe anything that happened was real. The reason I may come off as self centered is because I struggle with relating to others properly and my method of doing so is by sharing my own experiences, thoughts, and perspectives on things, in hopes they will share theirs too. I didn't realize anyone really cared about being polite on this forum, but if I need to ask, "and you?" after I say things I will. It just seems like being polite and politically correct isn't really necessary here, and that's one of the things I liked about SC.
Well blanc, first off I am glad you're sticking around. Secondly, too bad you weren't the one in those hot lesbian couple pics haha but I will imagine you as the short haired girl anyway
Your stories and the way you talk sound genuine to me, and taking all this crap for speaking my mind in this thread was definitely worth it. Will gladly do it again. Don't hold it against people here for not believing you though, you know we get our trolls and bullshitters. It is hard to distinguish sometimes, and many people here are already glitchy in how they perceive reality and how they read people, due to their own mental issues and past experiences. Sugar for example has admitted to being slightly autistic:
Sugar stated: source post
yes i do have a hard time and i'm also slightly autistic so i usually need concrete examples to answer relative questions. they will and have fallen apart without me at home, i really can't afford to indulge at the cost of seeing people try to destroy each other. at work, quality and resourcefulness tend to go down without me (i've noticed when i've been promoted, how things i used to deal with have gone downhill) not to the point of disaster, but a substantial amount.
Edvard stated: source post
The Anti Ed Coalition stated: source post
Edvard stated: source post
you will give out anyone's information in order to bolster your position here..
What a fucking liar you are, Sugar.
So... no concrete examples?
Afraid she only could come up with 2: Tony's info, which was already public, and an email from years gone Piless, which I only shared with her, in private. So yeah, good observation you made.
this is simply not true eddie. i mean i know you are leaving out the stuff which is still unknown to the rest of the forum so fair enough, i won't use that against you. but people already know how you told me about raven's wedding night, about what rass said behind my back in PM (claiming i was bullying her lol) about how you sent me a pic of piles..and my point was..you didn't even share the info in a fit of rage..this is just what kinda person you are. a controlling gossip. look how incensed you became at the fact that people now know you're not to be trusted? making out that i'm leading some manipulative smear campaign against you lmao
Spatial Mind stated: source post
I can always see when he programs people, and he does it a lot. He even came out saying how this community has group mentalities.
Now I see him programming blanc again like he did before, with the "Oh look what I did for you, I'm sticking up, and look how nice I'm being ( you'll owe me ))
nail on the head
Raven wedding night, lmao? Way to blow it out of proportion. I made a single reference about it and you were begging me for more..which you didn't get. I already discussed this with Raven anyway. Piles had shared her pic before in public.
The Rass thing was like this: I was trying to get you two stop fighting, especially YOU sugar, to not attack her anymore, so I pasted to Rass a line where you said "I like Rass" and to you some lines of how Rass perceived your bullying in an effort to make you see her point of view. I wasn't trying to make you two fight, you fucking autistic shrew. Right after this, you went into PUBLIC CHAT and pasted some lines from Rass for her to see, in your typical manner of involving me to get a one up over other women here, or get me in trouble with those women. That incident, if anything, betrays YOUR inability to keep your mouth shut. After that, you were all: "Oh I am sorry eddie, I couldn't help myself."
You have pasted me in private pms from so many people it's amazing you dare to pick on that.
Using these things I trusted you with in private to prove how unreliable I am is also amazing on its own, lmao. They went public because of you.