i have feeling but it feels like most if it is just buried deepish
I rarely feel anything
the most frequent times i do feel emotions they are a fast stream of shallow emotions
at rare times i feel deep emotions and they always have a clear and direct cause
sometimes i feel uneasy due a situation i had not planned that occurred, or if i lack experience in the situation, but this only happens while the situation unfolds, not before or after. And its rather shallow and fast to go away.
I'm pretty sure my emotions are legit the majority of the time. When I first moved last year I had to thaw out from extreme dissociation, and some emotions I didn't even know I had came flooding out. I don't think I've ever been so happy in my life to know they were in there.
I started feeling sympathy where I wouldn't have in previous years and now I'm even experiencing emotional empathy occasionally, when I could have sworn that I was only capable of cognitive.
It's been good for me to reconnect with this side of me, and I'm learning that I'm a lot more emotionally mature than I gave myself credit for.
I do feel things deeply depending on person, place, or thing. So I don't think I could put that up on a time table. When I was a child I felt things deeply all of the time. Everything was intense and overwhelming, and such a big deal. As you recall me telling you I'm sure, that I felt empathy for inanimate objects. Food, dishes, furniture, pencil erasers, etc.
I imagine a lot of that shut down for the sake of my survival. Now that I'm not having to survive in the same way, some things I thought were broken forever are beginning to come back to me. Not the empathy for inanimate objects of course, but proper emotional empathy just the same.