I watch people when I'm out (which is rare in itself), but I don't find myself in anyway jealous or nostalgic over the "lassaiz-faire" manner in which the majority of people in society swim around in. I usually either find amusement or feel a little scorn over how they seem to be living at what looks like a superficial level. I'm fairly confident the burden of thoughts I walk around with is unlikely to be anyone else's on average, so this surrounding societal flow is something I often grow bored of and dismissed a lot as irrelevant or unmeaningful. It may be as much my responsibility as I feel it's theirs that these things become integrated. I'm still working on it, but feel I'll never reconcile this dissociative paradigm with the one at large. I'm ok with it most of the time, though. Pretty much part of what being schizoid/schizotypal is about, I guess.
Nyarlathotep stated: source post
Do you find when you observe people interacting naturally, with innate emotional responses from a healthy development, that it seems like a pleasant place to be?
I do. I get a little envious. They are lying and controlling like a top scorer but somehow seem safe and comfortable.
I have some recollection of who i was before i changed. Maybe it's not envy but jealousy.
I look at those interactions and think "Wow, that seems nice. It's bullshit but it really seems nice"
I'd be willing to buy that lie. If i could.
When i watch people i usually note their patterns: clothing, the way they walk, to who and how they respond. But i don't do it as often as i used to. Most of the time(when i am out or in a situation where i can do this) i don't really watch random people. I am much more interested in those that i interact with.
I have never felt envy or jealousy in my life.
I think people do feel nice and enjoy talking. I do not understand it and feel nothing. I only like talking to people who i have gotten to like, but never to just random people. I like to know more about the people i like, this is why i enjoy it.
hdiver stated: source post
Typically I go about my business unaware of others feelings.
But when I do watch people, im checkin out the ladies.
Pretty much
JimSavage stated: source post
I rarely get jelly but when I do it's bad. For example when I see a mother hug her child or coo it with loving words it makes me depressed that I missed that. And I'm sure someone out there feels schadenfreude reading this because I played and discarded em lel. What I don't feel jealous about are relationship behavior and what goes in my mind instead is "That poor faggot thinks she really loves him and wants to spend time forever time with him, she's playing such a good act lol" generally contemptuous.
LOL