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Typically I go about my business unaware of others feelings.

But when I do watch people, im checkin out the ladies.

Nyarlathotep stated: source post

Do you find when you observe people interacting naturally, with innate emotional responses from a healthy development, that it seems like a pleasant place to be?

Ugh I do not tend to watch people. I feel creepy watching people. I had to do it once for an anthropology experiment it felt weird.

I do. I get a little envious. They are lying and controlling like a top scorer but somehow seem safe and comfortable.

Hmmm big assumption to say they are all lying.

 

I have some recollection of who i was before i changed. Maybe it's not envy but jealousy.

 

I look at those interactions and think "Wow, that seems nice. It's bullshit but it really seems nice"

Well I think they're true. I mean why would anyone wanna waste their time being fake. I mean by this point there is no point trying to be special or different. It is best to be your best. I am not saying people do not change. I believe personalities are fluid and change. 

Acting is different from changing and developing as a person. Developing is legit and comes from the person.

 

I'd be willing to buy that lie. If i could.

Well why not think about the odds more and hold on to that chance it is real. I mean in a world of seven billion people not everyone is gonna lie all the time.

Yeah, that's gratis, H.

I have a macabre fascination with others.

I wouldn't say i look to interact with the sensation in said circumstance.

I prefer to ignore others.

But i have noticed others in that situation.

Rarely, but it has stood out when i have.

It just seems...nice.

And i get a little jelly.

I rarely get jelly but when I do it's bad. For example when I see a mother hug her child or coo it with loving words it makes me depressed that I missed that. And I'm sure someone out there feels schadenfreude reading this because I played and discarded em lel. What I don't feel jealous about are relationship behavior and what goes in my mind instead is "That poor faggot thinks she really loves him and wants to spend time forever time with him, she's playing such a good act lol" generally contemptuous.

I guess I get a bit jealous when I find friends who have chill parents. I had a friend who told me he tried to ask his mom if he could borrow the car. In response his mother said he should not ask her and he should just take it. I mean he asked because he was trying to drive her car.

#ParentGoals

I guess I get jealous when someone super ugly and who does not strive for much gets a boyfriend. I only get booty calls that I ignore. I mean like the person is so fat that they take up two seats. I mean they are taking courses like waiting tables class. 

#Ugh

"I rarely get jelly but when I do it's bad. For example when I see a mother hug her child or coo it with loving words it makes me depressed that I missed that. "

Next mother that hugs their child in front of you is getting clapped on sight and thats off top. gang.

When I see moments like that, I tend to empathize and feel a sliver of that joy they're feeling. Memories of my past where I experienced a similar moment hit me as well as thoughts of when I'll have it again in the future. When I see a dad out playing with his baby boy/girl, I think of the good times I'll have with my future son/daughter. 

Another pleasant feeling comes from just seeing a relief from the negative traits that are commonly shown in everyday people.

o7 to that.

In college when I get in a class I don't know anyone, and the class is brand new like, everyone does not know each other, in no time I can see that they start talking random stupid not important stuff just to throw conversation away.. I am not like that. I find it dumb and numb. I preffer to ignore and stay on my own. I just pop to talk, when it's like 2 or 3 at max so I can have more control during talk and direct them to topics I know more and are interesting to me. But as soon as it goes to something I don't care, I find a way to go grab a cup of water and don't go back.