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Most of the things I felt I could have done differently pass through my mind in high default mode network states. The thoughts come on rare occasion and sporadically, usually in the form of visions of actions. The visions are not accompanied by emotions—my attitude is along the lines of "what is done is done; learn (or don't), and move on."

That is not to say I do not experience regret. I would say I feel it far less than most others based on experience, and that the feeling itself fades quickly. During the feeling(?), I am self-critical, but not harsh. We are all prone to make mistakes. Those who have spoken to me at length know that I am quick to forgive or simply disregard most actions of others against me.

I don't often think about my past. The past has always seemed like a blur, and it was like that long before I ever had my first sip of alcohol. With context or concentration, I can bring up vivid memories. My semantic memory is good, but my autobiographical memory seems disjointed.

In a sort of parallel, the future seems nebulous to me. This is something I have been working on.

I imagine that private would be pissed, that you're still kicking yourself 20 years later for not being perfect

Those mistakes weren't yours, Vi. You certainly didn't fail.

They served just like you did. You walked with your brothers.

It ain't ever right losing someone who is your charge in any walk of life.

You knew those fine marines.

They gave you that. Keep it.

You walked with your brothers. All I could ever ask of a serving man.

Systematic stated: source post

I imagine that private would be pissed, that you're still kicking yourself 20 years later for not being perfect

Being the warrior I helped train him to be...he'd still be kicking my ass for getting him killed!  I didn't raise any bitches...

That said... he absolutely deserves his day every year on my calendar.  Semper Fidelis!

Very kind words... thank you.  All the more inspiration to make the other 363 days of every year amazing and profitable on at least one level of life.

That could be complete bull shit but there is something to be given to the power of positive thinking...

AIena stated: source post

I actually owe Tryp an apology for being a backstabbing piece of shit 

Well damn. 

      I think about what I’ve done, what I’ve wanted, and who I was. I think about what I’m doing, want I want, and who I will become. I think about what I will be doing, what I will want, who I will become.

      What have I done, wanted, and who I was? I was a pretty mean spirited child. I know even then I wanted to be improve and be nice. I would wish on stars that I would be good and kind. I have regrets that drive me to improve. It gives me a blueprint of what I need to top today.

      What am I doing, wanting and being? I want to improve so I take steps to move forward. It sometimes feels like one step forward and two steps back. I will not stop trying to better myself because there is no rest for the wicked. If the song was thought more about self improvement than making a living.

      What will I be doing, will want and who will I be? I just think about long term and short term goals and desires. I hate thinking about the future because I always feel I have none. I try to just focus on myself than the future.

      I try to remember life is short and that I or another might not even get tomorrow. It means I always pursue, apologize, try not to speak too harshly, compliment easily, and spend time with people. It might make a little impatient. I mean I treated every day of my last dog’s life as if it was his last. I did not have regret when he left because I gave without holding back. I want to cherish the time I have with anyone because it could always be cut short.

Odd MissC. I've found you in our limited interactions to be someone of value. I've not found you mean spirited.

Before the thing that changed me and made me perverse in my interactions with others. I was a genuinely kind and good natured child.

Now i am less capable of those sentiments.

Nyarlathotep stated: source post

Odd MissC.

I'm not sure if this is a typo or a confusion.

I've found you in our limited interactions to be someone of value. I've not found you mean spirited.

It means I have improved... 

Before the thing that changed me and made me perverse in my interactions with others. I was a genuinely kind and good natured child.

Now i am less capable of those sentiments.

I know there is no time like to present to pursue what you want. It is time to be the change you want to see. It is time to be the right person.

Hmmm