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Whom do I confide in? Well, youm of course. And English majors, no doubt. 

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As odd as it likely is to say this here, the person I confide in the most is my mother. Even though we often fight and we live miles apart, if things get bad she is the only one I show my true self to. She knows the most about the broken pieces inside me so I feel the safest with her. 

I do have a few closer friends that I also share "real" things with when the shit hits the fan. All of these people share the qualities of intelligence, empathy, loyalty and they are equally open with me. Also, they all have lives interesting and full enough that they do not require drama to fill them up. I generally avoid the drama makers like the plague. 

Nobody. There is not a single person who knows everything about me.

I had a few close friends years ago who knew more about me than the usual, but I split the details up among them.

That's smthg I've always done, bc I like to know which asshole blabbed if any of my semi-secrets leaks.

It's hilariously ironic that a bunch of assholes on a forum for psychos know more about me than my closest friends and family. I'm usually not so open about my mother's illness or the fact that I was homeless at 14, for obvious reasons.

I guess you could say my street dad is the person I trust with my secrets more than anybody else. I don't see him much any more, but we still talk once in awhile. He's never blabbed. And that's all. It's no more complicated than that. I'm not drawn to a specific 'type' of person and more likely to trust that 'type' The people I trust more are simply the people with whom I have years of history, who I've had years to test, who have always proven themselves trustworthy.

I wish there was some magic formula to determine 'trust at first sight'

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As for people I don't trust: that would be everybody, especially people who want sex or money from me. Which is just about everybody who looks out of their own little personal bubble to even acknowledge my existence.

It's true. Salespeople approach me when I'm walking down the street minding my own business. And horny creeps.

Other than that, the vast majority of people I walk by every day ignore me completely, which is exactly how I like it.

I confide in you.

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Nobody. There is not a single person who knows everything about me.

I had a few close friends years ago who knew more about me than the usual, but I split the details up among them

I tend to do this too but it's not super conscious. It's just certain people I share certain aspects of myself with cause it fits with them. I like that no one really has a complete picture of me. 

It's hilariously ironic that a bunch of assholes on a forum for psychos know more about me than my closest friends and family. I'm usually not so open about my mother's illness or the fact that I was homeless at 14, for obvious reason.

So do you feel people would be more likely to judge you versus admire you for what you overcame? 

I guess you could say my street dad is the person I trust with my secrets more than anybody else. I don't see him much any more, but we still talk once in awhile. He's never blabbed.

Do you think he feels like a father figure to you as well?

I wish there was some magic formula to determine 'trust at first sight'

Maybe it comes down to acceptance. If we finally accept our past and ourselves it won't matter if our 'secrets' are leaked to anyone else. 

"So do you feel people would be more likely to judge you versus admire you for what you overcame? "

Yup. I know it for a fact. People lose their shit over homelessness, even if the former homeless person has been housed for years or decades. They make retarded assumptions about why the brush with homelessness occurred, and use those stereotypes as excuses to attack and make every attempt to exploit the person. Even if a person seems somewhat progressive in their views about poverty, I usually don't bother anymore bc I just get tired of answering the same stupid questions about the same stupid stereotypes 8000 times.

I guess you could say my street dad is the person I trust with my secrets more than anybody else. I don't see him much any more, but we still talk once in awhile. He's never blabbed.

Do you think he feels like a father figure to you as well?

I wish there was some magic formula to determine 'trust at first sight'

Maybe it comes down to acceptance. If we finally accept our past and ourselves it won't matter if our 'secrets' are leaked to anyone else. 

Nope. I'm 100% fine with the person I used to be, the person I've become, and all of the excruciating inbetween steps it took to get me here.. I'm interesting, well rounded, funny and a helluva debater. I have skills and talents, smthg of value to contribute to society.

I find that when my secrets leak, there's always somebody who will try to use it to get me fired from my job or kicked out of my house. Or they call CPS. That's just what people believe ought to happen to homeless/ formerly homeless people.

It's not bc of anything I actually did. It's bc people believe that homelessness is a result of some deep and irrepairable character flaw that might contaminate them somehow. I've argued till I was literally red in the face. Nobody cares. The rhetoric and stereotypes are more compelling than the fact standing right in front of them.

So I keep that part of my past to myself.

"Do you think he feels like a father figure to you as well?"

Yes. I still call him dad, even tho I didn't meet him till I was 18.

I suffered from severe paranoia after making the reply, thus I deleted it prior posting.