blanc stated: source post
Do you experience this problem too? I lack the ability to be genuine. I used to think it came from other things like fear of rejection or insecurity in general. But I recall now (it took me several years to be able to remember this) that during a time of abuse in my life I would doodle in a journal and I remember writing, "I don't know who I am" quite a few times. I also remember after it was over, I would look in the mirror and struggle with recognizing it as myself.
Due to this intense dissociation and issues with memory lapses, as well as being sort of tormented with depression and other things it's very confusing to try to recognize who my truest self is. I feel like I don't really have one.
Perhaps my truest self is the part of me who questions my own identity? No. That would be over simplified.
What's the purpose of this thread? What were you aiming to achieve with it and why.
Edvard stated: source post
blanc stated: source post
Do you experience this problem too? I lack the ability to be genuine. I used to think it came from other things like fear of rejection or insecurity in general. But I recall now (it took me several years to be able to remember this) that during a time of abuse in my life I would doodle in a journal and I remember writing, "I don't know who I am" quite a few times. I also remember after it was over, I would look in the mirror and struggle with recognizing it as myself.
Due to this intense dissociation and issues with memory lapses, as well as being sort of tormented with depression and other things it's very confusing to try to recognize who my truest self is. I feel like I don't really have one.
Perhaps my truest self is the part of me who questions my own identity? No. That would be over simplified.
What's the purpose of this thread? What were you aiming to achieve with it and why.
>>Do you experience this problem too?
-dissociation
-inability to be genuine with yourself or others
-inability to recognize a truest self or consistent personality
I wasn't totally sober when I posted this, my bad. I'll try to post less drunk ramblings.
I was more looking for intellectual conversation than advice.
But yeah, I was drunk when I started making things unnecessarily complicated. I know in retrospect it doesn't fucking matter. I'll "just be" no worries, that's what I'm doing anyhow.
edit: the way you think, and your actions however, do matter according to neuropsychology.
blanc stated: source post
edit: the way you think, and your actions however, do matter according to neuropsychology.
No shit.....that just can't be!...who is selling that line of shit?
Like you type shit, I type shit and it's all spontaneous bullshit,...fking hell! who'd have thought it possible...lol...
Wonder how many people would have action corrective mechanisms evolve if every time the spontaneous bullshit was met with a a crowbar to the base of the skull?
Would be a fun experiment...
It's a very important fact of life and I didn't want to leave it out. Someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning!
That would be an idiotic experiment (and more or less spontaneous bull shit in and of itself). Anger isn't really useful in conversations with people like me. I'll just use it against you so prepare yourself accordingly next time you threaten me with your petty little crowbar shit fits.
