I should clarify it's not about the devil and angel on the shoulder type thing... It is not inner voices telling me wrong from right. It is inner voices telling me the best from worst outcomes.
It's constantly evolving. At one point I was totally apathetic while still critically thinking exclusively on my job because it was the only thing there, mentally. It was so quiet and empty other than the space filled by work. So I just worked more and more, taking more and more challenges so at least I felt something until I was working 50+ hours a week in a high stress environment. I miss it but I will probably go back into that field only now with more knowledge as to how I handled myself and with the ability to set boundaries. Once that apathy broke after leaving that job everything became loud and disorganized, the critical thinking never stopped so the focus became myself and I was truly surprised at how my internal self missed the stimulation of constant challenge. It would be nice to not have such an active mind searching for more information to add to an already crowded room or constantly analyze everything and everyone around me.
That's pretty interesting. It's like the exact opposite for me. The processing and internal state is relatively stable and minimal for me, while I alter my external presentation to suite the environment. Both are largely fueled by environmental stimulus, but more so the external as interactions with environment occur to serve basic needs, as learning tools, and more recently, to encourage or induce specific internal states.
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I can relate to the multiple aspects.
There's two aspects of myself really when I actually focus on it. Subconsciously I talk to myself quite a bit and use terms like "we" and "us" whenever Im thinking something out. The two voices carry different viewpoints but want the same thing. They're the central pillars of my character and with how much I've spent trying to understand them I've been able to say one stands for passion, the other is structure. Whenever I imagined these voices would look like they both are entirely 2 different colors. Structure green and passion blue.
It's interesting you chose the color green to represent structure. It is because your DNA is built upon a structure that is actually green. The primordial soup that all life evolved from approximately 4.6bya was green. The green color of that soup can be attributed to the vast amounts of chlorophyll residing in the earth's atmosphere, which was omitted originally as a toxic gas from the only existing vegetable in the universe at the time, broccoli. Broccoli is the reason we exist.