Damage in the aspect that my mind wouldn't think correctly and negative behavior would be a side-affect. Going from somebody with an attitude that fights, to somebody who just cant be bothered is a pretty drastic change.
It can be matter of episodes, or the lifestyle as a whole. I have been inactive for a bit due to constant 20hr work days, I've been getting little sleep and food through this time. It's a good example of a source and anxiety and stress.
Other sourced of stress come with regular interactions with leadership, field day, personal life, etc. One at a time it's manageable, but put together it becomes overwhelming
I'm trying to focus on me, trying to stay positive. To help grunt through the home stretch of part of my problem, tomorrow I'll smoke some bud, Friday I'll trip on shrooms, Saturday and Sunday I have a few sluts I'm going to go bang. Maybe just go party my ass off.
I've learned that a loss of control is a source of many of my issues, So I'm going to go do something for me, I will gain some level of control to get myself floating again.