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 8:50 Tryptamine: What is the most sadistic thing that's happened to you sexually?

8:50 Synthetic: So it's interesting.

8:50 Turncoat: Sadistic with or without concent?

8:50 Turncoat: consent

8:50 Tryptamine: Either, the number 1 in your book

8:51 Turncoat: ...being raped. <_<;

8:51 Synthetic: Well this just got deep.

8:51 Turncoat: XD

8:51 retsiger: you got raped?

8:51 Turncoat: I'm over it.

8:51 Turncoat: So I can talk about it.

8:51 Tryptamine: I am curious about what happened from your perspective as a masochist, that sounds slightly serious though lol

8:51 retsiger: how did that happen?

8:51 Turncoat: Crazy stalker type met me the first week of college.

8:51 Turncoat: Overweight, sweaty, gross monstrosity.8:52 Tryptamine: Omg

8:52 Turncoat: Wore this clay mask of sorts, could always smell it.

8:52 Turncoat: She was also highly delusional and narcissistic.

8:52 Tryptamine: Holy shit

8:52 Turncoat: Couldn't comprehend that I didn't want it.

8:52 Turncoat: It was years after her and I knowing eachother.

8:52 bump: lol

8:52 retsiger: yeah, nobody would turn down such a nice lady

8:53 Turncoat: She was a mess of emotions, and was kicked out of the group for it and re-added often.

8:53 Synthetic: Haha.

8:53 bump: This is good...

8:53 Tryptamine: This woman raped you?

8:53 Turncoat: She tried to organize backstabbing and all that so that she could have me to herself.

8:53 bump: I' have you squirm and beg me to stop, TC

8:53 Turncoat: Be the "only friend left".8:53 bump: I'd ignore you, of course8:53 Tryptamine: Eww

8:53 Turncoat: I was the only one who noticed.

8:55 Turncoat: She was going behind my back and spreading information about me to other people so that I could not succeed relationship-wise.

8:56 Turncoat: She was remarkably good at making people believe poison.

8:56 Tryptamine: She sounds like a really sad person

8:56 Turncoat: I landed who I did only because she moved fast.

8:56 Turncoat: The hutt creature could not spread information in time.

8:57 Synthetic: Hahaha. What was she saying?

8:57 Turncoat: Tried to make me out as this horrible person, which with my reduced emotions and dry deliveries was believable for some people apparently.

8:57 Turncoat: She was so pathetic that people trusted her out of pity.

8:58 Turncoat: It was weird.

8:58 Turncoat: She made ugly into a tool of control.

8:58 Synthetic: Haha.

8:58 Tryptamine: Because everyone thought she was such shit she was sincere

8:58 Turncoat: No really, it sounds funny, but I never saw it work that well.

8:58 Turncoat: It was a mix of that and introducing ideas to poison their future thoughts.

8:58 Turncoat: After the first few I began mapping it

8:58 Turncoat: But people looked at me like I was crazy.

8:58 Turncoat: Anyway

8:59 Turncoat: Was dating the fast one, naturally the blob monster managed to worm her way toward her since she was in my group of friends.

8:59 Tryptamine: lol8:59 Turncoat: When I'd have to work on projects overnight8:59 Turncoat: She'd work her words into her head.

8:59 Turncoat: And I'd have to return and dispel it.

9:00 Turncoat: Eventually I grew stressed and that was how it ended.

9:00 Mika: Turn :)

9:00 Turncoat: Just like she planned.

9:00 Mika: Long time you've been active

9:00 Turncoat: Now, I was dating a nymphomaniac.

9:00 Turncoat: Going cold turkey after being broken into those patterns?

9:00 Tryptamine: She took advantage?

9:00 Turncoat: It made me into a weird shaky mess.

9:01 Turncoat: I kept the door locked and tried to work it out of my system.

9:01 Turncoat: But you know, friends were allowed in.

9:01 Turncoat: So she would walk in with others.

9:01 Turncoat: There was a time that the others left to play some "Magic the Gathering".

9:01 Turncoat: And I was not in the mood.

9:01 Tryptamine: lol

9:01 Turncoat: So they left and she stayed behind.

9:02 Turncoat: ...I was both as I described earlier and pain can make me docile.

9:02 Turncoat: I have since then learned how to flinch out of it

9:02 Turncoat: But at the time I was blindsighted, literally, my eyes we

9:12 Turncoat: She had made my ex out to be this demon.

9:12 Turncoat: To the point that the breakup got me a free meal.

9:12 Tryptamine: She sounds like an attention grubby fatass who caught you at the wrong time

9:12 Turncoat: Oh no, she didn't catch.

9:12 Turncoat: She orchestrated and waited.

9:12 Turncoat: She was sickeningly smart but really fucked up.

9:13 Tryptamine: Still gross lol

9:13 Synthetic: Ha.

9:13 Turncoat: Eventually down the line I began to start conditioning myself out of it.

9:13 Turncoat: Forced myself to face the memories, the ideas, did not give myself a choice.

9:13 Turncoat: I went through the horror to forcibly jade myself to it.

9:13 Tryptamine: You don't think you wanted that at the time?

9:13 Turncoat: The nympho ex also began fucking me as a friend with benefits

9:14 Synthetic: Haha.

9:14 Turncoat: And that helped me resist the paralysis a bit more.

9:14 Synthetic: That sucks that you get paralyzed like that.9:14 Turncoat: Even my being like "I don't want this" was just... not remembered a few seconds later.

9:14 Turncoat: Or handwaved with creepy excuses.

9:14 Turncoat: ...or she'd just pretend she didn't hear it and push herself at me to prove "the connection" physically.

9:14 Tryptamine: Sex is a powerful thing

9:14 Turncoat: To give an idea, she lost her virginity to a drunken rape.

9:15 Turncoat: The one who took advantage of me.

9:15 Synthetic: You should have convinced her you used her for sex.

9:15 Turncoat: She'd have liked that.

9:15 Synthetic: Make her feel bad etc.

9:15 Tryptamine: lol

9:15 Turncoat: Because it still gives her recognition.

9:15 Tryptamine: That's really reaching for the crumbs

9:15 Turncoat: She was pretty gone in the head, the wrong sort of rolling w

9:09 Synthetic: I would have said

9:09 Synthetic: What are you still doing here you dumb slut?

9:09 Turncoat: I wasn't really able to talk.

9:09 Turncoat: She did all the talking.

9:10 Synthetic: I guess.

9:10 Turncoat: all of it.

9:10 Tryptamine: You were in a bad place

9:10 Tryptamine: What did you do to make amends?

9:10 Turncoat: She'd drag me into the Recycling area to fuck me in a small room, then, with her amazing ability to spread poison, she framed it as me being ashamed as opposed to a victim.

9:10 Turncoat: Roomie returned after the first few times

9:10 Turncoat: And I finally had the courage to say something.

9:10 Turncoat: He laughed.

9:10 Turncoat: It was out of nervousness

9:11 Turncoat: But during that time I was not rational

9:11 Tryptamine: Didn't know what to think of it

9:11 Turncoat: So I took it as being laughed at.

9:11 Turncoat: And kept it to myself for a while.

9:11 Turncoat: Which she then took even more advantage of.

9:11 Synthetic: That's when you tell her you just used her for sex and yeah you're ashamed so she should kill herself because nobody would want to be seen with her.

9:11 Turncoat: Anyway, eventually I made it back to my nympho ex

9:11 Tryptamine: She should kill herself lol

9:11 Turncoat: Told her.

9:11 Synthetic: Truth is irrelevant the point is to make her want to die.

9:11 Turncoat: She became outraged, but recognized how poisonous her information is.

9:12 Synthetic: Haha.

9:12 Turncoat: And how little she could actually do as influence.

9:12 Turncoat: She had made my ex out to be this demo

9:05 Tryptamine: If she wasn't disgusting that would be hot

9:05 Turncoat: So she'd do it out of desperation.

9:05 Turncoat: She just rode me, pressing my hips into the bed violently to the point that they were beyond sore.

9:05 Turncoat: Saying dark shit

9:06 Turncoat: Smelling of clay and sweat.

9:06 Tryptamine: Clay lol

9:06 Synthetic: Ew.

9:06 Tryptamine: How did you feel about it all

9:06 Turncoat: Eventually I came, which was actually scarier than the event.

9:06 Turncoat: At least during I was mostly blacked out, took a while to bring the memory back.

9:06 Turncoat: A lot of conditioning.

9:06 Turncoat: I came to after... I came, and she slumped off onto my bed sweaty and exhausted.

9:06 Tryptamine: That is an utterly bizarre sexual experience

 9:07 Turncoat: I fled to the bathroom in a sick stupor and vomitted into a stall.

9:07 Turncoat: Once that was done, I realized she would still be in my room.

9:08 Turncoat: I was in some fucked up mindset that was not logical, so instead of going to where they were playing Magic I just... went back to my room.

9:08 Synthetic: Ha.

9:08 Turncoat: And there she was, spreading a gross sweat stain on my sheets.

9:08 Synthetic: Did you get revenge?

9:08 Turncoat: Hahahaha oh man did I.

9:08 Synthetic: Haha what did you do?

9:08 Turncoat: But I had to become... myself again to do it.

9:08 Tryptamine: lol

9:08 Turncoat: Which took a while.

9:09 Turncoat: I was highly post traumatic, just blocking out her future attempts for my own sanity.

9:09 Tryptamine: Jesus

9:09 Turncoat: I had a lot of other shit going on and there was nowhere else to go, so I just blacked it out.

9:09 Synthetic: :(

9:09 Synthetic: I would have said

Pink01 (to Xena):
Because you're going on about videos that were made years ago.

Xena (to Pink01):
She's still whoring. I can prove that I'm no longer homeless just by talking to you on my skype acct.

She has yet to prove that she's not still taking it in her ass. Especially when she talks about her drug habit. I've never met an opiate addict who said they "only do a little" who was telling the truth. Addictions compel people to resort to nasty disease spreading behaviours.

I think she's still doing some vile things to pay for that drug habit. She certainly lies like the other junkie buttwhores I've met. Yes, I got away from them as quickly as I could. Ick. I don't want to be in the same room with a junkie buttwhore. They make up smthg like 60% of our HIV population.

Yeah I can google that statistic if you feel like arguing.

Pink01 (to Xena):
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0wUICZOpXyE

I'm not talking to you anymore.

Xena (to Pink01):
Good. Drop it then. I'd like to go back to chat and talk to luna or smthg.

Zach_31 (to Xena):
Why the fuck do you care so much what she does with her life?

Xena (to Zach_31):
Because you people keep staging these pile ons every time somebody asks me a question about her and I answer it.

I'm assuming somebody wants to be entertained if they're throwing out bait like this.

So are you dancing for the audience too, Zach? Or are you approaching all of this as if it actually means something?

Zach_31 (to Xena):
All I ever read from you now is bitching about macaria in some way even when others have not mentioned her. You definitely seem to have some sort of infatuation with her and its just weird.. 

Who gives a shit what she does for a living or anything sexual or whatever.. It's her life not yours so get over it. Maybe if you spent half the amount of effort as you do bitching about maca and focus that on you're own fucked up life things will get better for you or whatever.. You bitch about others ganging up on you well when you give shit out, expect shit back

Xena (to Zach_31):
Pink asked me about her on the last page and you're asking me about her now. I am taking care of my own life...

when I'm not answering these stupid troll threads that people keep posting in my absence.

How does having a home and the new job pink mentioned look like a fucked up life to you? More important, how the fuck did pink hear about my new job? And if you people know about it, then why do you keep asking me about the time in my life when I was poor, continuing to rant at me like I'm still not working?

When did you get so obsessed with this, Zach? When you moved to a forum where there's no off-topic thread to catch bullshit threads like this? If you're going to be here, you're going to have to expect that.

If you're giving me shit I'll give it right back to you, too.

Defend your position. What, besides responding to you looks so fucked up about my life?

Xena (to Zach_31):
I guess this argument's done for now. Good. It's past my bedtime and I'm not about to lose any sleep over this. Come and get me on Bridge Street if you actually think I'm there. lololol

Here's a song to keep you amused while I'm busy living my life for the next 2 or 3 days. Family time, you know.

[Posts Youtube Song Link]

Macaria:
How much of your waking life do you spend thinking about me xena? This thread wasn't even about me, and TA DA!!! You brought me up again. That's because it's all you have, which frankly, is just sad. I have nothing to prove to you and I dont intend to try, because GUESS WHAT you're no one to me but a psycho bitch who needs locking up. Find a new hobby, like sucking your baby dick you pupped up or something.

Btw, my favourite bit about being gone, was watching the 'mags' alt' paranoia you had going on. You never did find mine You are a complete retard if you thought I would be quite so obvious as 'snowdrops'. I have never trolled you xena, only reacted to your nut jobbery.

Snowdrops:

by Zach_31

How the fuck does someone like xena not have had her kids taken away from her yet?

"

 Xena has signed away her son's custody to her sister, to keep him from being taken away from her by the Child Protection services.

Here's one of the threads (there are more, just can't be arsed with searching): http://www.psychforums.com/antisocial-personality/topic102828.html#p993244  - and further.   Apparently it was a noisy dog behind the last homeless shelter episode, or some kitchen fire incident or something.

9:02 Turncoat: But at the time I was blindsighted, literally, my eyes were facing a TV Screen.

9:02 Tryptamine: So you just passively went along with what she wanted?

9:02 Turncoat: Heavy, nasty creature, grappled both shoulders into the bed.

9:02 Synthetic: Ew.

9:03 Turncoat: I was in my own room, so my protection was some hospital scrubs I used as pajamas.

9:03 Turncoat: So it was just a drawstring that offered protection.

9:03 Turncoat: Didn't last.

9:03 bump: :3

9:03 Turncoat: During all of this while in a weird paralyzed state of sorts, she began whispering dark stuff.

9:03 Tryptamine: Oh god lol

9:03 Synthetic: Like what?

9:04 Turncoat: "Look how much you like this, finally, what I've been waiting for, you're so easy"

9:04 Synthetic: Wow.

9:04 Tryptamine: Holy shit

9:04 Turncoat: When I would start regaining my senses she'd hit me.

9:04 bump: :33

9:04 Turncoat: Which would bring back the docile state.

9:04 Turncoat: She half-recognized that I'd snap out of it and ruin her fantasy

9:04 Turncoat: While also in denial, saying that it was consentual from both parties.

9:05 Mika: bump!

9:05 Mika: Where have you been? :O

9:05 Tryptamine: If she wasn't disgusti

thesugargirl (to Questioning_Life):
do you think she molested both her kids? or just the boy?

Questioning_Life:

by thesugargirl

do you think she molested both her kids? or just the boy?

"

 I have no idea if she molested one, both, or none.  I really don't care. What I do know is she's delusional and paranoid.

Pink01 (to thesugargirl):
I think accusing anyone of molesting a child is a horrible insult and not one I'm willing to dish out without proof...but I do think the way Xena has spoke of her sons masturbation habits is inappropriate. 

Dungeon Dave (to whoopdedoo):"
Thank you for the balanced and astute résumé of the events, Whoopdedoo, it's worth re-quoting. Yes, that is how the real-life story unfolded, going by Xena's own posts on pf. There was also that bit where she was actually planning to take up a job somewhere in the USA a few states southward, and planned to leave her son in her sister's care for a year or two. Obsidian questioned whether that was really a good idea.  (I think that was her first mention of "hooping" her cash up in her vagina for safekeeping while hitchhiking to the USA.) That plan got apparently scrapped due to the kitchen fire incident or something.

on second thoughts, that might have been not a bad idea. Her sister sounds the less crazy one out of the two.

bump (to Synthetic):
Lol...I have my ways. ;) Obsi's already been hunted down... I don't like 'easy' and I'm not a scavenger. Eddy's still my priority... he should not worry... Or should he? :P

thesugargirl (to Pink01):
just curious, what would constitute proof for you here?

Synthetic (to bump):
If I were him and you were you, I'd be worried.

Fortunately for Edvard he's half a foot taller and knows how to kick people in their boxes when needed.

thesugargirl (to Synthetic):
i doubt she approaches her targets and attempts to fight them.

bump (to thesugargirl):
Ed needs to be drugged first. After all his limbs are secured with strong restraints, I have little to worry about :3

9:20 Turncoat: I knew I was safe when others were around, so I was desperate for others to stay awake.

 9:20 Turncoat: This flunkie began taking Adderol to no longer need to sleep.

9:20 Synthetic: That honestly sounds like PTSD holy fuck.

9:20 Turncoat: So that she could continue with school and still follow my lack of resting patterns.

9:20 Turncoat: This made her crazier.

9:20 Turncoat: As now she stopped sleeping.

9:20 Turncoat: And was on uppers.

9:21 Turncoat: She'd try to run into my room before I could get there.

9:21 Tryptamine: Uhh

9:21 Turncoat: The doors had locks, but she proved she could pick it with a credit card.

9:21 Synthetic: What.

9:21 Tryptamine: What the fuck

9:21 Turncoat: She would also go through my shelves.

9:21 Turncoat: When I wasn't around or was sleeping.

9:21 Tryptamine: She really wanted the D

9:22 limey: haha

9:22 Synthetic: Haha.

9:22 Tryptamine: That is intense

9:22 Turncoat: So she took advantage, no one was willing to help...

9:22 Turncoat: Eventually she became pregnant.

9:22 limey: Tc sorry for my ignorance in advance but how do the parts work like that?

 9:22 Turncoat: An erection does not need to be willing.

9:22 Tryptamine: Not with your child I hope

9:22 Turncoat: Oh it was my seed.

9:23 Tryptamine: Omfg

9:23 limey: wtf?

9:23 Red: lol, read my thread about male rape :D

9:23 Synthetic: Haha wtf.

9:23 Turncoat: Yeah, it's scary shit.

9:23 limey: This is like a 4chan story

9:23 Turncoat: Think about it.

9:23 Synthetic: It really is.

9:23 Turncoat: When a woman is pregnant from rape

9:23 Tryptamine: No dude, I would lose my shit

9:23 Turncoat: They have evidence.

9:23 Tryptamine: I don't even know what I would do

9:23 Turncoat: When a man is pregnant from rape, everyone sides with the woman.

9:23 Tryptamine: To be honest9:23 Turncoat: Err9:23 Turncoat: When a woman is pregnant from man rape

9:23 Tryptamine: Right9:23 Tryptamine: What the fuck happened?

9:23 Turncoat: Not when a man pulls an Arnold Schwartzeneggar.

9:23 limey: So you have a child?

9:23 Turncoat: Thankfully no.

whoopdedoo:
Seems Xena was living with her sister at the time.  Sis had taken her and her son in to help them.  Xena seems less than grateful, always writing about her fat sister and their continual screaming matches.  Must be hard for a kid to live with two women screaming their heads off at each other all the time.  

Her sis had legal guardianship over X's son - that was a kind thing for her to do.  X said it kept him out of fostercare (when she lost custody of him).  How did X repay?  stealing her sis's credit card to buy a clit pump - lol- and probably lots of other ways she didn't share.  She didn't even pay rent - living free off her sis.   Jealous of her sis that she actually DID get a book published -  X keeps telling everyone she's on AsPD forums to 'research' for her own book -  ya, right.

X got kicked out of her sis's apartment because, in a fit of rage, she threw something that was on fire out the door.  It caught the wooden stairs/landing/deck on fire and burned it down.  Landlord had had enough and kicked X out.   That's when she went into weeks of wailing mood about how she was about to become homeless and would have to go on the run, living outdoors, taking her son with her (supposedly to protect him from Child Welfare in some way), didn't get her welfare checks so zero money, etc.

As far as her time in the shelter?   4 months is a long time when you're an adolescent boy, surrounded by homeless women, each with their own problems which brought them to homelessness.  Especially if your mother isn't looking for work, but rather trying to lose weight so that she can pole-dance, and oogling and scheming on all the young women there  --  X's lesbianism went full force in that women's shelter and all she wrote about during that time were her thoughts and actions towards the young, lithe girls there.  Talking about their bodies... wondering what they thought of her... vying for their attention...   If that's where your mother's head is at, when you're in a crazy homeless shelter,  I feel for that poor kid.

X, if you absolutely hate your mother (didn't even go to her funeral), and your sister (all you write is vile, insulting things about her), why did you let your kids be with them, and actually 'give' your son to your sister for a few years...   if they are as crazy as you say about them, I'd think your supposedly fierce mother-protection would protect them from your own family.  But no... you give them to your family.  

You are full of contradictions, don't really know what makes you tic,  and your life is chaos.  Utter chaos. 

bump:


This is Obsi himself, lol. Isn't he a cutsey? he looks like a little baby boy :3 <3

Synthetic:
How did you even get that you creepy girl?

Edvard is going to be either jealous or relieved you found someone else to stalk. I'll bet on the latter.

thesugargirl:
soft

Questioning_Life:

by bump

This is Obsi himself, lol. Isn't he a cutsey? he looks like a little baby boy :3 <3

"

 Yep that's Obsi. Not my type but definitely cute. Now, let's not try to deflect attention onto someone else. Xena has tried for so long to get attention and she's finally getting it. Let's stick with the program. Stay tuned............

Page four done. Character limits made me break my ten/post setup.