"why do we struggle with the desire for uniqueness?"
to see ourselves as special. Yes the new age bullshit does the same...However there's definitely something to it, I've been triggering bliss on the regular just by letting go and flowing with reality. I was doing a more fake self-triggering state of dreamy euphoria but this is better, almost mouth watering.
But I think I get psychos now, they had narc parents that treated them like they weren't real, instead an extension of their parents reality. So they learnt to compulsively prove their reality is real (and controllable) by causing effects on it, especially people. This gave them the skills to manipulate. Then for the same reasons they hate self-deception in others and in themselves and direct their death drive toward them. I could be wrong though, but think I'm right because I relate although not at its extreme.
I'm kind of deluding myself I'm a sociopath.... I definitely used to have this awareness others didn't but I fucked up and withdrew under the pretense I needed to understand perfectly (heh)... weed abuse fucked my reality and made me weak and even more addicted to grandiose fantasies than I was previously to cope with the lack of control. I have a tendency to take my control of beliefs to the extreme induce mania because its so fun, eventually crash, rinse repeat.
Anyway I've replaced patronizing new age bullshit with unwanted personal venting haha, Enjoy!
"And if oneness and unity is sought and eventually achieved, then the horror of infinite singularity would probably be reflexively inoculated against with self-imposed amnesia in order to recycle the same process over and over again."
This stuck out to me though, but I think more accurately its the narcissistic walls rebuilding and blocking, no? So your point is we need a level of narcissistic walls, and I agree. But too much is unhealthy and blinds you.
You don't seem particularly positive, though. And you're making a lot of definitive statements, do you not think your own comments apply to you albeit in a autistic rational sense.