Hellllloooooooooooooooo Whoameye!!
I sooo want to be your bubbameat ;)
You so manly, me so girly
"The interval for re-evaluation of psychiatric disability is typically every two years."
I've been on it for longer than two years. I've been on it since about 2009 I think and not once have I ever been re-evaluated.
"There is no way you don't know why you're receiving the pension."
I have a pretty good idea of why I'm receiving it.
here is the problem with your story repair. you are on disability. you say you claimed to have PTSD in order to get it. i made the point that you were therefore most likely diagnosed with that, which you strongly deny. so what were you diagnosed with? based on your own version of events it is most likely you were diagnosed with PTSD and unless you're willing to be honest about what the actual reason you receive disability welfare one can safely assume it was in fact PTSD. you don't get disability for being ASPD or schizoid lol. understand sweetie pig? i mean pie?
"Inability to remember important aspects of the trauma (considering there was no trauma, that one doesn't apply to me either way)"
is that so repair? then, care to explain this post you made on your first day at SW?
"I don't remember how she punished me, but let's just say my mother would hit you so much you didn't she was ever going to stop."
http://forum.2298483.n4.nabble.com/The-Darkness-Within-Intro-td4253204.html
this debunks both your comments regarding being able to remember your childhood and there being no trauma growing up, and illustrates TC's point perfectly regarding the accuracy of you recollection and your tendency to perhaps pick and choose what criteria fits with the disorder you want to present as.
is that so repair? then, care to explain this post you made on your first day at SW?
"I don't remember how she punished me, but let's just say my mother would hit you so much you didn't she was ever going to stop."
You're assuming that was traumatic, but I've never once indicated it was. It's just a memory.
physical abuse doesn't always have to be massively damaging but the 'not knowing if she was ever going to stop' part is what indicates trauma, fear and the potential for long term effects. you also admitted to being scared once when your mother was being beaten while you hid with your brother, again trauma is implicit here. also trauma is usually the foundation upon which your beloved ASPD develops so why are you so opposed to the idea of having suffered trauma in your life?
No, really, you sound more like you refuse that to be the case. You're boxing yourself into the preferable label instead of even venturing other areas of possibility.
Skepticism and outright denial of even the possibility tell entirely different stories.
"How can I not want something to be the case when I don't have it anyway"
That doesn't make any sense, and your proof for how it's not the case is dubious at best. You're picking and choosing what you want to be the case instead of venturing what could be the case that might have been overlooked. If I'd taken your approach I'd be far worse off personally.
In short, you're only showing us that you really don't want PTSD to be the answer, not that it isn't the case. Speaking as someone who has faced trauma and changed from it as well, this isn't mockery, it's wonder. With how you display yourself... that answer makes a lot of sense, and all you have left to deny it is willpower.