Lol! I do enjoy this.
Out of interest, Reap, do you consider yourself qualified (or, able, say) to analyse others? Specifically in this context.
I remember you accusing me of denial on more than one occasion. Was that equally bullshit, or do you have some sort of knack for - as I think you like to put it - "reading people"?
"Out of interest, Reap, do you consider yourself qualified (or, able, say) to analyse others? Specifically in this context."
I can analyse others and share my observations/opinions. That doesn't require any specific qualification.
"I remember you accusing me of denial on more than one occasion. Was that equally bullshit, or do you have some sort of knack for - as I think you like to put it - "reading people"?"
I don't remember what that was over. Sometimes I just say things to start a fight or get a reaction. That may be true in your case or it may not be.
Can I read people? Yes, I can. I read them by observing their body language, facial expressions and tone inflection in their voice. I can also read people by how they walk and what they wear.
"Turncoat, I made it very clear that I do not experience PTSD as indicated by the vast majority of symptoms that I lack."
...and I went out of my way to explain why your ideas are worth an ounce of doubt.
Does reason to doubt your social construct off-balance you?
"There is no denial because there is nothing to deny."
That's exactly what someone with denial would say.
"I'm done discussing this."
This reinforces the possibility further, showing a need for avoidance as opposed to confronting the problem directly. With people as "easy" as Carnage and Sugar, you bother making threats, but towards me you try to avoid the discussion.
Why is that?
"When I think of numb, I think of people who purposefully numb themselves in order to not feel anything - it's the numbing of emotions that existed."
It tends to be more automatic. Your description of "neutral" could fit the criteria if matched with other factors, especially if denial is at play.
[Symptoms Portion]
Typically for a disorder, you only need enough symptoms to be slapped with the label. Lets explore the realm of possibility:
- Intrusive, upsetting memories of the event
- Flashbacks (acting or feeling like the event is happening again)
- Nightmares (either of the event or other frightening things)
You could be repressing these, denying these, or for the sake of nightmares, forgetting them.
- Feelings of intense distress when reminded of the trauma
- Intense physical reactions to reminders of the event (e.g. pounding heart, rapid breathing, nausea, muscle tension, sweating)
- Avoiding activities, places, thoughts, or feelings that remind you of the trauma
Alexhithymia could be throwing you off course, as could the rationalization of denial. The "Avoidance" portion could be happening passively.
- Inability to remember important aspects of the trauma (considering there was no trauma, that one doesn't apply to me either way)
Memory Repression, I knew I was forgetting something obvious. This one is all sorts of mindfuck when it comes to unreliable narration.
- Loss of interest in activities and life in general
You seem like you could potentially be in this niche.
- Feeling emotionally numb
This as well.
- Sense of a limited future (you don’t expect to live a normal life span, get married, have a career)
Uh... are sure you don't fit this one TK?
- Difficulty falling or staying asleep
There could be something else accounting for this one's absence. Old age maybe?
- Hypervigilance (on constant “red alertâ€)
Many of your quotes put this one to question.
- Feeling jumpy and easily startled
I'd have to see you in real life to figure this one, but it wouldn't shock me.
"Sure... if I didn't lack the vast majority of symptoms that define PTSD."
That's what is being put to question. The potential for it to be denial makes it appealing.
"Even though I often experience boredom, my interests can alleviate the boredom temporarily. They just don't excite me enough to keep it alleviated. So, I tend to get bored very quickly and very easily. "
That could be your justification for the desperation that follows your loss of interest.
Perhaps such a complex could surpass the otherwise existing apathy?
"Misdiagnosis can happen to anyone."
That's precisely my point. You are just as open to it, and missing or misappropriated factors could be at work here.
If it can happen to me, it can happen to anyone.
"Neither of us are in a position to make that determination, especially not you considering you don't really know a lot about me and seem to find it hard to accept what it is you do know about me."
Option E again...
"I don't take codeine much anymore and I only drink alcohol about 2 or 3 days a week most of the time. Sometimes 4, but that's not often."
What inspired that change?
Here's the interpretation of sympathetic nervous system activation leading to bullying.
http://www.bmj.com/content/350/bmj.h2694/rr
so yeah, it's been at least half an hour since your post I'm replying to, this thread has gotten a few more views since then. TK nowhere to be seen even if she had plenty of time to view & reply to this thread by now. She's seemed to have logged in & out a lot too.