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Fair enough. I personally would hate that though. I want to know when I'm dying and be able to look back at all of my life.

haven't done yet. I misread the thread. 

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yet

That's something you didn't do, not something that you want to be able to say you did. 

When I'm about to die I hope to not notice that it's happening.

I don't need to be able to say that I did anything.

That I lived. 

So damned deep.

I want to say I had no regrets or learned from them and reached my full potential in life, establishing a solid link between me and the image of myself. Becoming it or proving I am it and it is me. 

What do I want to say I did? Established a prominent sense of identity

I've spent my life mostly being an observer. As much as I usually push the notion about living for yourself instead of others, it's rarely been about me beyond a vicarious means of enjoying others' experiences. I selfishly enjoy their moments for my own sense of stimulation, amusement, learning.

I don't even know what there is for me to look back on for the most part beyond measuring the impacts I've had on other people's lives that I've changed in some way and the data I've collected through others tales. There's joys in watching how others are, but little in looking towards myself.

i say i met a lot friends on this site and nice murders