It's so much fun, watching such an intelligent person go through something as stupid as puberty. : )
I actually have this domain name, I haven't made a site for it yet though
my mom dragged me out of my room this evening to come meditate with her, she spent forever telling me how to straighten my back to let the kundalini at the base of my spine flow through the astral channels up to my head, and to inhale love and happiness and exhale negative energy.then she prayed to god and to her guru to guide us in the meditation and to help expel any dark energy or negativity, and then i had to sit still for a full fifteen minutes, which was pretty much not happening, so i fidgeted a lot.
after that we got to talking, at first she was ranting nonstop and not letting me get a word in edgewise, so i stopped her and had us have our conversation in writing, since that's my preferred mode of communication for anything in depth. then we talked about a lot of things, like why i did things that i did, whether the choices we made were good ones or not, what my goals in life were, my depression, how to cure my depression, my suicidal and sometimes sadistic fantasies. i'm surprised i talked that much, especially to my mom, cause my relationship with her is basically nonexistent, we probably talked as much as we did during that conversation as we did during four months. i surprise myself sometimes with how far i'm willing to push my boundaries.
now i'm tired as fuck cause i got up at seven thirty this morning, but i can't sleep for some reason and i feel really fidgety.so i'm typing this instead of sleeping. woohoo.