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you sound like a beeper

you sound like a beeper

It's debatable, yeah. I don't meet the diagnostic criteria, but I have been told that by several people. People also have told me that I have narcissistic personality disorder and schizoid and some other stuff. I'm not really sure about all that. It's my psychopathic tendencies that are getting me in trouble in this situation, though.

I guess I'm asking just how to be genuine (i.e., not manipulate as a matter of habit) and pay more attention to the effects that my actions have on others' feelings when I don't do that naturally. Basically just how to behave in a better manner. I'm one of those who are just blatantly hateful and antisocial; I do not bother trying to hide the fact that I'm an evil bastard most of the time. I will take your shit and stab you for no reason when I'm drunk and stalk you/tell you I'm gonna kill you for kicking me out of the McDonald's you work at and laugh at your dead children, IDGAF.

Except I do give a fuck about someone, and I am trying to learn how to turn all that stuff off. Actually behave like a decent human being sometimes so that I can actually be reliable and trustworthy. But those are weird concepts to me... You know?

I'm (obviously)

Not really.

Quit being a bitch and control yourself.

good stuff...how did you become this way

Pretty sure I've always been like this? Or at least since I was very young. Been in anger management therapy since second grade. Was sent to a mental institution for plotting a school shooting at age 13.

yes,

i love my boyfriend,we've been together for 4 years

but after doing this horrible thing with the guy from my work i feel odd with him..

not so much of guilty but rather i feel a little ... ashamed ... that i would stoop so low just to get what i want...

i have cheated once before but that was revenge b.c he did it first...

but this time was different ...

i felt some type of weird connection with this other guy like....

i just wanted him all to me

i obsessed over him for weeks before making a move and the short, short time we had together was amazing..

he made me feel beautiful (already know it of course  but my boyfriend sure never says it) it was like a 180* from my boyfriend and i wanted it to last longer than it did

... but now that its over .. its weird.. im glad it happened, i wish to god i still had that bubbly feeling in my body of excitement and wonder.. but its over now

i love my boyfriend and i hope he never finds out for his sake ... b.c i know he loves me and one night stands are one thing but to have an affair is another...

idk what your tendencies are when it comes to your "patterens" but the best advice i could give on "altering psycho behaviors" ...

if you know its a pattern and youre smart, which most likely you are ... then just dont do the same thing ... when you are calm and not in the moment .. think about what you do when youre mad (the pattern)... and think ... how what normal people react... then do that

i just got up and left one time when i got pissed at my boyfriend thinking that would be better than fighting ... and he broke up with me for 3 days just to prove a point ... so idk

and btw im not going to punctuate for your sake ... im the type to take the easy road ... if this is not an essay for school and i dont know who you are idc if i look dumb to you .. aint worth my time sucking up to you ... you know im a sociopath. hahahah ... but i still want to help with the pycho shit.  

Bitch youvstole my quote name... 

Damn, I have a thing for cheating little sluts. Wish I was there so you could extract my cream to decorate your boyfriends birthday cake with ;)