Lol I should google sexy priest more often!
not really. i think it has a lot to do with the sexual abuse you suffered as a child at the hands of a male, and wanting to be in the dominant predatory position. you have to ask yourself though, if you have succeeded in dominating a man against their will, and it's still not enough, is this really the way to be at peace? the answer is deeper than you think
this place is Ed-less and boring today so...been wondering...why do i get so massively turned on by the thought of a strong, confident man hurt and in pain? the more i think about it the more attracted i am to the idea. my fantasies have become darker and more violent over time. anyone else experiencing this??
According to research, phobias could be memories passed down from your ancestors through DNA.
You want him to be in a needy and powerless position so you can feel like you have a chance with the said dominant, strong, confident man. Luckily for you, there are shitloads of self-esteem books on the Internet, the bad part is that they aren't made of pictures,so you might need the help of an intelligent adult to read it :(