I've had fantasies of raising a kid up to become a serial killer, but not with my daughter. She wouldn't make a very good serial killer. She's too caring and compassionate.
So you only keep your daughter because she provides you with a benefit cheque, and you fantasized about turning her into a serial killer. Yet you claim that she is a caring, compassionate individual (which has nothing to do with your influence) and you homeschool her so as to ensure that she receives a proper education, without incurring too much damage at school. Do you not see how these two pictures represent vastly diverging and conflicting realities?