Love is my weakness. Love and also rage. I was emotionally abused as well as physically, psychologically by my FOO.
Love is blindness
I don't want to see
Won't you wrap the night
Around me?
Oh my heart
Love is blindness
Have you tried sending the photos to your ex, titling it something like "So, this is what your mother sent me. Thoughts?"
I'd stay out of it personally, that sort of bait is likely to just rope you back to square one, but the curiosity of why they were sent could be appeased without you lowering yourself. At the very least you'd not be left to the torturous devices of your own thoughts.
Rehabilitated meth head, married a mildly successful small business owner, used her kid for child support. Works 25 hour weeks while living off her ex baby dads child support and still claiming the title independent.
She hates her mother and because of that she's turned out to be almost the opposite and very independent.
"Have you tried sending the photos to your ex, titling it something like "So, this is what your mother sent me. Thoughts?""
This is a good way to deal with it. You have these occasions to be direct and actually settle some things for good, yet you waste them even when you have nothing to lose by doing so. Asking for an explanation in this situation isn't weird or awkward, it's in fact the NORMAL thing to do. That you say nothing after receiving the pics raises more flags to those around tbh, and shows you're taking them more seriously than you are expected to.
I can't imagine why you are so afraid of direct confrontation. Maybe you already know it's going to be rejection, and you're too afraid of making it decisive and final? Why else would you just keep on wondering and wondering and speculating and making up theories? Fuck, I'd go crazy from that. This hesitation isn't calculation, it's worry. Try being direct for once, maybe the girl really likes you after all. And if not, you'd probably find a blunt rejection more relieving than catastrophic at this point.
I can understand and I'm not ruling it out completely that she may just be messing with me. I've been looking at her behavior patterns and it's simply out of character to do such a thing. She isn't the type to break her values or integrity easily so I doubt it.
I really don't think it's worth even digging up. The risk I run trying to get more information out of her just isn't worth it anymore. It's just sickening to think of how many times I've separated myself from her like this only to drag myself back in.
It shouldn't of took 6 years.