sounds like a challenge. what are the terms of the challenge?
J - couple questions if you dont mind indulging me. So far you're pretty intense, so I'd like to hear more. . . so you have been deeply infatuated with another sociopath? (Or whatever you want to call it). You didn't find it annoying that s/he was mirroring back to you what you were saying? Was it a she? Is it always a she?
You said that you "love" those you want to protect and see happy - does that not apply to those you are sexually attracted to? I ask because to be romantically in love with someone, you have to go through the stage of infatuation and you seem to talk as they are separate. Is infatuation the only form of romantic love you go through? are you generally done with the target after infatuation runs its course? does the infatuation continue for the unattainable few? Do you go psycho/stalker ever?
Mirroring is part of any interaction whether intentional or subliminal when trying to build a rapport. I didn't mind being manipulated, it was mutually benificial. If anything I found it amusing to see someone use such familiar tactics on me. I would occasionally laugh to myself when Icaught her using a particular technique...
Yes, it has always been female for me.
I do love some of the women I am sexually attracted to ofcourse, but i was saying that i never loved the sociopaths, those were more about curiosity and infatuation.
and i see infatuation and love as two very separate things, infatuation is the initial spark that draws us in, where love in the family like bond that we have with others to prolong a community type experience...
and i believe infatuation is the classic idea of romance, the kind of passion that drives one to write poetry, and give hot oil massages by candle light and soft music... infatuation drives us to please others for the sake of making them elated... so as to make them yearn for us equally.
i would not say i am done with them... i have many lovers, some stay, some go, some are very close friends... some hate me...
I dont believe i've seen anyone as unattainable in my adult life... then again, i know how to get what i want... and i have never allowed myself to want someone who didnt want me... there are far too many beautiful fish in the sea to simply obsess...