"You're a man. If you didn't want it and you weren't drugged you could have stopped it."
She proved to be stronger than me. Struggling proved useless, which, while it didn't stop me from doing it when able, had shown me that the only way to stop it was to avoid her or be in blatantly public places. The paralysis usually kicked in once things felt hopeless (when the case things were less lucid, "easier" to black out), save for the first time where it was more about the blind sighting and confusion.
What would you suggest I have done, got a weapon? Even if I used one to take her down, it'd have added additional complications. I thought about it, a lot, but I knew better than to give into a murderous impulse that would have just backfired on me and the rest of my life.
"The first time it happened might have been fucked up a little bit, but it happened multiple times."
So repeat offenses of rape are consensual?
Huh, learned something today.
"She even got pregnant eventually."
It didn't take long.
"You had opportunities to not let it happen."
She knew enough law to use it to her advantage, and would have quickly turned it around on me using gender bias and perspective spin. She proved in the past to be willing to injure herself to get what she wants, among other extremes. Seriously, it was like a Bizarro World Lifetime Movie at points. 
Again, I was protected just from not being around her or having witnesses. This worked fairly well at first, but once she was in the same place that I slept? My other option at that point would have been dropping out of school, as I couldn't afford to live alone, other possible roommates were taken, friends were willing to take her in still for the rent cost reduction, and I had pretty much been groomed to think that, if I fucked up school, I fucked up life for good, while effectively digging myself out of what was a pretty shoddy GPA... so I didn't leave.
Arguably a dumb decision, but in the aftermath I am better off with the degree than without it. You could argue that's choosing to continue to face it, but that doesn't denote consent, that just means I saw myself as trapped.
"So no, it's not rape if it happened over and over again and you had the ability to do something about it rather than remain silent, docile, and not take the initiative to stop it. You allowed it to happen."
Funny, I thought saying "No" denied consent, and taking action beyond that was seen as committing an offense. So you barging into a room and fucking someone while holding their mouth shut is consensual to you, all the while beating them senseless while even showing a mind to strangle, because she can't say no? I hope you don't let women know that too openly in real life~
I wasn't silent for all of it, mostly for the parts where she either forced me to be quiet or had proven I was helpless. From your explanation, weakness denotes consent, which is a rather strange view, if you ask me, to have.
"He wasn't too weak. He's a man and he had the strength to do anything."
You keep bringing up this "man" thing, like as if that was supposed to suddenly make me stronger than her.
I wasn't. I was weaker than her. The schizophrenic flipping out didn't make things easier, but even without that she wasn't weak or stupid, especially just because "she's a woman". She might have been delusional, but that doesn't mean she lacked enough know-how to function like that.
"Simple as walking out."
Yes, because that allows me to phase through grapples like some sort of ghost. Again, having people around was really the best defense.
Still, feel free to think what you want, you didn't see it, so it makes sense that you'd see things that way. Even if you had, given my algolagnia, you'd likely still carry that view.
