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What its like for a male with Borderline Personality Disorder


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You feel nothing, absolutely nothing, most of the time. You don't give a shit about anyone but yourself, and you get sick of people having expectations out of you, especially when they won't let you just be you. They call you arrogant because you're more confident than them, and won't bend for them, as they mean nothing to you. You'd rather see them squeem in discomfort when you're not like them, than to conform to their boring world.

So hell yeah, I'll be confrontational until I die. They may not give the diagnosis as an adult, but my ODD never went away. That's just the borderline in me. Honestly, yeah I got them to get rid of the diagnosis, just as I did the ASPD diagnosis, but in a way its not really my problem but theirs. I guess I just like my bipolar diagnosis better, it carries less of a stigma, and therapists treat me better when only that is on my diagnosis. To be fair though, they put the cluster B diagnoses as "deferred".

But then I start caring again, because I fall in love with someone. All of a sudden I have those intense emotions, and apparently she has them too. Though she doesn't seem like the rest. Maybe she is, maybe this isn't different, who knows? It's only been a month. Though the infatuation period seems to have begun crashing down. Its where it returns when she's around, or is this love? Though once the infatuationo period fades, will it be the same? I hope it will, but I know my track record.

It can work out if we keep things exciting. Otherwise I will get bored. We're planning on travelling. Already making plans. So exciting. Either way, back to my initial point. I'm like the polar opposite type of person towards someone I don't give a shit about than someone I like. I'd honestly start thinking I was a sociopath if I didn't get so attached when in love.

I was able to finally quit caffeine. And by the way, happy Ramadan folks!

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What its like for a male with Borderline Personality Disorder

how are you able to distinguish what it's like being a male BPD from what it's like to be an ASPD?

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by thesugargirl

how are you able to distinguish what it's like being a male BPD from what it's like to be an ASPD?

 The above doesn't sound very ASPD. Then again, outside the criminal diagnostic criteria, I really don't understand ASPD all that much.

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What its like for a male with Borderline Personality Disorder

how do you get them to get rid of a diagnosis?

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What its like for a male with Borderline Personality Disorder

I'm glad you're at peace wih yourself.

"You feel nothing, absolutely nothing, most of the time. You don't give a shit about anyone but yourself, and you get sick of people having expectations out of you, especially when they won't let you just be you. They call you arrogant because you're more confident than them, and won't bend for them, as they mean nothing to you. You'd rather see them squeem in discomfort when you're not like them, than to conform to their boring world."

I like this a lot ^(I can relate)

 

 

 

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What its like for a male with Borderline Personality Disorder

 

by thesugargirl

how do you get them to get rid of a diagnosis?

I argued down the diagnosis of ASPD because of enviromental factors and that I don't have that much of a criminal record. I also claimed alot of the stuff my mother said was lies, and because she was the only source of alot of the information, they only had that truancy, and fights in school to go on. It's not much distinguishable from being BPD at that point, so they thought my "shallow affect" was only when I was depressed.

Also, I got really good at pretending to be more emotional than I am when I don't feel much. Honestly, that's what everyone does, because we live in a culture where everyone's expected to feel something all the time. As for the BPD diagnosis, the lack of abandonment issues makes a diagnosis difficult, alongside other things I've argued about. I was able to argue after 3 years living on my own, that all the issues I had related to my enviroment more than some personality disorder. Even the criminal behavior that I did get  charged with in my teens, I relied on the fact that I was in a high crime neighborhood, and said I was largely influenced by those around me.

I do feel intense emotions at certain times like a borderline, but that could also be bipolar. Another diagnosis I recieved in my teens.

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What its like for a male with Borderline Personality Disorder

That passage sort of goes against the passions of your former stalking, doesn't it? If you didn't care, why would you stalk? If you didn't care, why would you feel the need to stop stalking?

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What its like for a male with Borderline Personality Disorder

She's the only person who's ever drawn any emotion out me. It's the main reason she's special and I couldn't let her leave, other women just didn't cut it. She is the only exception to my behavior. Other than her, I fit pretty well into Mac's description. 

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by thesugargirl

how are you able to distinguish what it's like being a male BPD from what it's like to be an ASPD?

This can't be a serious question.

People with BPD regularly complain that they feel chronically empty, but are subject to bouts of intense emotion which can last moments, hours, but rarely days.

A person can, of course, have both disorders, but if we're looking at this one particular post there are no discernible AsPD traits. I don't know - I'm not on here often enough so you may have seen something that I haven't.

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What its like for a male with Borderline Personality Disorder

I didn't think flat affect and emptiness and feelings of superiority are BPD.  Also, didn't ME say "obsession when infatuated" was a sociopath trait?

I think only a psychiatrist can diagnose you for sure, and they are wrong sometimes. There are bad psychiatrists and therapists.

By bipolar was misdiagnosed as depression most of my life. But if you look at the traits of hypomania and mania, I have every single symptom in spades.

I only care what someone is diagnosed as, so if I can tell if they could one day kill me and not experience any remorse our guilt. :)

I totally would not enjoy being murdered! :)

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